There is no crying in football....hmmm....
I really do not think that I could help it. I was so mad...i wanted to kick McNAbb personally. What was he thinking? He is famous for those chokes during a big game...another attempt at being champions...lost. Oh well...i still think they did great...I still think they are victors. Maybe next year boys...high five for super bowl. :) ANyways...i did not really appreciate some of the crap i got because of my boys losing....however i do appreciate those of you that were nice and gave me some love Even the maintenance man at my apartment said he was sorry. I only got one GET WELL SOON card regarding their loss so i guess that is okay. :) My job today is rather easy....I am subsituting right now at Cooper High School ...but I am in a computer lab with an aide...the only reason i am here is because she is not allowed to be in here by herself...so i get to sit here and do nothing all day...and listen to music...whatever...thats pretty easy money folks. I miss my Austin kids a lot...they were the cutest EVER. I love teaching music. I have already seen like 50 of my austin kids since friday and its sooo cute....they like me. :) I want to go back. I was really excited to get my new excercise equipment...something to make up for my boys losing. j/k :) Since i have been working all the time i have not had time to significantly work out like i used to...so its starting to frustrate me...i always have a better day when I work out...so now i can workout the hour between jobs. I hope it works..i feel like im slacking. Anyways...I got my contract in for working camp at Clemson...and I am way excited..i miss camp so much. I am starting to look over GRE stuff for the exam that I should have already taken and I just really hate standarized tests. They suck. I am not good at them. I just want to go to grad school...forget the exam. Church was really good on Sunday. McQueen said some really awesome things...i was glad to be up on platform singing again....i really missed not doing it for a few weeks. McQueen talked about passion...how God designed everyone to be passionate about something...true...he linked it to focused attention...and focused attention is the greatest act of love that you can give someone. He got me to thinking that I really need to work on that. I have not been giving focused attention to hardly anyone in my life. I mean I spend time with people all the time and hang out with family, etc. But...there is definitely something more that I need to do. I think that might be why I have been frustrated with Michael and I's relationship at times...we should work on that. :) If something is going wrong in a relationship...why is that...because there is not enough focused attention....there could be a ton of attention...but focused requires more effort. So, i thought about my relationship with God. There are so many excuses that I could use but I am not going to....because work, sleep, really nothing is good enough. What i do with my time is what i consider valuable...i have not shown God that I think He is valuable in my life lately. I need to work on that immediately. How could I make Him think such a thing? What a jerk. God pursues me everyday....i do not even realize His beauty sometimes. It is hard to miss something so beautiful but I guess that is just how unfocused I am. How is He going to guide me with His eye...if i am not even looking at Him? How is He going to help me with personal struggles if I cannot even let Him breathe for me? There were lots of good things in McQueen's sermon to think about. Well, I guess i will work on some stuff that I need to get done. Have a great day guys! God Bless!