Pointless, but with a point.
Not a happy post, but a few thoughts that I may change my mind about later (all from emails sent today):
ON NOW:
Not doing to well right now… trying, doing a little better but still not where I want to be. Unfortunately I won’t be going anywhere till we get back. FYI, Rememebr telling you that we dropped off suplies but that we weren't going to get to go to Pakistan? Well I kinda lied. I was supposed to go into Pakistan here, something I found out recently. I didn’t want to tell you because I didn’t want you to worry. They are our allies and all that, but the place I wanted to go is currently the world hotspot for the terrorists as it borders Afghanistan and that is where all the terrorists supposedly escaped the country when we invaded. They even have a $10,000,000 reward for the capture or head of any American military member. They have vowed to RPG any helicopter out of the sky that attempts to help the homeless paki’s get food or supplies, and helo would be the only way for me to get there. I would have been working with my chief doing exactly what I want to be doing with my career right now, assessing bases and providing protection for the Old Man, getting to go to some cool places and getting lots of experience and tax free pay in a combat zone. You won’t have to worry. Somehow your prayers probably kept me from going. You can thank god, or something….I’ll just continue to be disappointed.
ON MOTIVATION:
You are right about the negative things being the only stuff anyone hears. It's like in the movie The Recruit. Al Pacino says about the CIA “Our failures are known, our successes are not.” Right now, especially, that is how it is. That is how I feel and that is how I want to be, humble as it may sound...Even if you do or don’t go with plan "A," Just remember to chase your dreams. You want to be something, GO FOR IT. Don’t let anyone stop you. It sounds really cliché and groan-tastic, but do not let anyone take your dreams away from you, because one day, your dreams will be nothing more than dreams and they will be all you have.
ON MARRIAGE:
I can’t tell you much of anything as far as relationships are concerned. I'm pretty much cursed in that area. What I know is that I have all but lost any faith in the institution of marriage as anything more than a legal term for two people who live together for an extended period of time reaping a legal benefiet come tax time. I believe in fidelity, love, and respect in a marriage, but I have never seen it. It’s like a fairy tale. Everyone hears about it, and talks about it, and everyone lives happily ever after, but I have never seen it happen. It’s nice to look at in movies, but it never really works anymore. Marriage is a joke and because of everything I have seen, I probably have more faith in religion than marriage at this point. Nothing is scared these days. I doubt I’ll ever get married, and that’s fine. Hell, dating isn’t even in my schedule really (mostly due to lack of incomming interest, and my high standards). Oh well. You’ll probably go say a prayer or something about this, and life will move forward for me as usual. I’m content with a life free of drama anyway. I am free do things like play rugby and deploy with my military career without having to worry about a nagging spouse or kids who I won’t be there for. I pretty much have it made. Don't worry about me though, even the ships with the greatest hull integrity have voids deep within them.
~Winding down...Soon now. Can't wait to be home. Can't wait to get away.
~Foreign feeling of not understanding why. How can you see inside me? Thought I was dead here. Am I alive in my mind or out of my head? Why do I do this so often to me?
Enigma Executed:
Q:What did the mexican say when a house fell on him?
A:Get off me, holmes.
ON NOW:
Not doing to well right now… trying, doing a little better but still not where I want to be. Unfortunately I won’t be going anywhere till we get back. FYI, Rememebr telling you that we dropped off suplies but that we weren't going to get to go to Pakistan? Well I kinda lied. I was supposed to go into Pakistan here, something I found out recently. I didn’t want to tell you because I didn’t want you to worry. They are our allies and all that, but the place I wanted to go is currently the world hotspot for the terrorists as it borders Afghanistan and that is where all the terrorists supposedly escaped the country when we invaded. They even have a $10,000,000 reward for the capture or head of any American military member. They have vowed to RPG any helicopter out of the sky that attempts to help the homeless paki’s get food or supplies, and helo would be the only way for me to get there. I would have been working with my chief doing exactly what I want to be doing with my career right now, assessing bases and providing protection for the Old Man, getting to go to some cool places and getting lots of experience and tax free pay in a combat zone. You won’t have to worry. Somehow your prayers probably kept me from going. You can thank god, or something….I’ll just continue to be disappointed.
ON MOTIVATION:
You are right about the negative things being the only stuff anyone hears. It's like in the movie The Recruit. Al Pacino says about the CIA “Our failures are known, our successes are not.” Right now, especially, that is how it is. That is how I feel and that is how I want to be, humble as it may sound...Even if you do or don’t go with plan "A," Just remember to chase your dreams. You want to be something, GO FOR IT. Don’t let anyone stop you. It sounds really cliché and groan-tastic, but do not let anyone take your dreams away from you, because one day, your dreams will be nothing more than dreams and they will be all you have.
ON MARRIAGE:
I can’t tell you much of anything as far as relationships are concerned. I'm pretty much cursed in that area. What I know is that I have all but lost any faith in the institution of marriage as anything more than a legal term for two people who live together for an extended period of time reaping a legal benefiet come tax time. I believe in fidelity, love, and respect in a marriage, but I have never seen it. It’s like a fairy tale. Everyone hears about it, and talks about it, and everyone lives happily ever after, but I have never seen it happen. It’s nice to look at in movies, but it never really works anymore. Marriage is a joke and because of everything I have seen, I probably have more faith in religion than marriage at this point. Nothing is scared these days. I doubt I’ll ever get married, and that’s fine. Hell, dating isn’t even in my schedule really (mostly due to lack of incomming interest, and my high standards). Oh well. You’ll probably go say a prayer or something about this, and life will move forward for me as usual. I’m content with a life free of drama anyway. I am free do things like play rugby and deploy with my military career without having to worry about a nagging spouse or kids who I won’t be there for. I pretty much have it made. Don't worry about me though, even the ships with the greatest hull integrity have voids deep within them.
~Winding down...Soon now. Can't wait to be home. Can't wait to get away.
~Foreign feeling of not understanding why. How can you see inside me? Thought I was dead here. Am I alive in my mind or out of my head? Why do I do this so often to me?
Enigma Executed:
Q:What did the mexican say when a house fell on him?
A:Get off me, holmes.