I promise myself this everyday.
I will not think about you today. Well...Not after I've finished saying this anyway.
Fuck.
I will not think about you or try to contact you all fucking day.
Shit this is going to be hard I can tell.
I am not going to text you or email you or look at your FB in private because I know you can't tell if I have or not. I don't give a shit if you're at work or at home or if you're out keeping promises you made to me but doing it with her. I promise to give up for just one day and if I succeed, I will do it all again tomorrow. Come on Elljay, you have better things in life than some dumb stupid boy who loves everything else in this world a million times more than he ever said he loved you. He doesn't want to remember you exist. He hates your stupid fat arse and you should go and find someone better to carry on your life with. Who needs to be dragged down anyway?! I promise to find someone better. Someone who wants to take care of me and treat me like a queen. Doesn't mean I'm going to let him, but I want the intentions to be there. Not just some hollow stupid words thanks. I promise that I'm going to not care about this at all today. I swear that I'm so much better off without you mister. I promise that I'm more pretty and more happy and more motivated to do well without you.
I promise I'm crossing my fingers.
I always cross my fingers.
I don't make promises I can't keep.
Some of us still keep to old skool
Some of us still Love you. There is only one person in the group of "us". It's me.
I've not got my fingers crossed right now.
I love you. Fuck.
Fuck.
I will not think about you or try to contact you all fucking day.
Shit this is going to be hard I can tell.
I am not going to text you or email you or look at your FB in private because I know you can't tell if I have or not. I don't give a shit if you're at work or at home or if you're out keeping promises you made to me but doing it with her. I promise to give up for just one day and if I succeed, I will do it all again tomorrow. Come on Elljay, you have better things in life than some dumb stupid boy who loves everything else in this world a million times more than he ever said he loved you. He doesn't want to remember you exist. He hates your stupid fat arse and you should go and find someone better to carry on your life with. Who needs to be dragged down anyway?! I promise to find someone better. Someone who wants to take care of me and treat me like a queen. Doesn't mean I'm going to let him, but I want the intentions to be there. Not just some hollow stupid words thanks. I promise that I'm going to not care about this at all today. I swear that I'm so much better off without you mister. I promise that I'm more pretty and more happy and more motivated to do well without you.
I promise I'm crossing my fingers.
I always cross my fingers.
I don't make promises I can't keep.
Some of us still keep to old skool
Some of us still Love you. There is only one person in the group of "us". It's me.
I've not got my fingers crossed right now.
I love you. Fuck.