its me and the moon, she said
things were good tonight until now.
lots of realizations hit me hard.
i'm really not THAT sensitive, but i do care a lot. maybe thats it.
its hurtful as i sit and read things. see things. facebook screws up a lot of stuff.
i screw a lot of stuff up. people screw a lot of stuff up.
i have so many questions that i wish i had the guts to ask.
i keep listening to 'name' by goo goo dolls.
i think one of the hardest things is unbalanced relationships with people.
the ones where one person is trying so much harder than the other.
how about when there are just straight up misunderstandings.
or even better, how about when you finally understand something.
you get it...and its not what you wanted. desired. or thought would happen.
you were hoping for something else and what happens is far from it.
when somehow someone is always better. more fun. more like you.easier to talk to. more compatible personality.
more attractive. nicer family. understands you better. on and on and on..
i really wish i could be free from myself.
free from chains that make me a slave to being hateful towards myself.
to never believing any kind words.
i wish i could take a compliment and give glory to God for being my Maker and the One who deserves credit in the first place.
the reality is that there will always be someone better.
it doesn't make me any less of a person though.
thats what i know, but don't understand.
i pray that i would. i live in hope that i would because this life can't stay like this.
lots of realizations hit me hard.
i'm really not THAT sensitive, but i do care a lot. maybe thats it.
its hurtful as i sit and read things. see things. facebook screws up a lot of stuff.
i screw a lot of stuff up. people screw a lot of stuff up.
i have so many questions that i wish i had the guts to ask.
i keep listening to 'name' by goo goo dolls.
i think one of the hardest things is unbalanced relationships with people.
the ones where one person is trying so much harder than the other.
how about when there are just straight up misunderstandings.
or even better, how about when you finally understand something.
you get it...and its not what you wanted. desired. or thought would happen.
you were hoping for something else and what happens is far from it.
when somehow someone is always better. more fun. more like you.easier to talk to. more compatible personality.
more attractive. nicer family. understands you better. on and on and on..
i really wish i could be free from myself.
free from chains that make me a slave to being hateful towards myself.
to never believing any kind words.
i wish i could take a compliment and give glory to God for being my Maker and the One who deserves credit in the first place.
the reality is that there will always be someone better.
it doesn't make me any less of a person though.
thats what i know, but don't understand.
i pray that i would. i live in hope that i would because this life can't stay like this.