I dreamt of you Superman
Dear Superman
I had the strangest dream last night...
We'd bumped in to each other in this quaint little village/town somewhere in a mountainous region. We decided to break away from our groups of friends and go for a little walk together. You and I walking side by side, joking about old times and reminiscing how it used to be between us. It was nice, pleasant, happy and warm. Being with you stirred some old feelings within me. Well they're not old feelings. Not really. They're the feelings that will inhabit my heart until I'm nothing but dust.
We walked so far, we ended up alongside a swelling river. The next thing I know, we're fighting to stay afloat in this raging current. The water is grey and cloudy. There's no way of telling how deep it is of what terrors lurk beneath the surface. There are rocks everywhere and we're swimming as hard as we can towards each other. We've been fighting that current since the day we met 6 years ago. You go over the edge of a black and jagged rock and I lose sight of you. I'm screaming for you. The screaming is cutting my throat and banging within my ear canals. For what seems like hours. I see you appear back over the rocks. You crawl up on top of them as the water level drops just enough for you to lay upon them and not get swept away. You're bleeding. You've got a split lip and cuts on your Knuckles. Your body is heaving with the weight of breathing. Weighed down by trying to keep the cold at bay.
I let the current take me to you and my stiff body smacks in to the side of the rock. I'm concentrating so hard on you that I ignore the pain ripping through my side and my aching back. I crawl to you and kiss your face. Your soft, trembling face.
A tall dark stranger with a shaved head and nothing on but surf shorts appears. He's shouting to us from the edge of the torrent. I can't hear what he's saying to us, the roar of the water going past our heads is too loud. I lose focus on him for a second and look back at you. It seems like we're silent together for years until I feel a body sidle up next to me. The handsome stranger has swum over to us and he grabs my wrist with his blue collar hands. He wants me to go with him "you know it's better this way' he whispers in my ear.
It's almost like a wave of realisation crashes over me as I sit up and look at you both. You sigh. A sigh of recognition. You know who he is, he knows who you and I are. I have absolutely no idea what's going on. I get the impression that he's the one I'm meant to be with. But why not you? It's bussing round my empty head. Now comes the heart wrenching decision to choose one of you. Do I pick you Superman? Did I pick you?!
No.
I picked him.
He jumps back in to the cold grey water. The current is weak enough to stay in control now. You roll off in to the water and I climb in too. I quickly feel the chill burning through to my bones and my lips start to shiver. You stay silent. Why do you stay silent?! Say something for god's sake!! Nothing is said and it's almost like I'm being pulled like a magnet and I'm completely out of control of my body. I swim to this shadowed man and he kisses me. We bob there for a minute, if that. Kissing and letting the water wash over us as he keeps us anchored to the rocks with his tree trunk arms. I pull my lips from his and glance at you. I see the disappointment in your eyes, and the water running from your hair down your face looks like a bead of diamond tears.
As suddenly as I "chose" this other guy, you turn in the icy flow and swim against the current. It's like I'm watching you in slow motion, while you move double time. Before I have the chance to call to you, you're far up stream. "You'll never have to see him again" rings in my ears.
Is this what's going on? Is this what I really want?! Deep down? I have no idea.
All I know is, despite the Spanish Starfish and all the new happiness he's bringing me, I've started my day with a burning sense of longing for you. Ill never know if your injuries got worse or you recovered. I'll never know if you got out of the river alive before the next surge of water came crashing down the mountains.
I'm feeling surreal. I have a feeling I need to do something meaningful today. Achieve a small goal I've been putting off before I can forget about this dream and get on with the next.
One last time Superman, I still love you.
I would have chosen you if I could have overpowered the current. I promise.
Never mind.
xxx ♡ xxx
I had the strangest dream last night...
We'd bumped in to each other in this quaint little village/town somewhere in a mountainous region. We decided to break away from our groups of friends and go for a little walk together. You and I walking side by side, joking about old times and reminiscing how it used to be between us. It was nice, pleasant, happy and warm. Being with you stirred some old feelings within me. Well they're not old feelings. Not really. They're the feelings that will inhabit my heart until I'm nothing but dust.
We walked so far, we ended up alongside a swelling river. The next thing I know, we're fighting to stay afloat in this raging current. The water is grey and cloudy. There's no way of telling how deep it is of what terrors lurk beneath the surface. There are rocks everywhere and we're swimming as hard as we can towards each other. We've been fighting that current since the day we met 6 years ago. You go over the edge of a black and jagged rock and I lose sight of you. I'm screaming for you. The screaming is cutting my throat and banging within my ear canals. For what seems like hours. I see you appear back over the rocks. You crawl up on top of them as the water level drops just enough for you to lay upon them and not get swept away. You're bleeding. You've got a split lip and cuts on your Knuckles. Your body is heaving with the weight of breathing. Weighed down by trying to keep the cold at bay.
I let the current take me to you and my stiff body smacks in to the side of the rock. I'm concentrating so hard on you that I ignore the pain ripping through my side and my aching back. I crawl to you and kiss your face. Your soft, trembling face.
A tall dark stranger with a shaved head and nothing on but surf shorts appears. He's shouting to us from the edge of the torrent. I can't hear what he's saying to us, the roar of the water going past our heads is too loud. I lose focus on him for a second and look back at you. It seems like we're silent together for years until I feel a body sidle up next to me. The handsome stranger has swum over to us and he grabs my wrist with his blue collar hands. He wants me to go with him "you know it's better this way' he whispers in my ear.
It's almost like a wave of realisation crashes over me as I sit up and look at you both. You sigh. A sigh of recognition. You know who he is, he knows who you and I are. I have absolutely no idea what's going on. I get the impression that he's the one I'm meant to be with. But why not you? It's bussing round my empty head. Now comes the heart wrenching decision to choose one of you. Do I pick you Superman? Did I pick you?!
No.
I picked him.
He jumps back in to the cold grey water. The current is weak enough to stay in control now. You roll off in to the water and I climb in too. I quickly feel the chill burning through to my bones and my lips start to shiver. You stay silent. Why do you stay silent?! Say something for god's sake!! Nothing is said and it's almost like I'm being pulled like a magnet and I'm completely out of control of my body. I swim to this shadowed man and he kisses me. We bob there for a minute, if that. Kissing and letting the water wash over us as he keeps us anchored to the rocks with his tree trunk arms. I pull my lips from his and glance at you. I see the disappointment in your eyes, and the water running from your hair down your face looks like a bead of diamond tears.
As suddenly as I "chose" this other guy, you turn in the icy flow and swim against the current. It's like I'm watching you in slow motion, while you move double time. Before I have the chance to call to you, you're far up stream. "You'll never have to see him again" rings in my ears.
Is this what's going on? Is this what I really want?! Deep down? I have no idea.
All I know is, despite the Spanish Starfish and all the new happiness he's bringing me, I've started my day with a burning sense of longing for you. Ill never know if your injuries got worse or you recovered. I'll never know if you got out of the river alive before the next surge of water came crashing down the mountains.
I'm feeling surreal. I have a feeling I need to do something meaningful today. Achieve a small goal I've been putting off before I can forget about this dream and get on with the next.
One last time Superman, I still love you.
I would have chosen you if I could have overpowered the current. I promise.
Never mind.
xxx ♡ xxx