Weds 29.07.2009
I managed to get mum to respod to emails today... I am so worried about how she's doing but she never really says much over the phone. She says she's "surviving, even though it' a very hard time". She's booked herself two weeks away on the isle of Skyros in Greece starting 8th August which is great!
A couple of weeks away from all of this mish-mash will do her some good (I hope). She needs & deserves some peace and recouperation time. She told me she left a present for the big step and a letter to the little step at Taplow Towers. It's sweet and at least they will know we didn't just leave and abandoned them!
I feel so bad for mum. She is a good person and has gone through so much in her life. She's struggled so many times to start over, keep things running smoothly and show Granny that she's something...someone to be proud of. I really thought she'd got there. Somewhere really happy. To the place she has always deserved to be. We all thought that. But... Bigshot has turned out to be the best and worst man in her life I think. He's destroyed her more than I've ever seen or learned about before... more than Dad or that alcoholic, wife-beating old man ever did.
I suppose I can imagine almost being in her situation, The only thing is, I had her to run & cry to. Mum doesn't really have that. She tries too hard not to be a burden on her kids or family and it means we'll never be able to help her on the inside...
I'll go in on a mortgage with her, I'll give her as much financial assistance as she needs, and as much as I can help with. I can cuddle her as much as she wants... I just wsh I could help her laugh or smile at the moment. Massi says they're keeping her busy, including Mosib & Puffers... I'm glad she's being looked after while I'm not there...
I'm tired and I managed to get through another office day with very few dramas and panic attacks (lol) so I think I'll treat myself to a nice comfy bed time! I just wish Ditto was here - I'm going to smother him with kisses when he gets back heheh (^_^)
mmmm yummy Stud! x
PS - Scoobs needs company tomorrow. Emily is givng him heartache agin and he broke it off with Ashley...
Oh Dear! Lozzy_Jo to the rescue again! (the good thing is, he remembred the money he owes me and will bring it when he buys me a lovely Italian Dinner!)
G'night!
A couple of weeks away from all of this mish-mash will do her some good (I hope). She needs & deserves some peace and recouperation time. She told me she left a present for the big step and a letter to the little step at Taplow Towers. It's sweet and at least they will know we didn't just leave and abandoned them!
I feel so bad for mum. She is a good person and has gone through so much in her life. She's struggled so many times to start over, keep things running smoothly and show Granny that she's something...someone to be proud of. I really thought she'd got there. Somewhere really happy. To the place she has always deserved to be. We all thought that. But... Bigshot has turned out to be the best and worst man in her life I think. He's destroyed her more than I've ever seen or learned about before... more than Dad or that alcoholic, wife-beating old man ever did.
I suppose I can imagine almost being in her situation, The only thing is, I had her to run & cry to. Mum doesn't really have that. She tries too hard not to be a burden on her kids or family and it means we'll never be able to help her on the inside...
I'll go in on a mortgage with her, I'll give her as much financial assistance as she needs, and as much as I can help with. I can cuddle her as much as she wants... I just wsh I could help her laugh or smile at the moment. Massi says they're keeping her busy, including Mosib & Puffers... I'm glad she's being looked after while I'm not there...
I'm tired and I managed to get through another office day with very few dramas and panic attacks (lol) so I think I'll treat myself to a nice comfy bed time! I just wish Ditto was here - I'm going to smother him with kisses when he gets back heheh (^_^)
mmmm yummy Stud! x
PS - Scoobs needs company tomorrow. Emily is givng him heartache agin and he broke it off with Ashley...
Oh Dear! Lozzy_Jo to the rescue again! (the good thing is, he remembred the money he owes me and will bring it when he buys me a lovely Italian Dinner!)
G'night!