Life
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I've been thinking later about life......getting married and stuff has just made me take stock as such of where I am and where I've come from! I'm not a teenager anymore, will I always feel 18 though? I've realised that dating has passed, crushes have passed, all that drama has passed. being a teenager was fun but it always felt like an emotional struggle and such a hard time! Had those too. Also working with children has made me think about my own children-who-have-yet-to-be-born, I want to wait quite a while, there's so much going on there! like a child, wow!
I've found that I can always have fun and will in some ways always be 18, life is meant to be enjoyful. I will always love curling up with doovet and a dvd. I will have to continue to cut out diet coke as my teeth are weak and I hate the dentist. I will feel bones aching that I maybe didnt feel before. I will be more courageous as I learn not to care about people's opinions so much, I will be more adventurous yet more and more cautious. I will always learn and be more ready to share my views. I will always know who are my friends and how fricking important friendships are because we have been through so much. I will cry a few more thousand tears and laugh a million more laughs. I hope I will reach 70 and find a freedom and joy there that I never thought I would when I didnt want to be old.
It all started in 1985, i feel like it starts every morning and I feel it will start again for me dancing away on 11th june 2010.
wow life.
I've been thinking later about life......getting married and stuff has just made me take stock as such of where I am and where I've come from! I'm not a teenager anymore, will I always feel 18 though? I've realised that dating has passed, crushes have passed, all that drama has passed. being a teenager was fun but it always felt like an emotional struggle and such a hard time! Had those too. Also working with children has made me think about my own children-who-have-yet-to-be-born, I want to wait quite a while, there's so much going on there! like a child, wow!
I've found that I can always have fun and will in some ways always be 18, life is meant to be enjoyful. I will always love curling up with doovet and a dvd. I will have to continue to cut out diet coke as my teeth are weak and I hate the dentist. I will feel bones aching that I maybe didnt feel before. I will be more courageous as I learn not to care about people's opinions so much, I will be more adventurous yet more and more cautious. I will always learn and be more ready to share my views. I will always know who are my friends and how fricking important friendships are because we have been through so much. I will cry a few more thousand tears and laugh a million more laughs. I hope I will reach 70 and find a freedom and joy there that I never thought I would when I didnt want to be old.
It all started in 1985, i feel like it starts every morning and I feel it will start again for me dancing away on 11th june 2010.
wow life.