My dream didn't come true
I now know what it feels like for those contestants on American Idol who don't get into the final group.
I just found out my results for the ACET and it wasn't what I expected. I didn't pass if you didn't figure it out yet. I was back in grade 2 when I finally realized that this is the university that I really want to go to. I prepared for months for the entrance test yet I didn't pass.
Ugh I feel like such a failure. First I get my report card and see that it was one C that prevented me from getting a certificate yet again and now I find out that Ateneo just isn't in my future.
Everyone keeps saying that at least I have another college. The thing is I DON'T WANT TO GO TO THAT COLLEGE. I never did. I just kept saying that I would be fine with going there so I won't be as disappointed if I didn't get into Ateneo. Everytime I convinced someone that I was okay with going to La Salle, I was convincing myself as well.
To make things worse, my dad is being an asshole. On the way home I didn't feel like talking about it anymore so I didn't respond to whatever it was he was saying. And I get lectured about making the results an excuse to be an asshole to everyone. I don't get why he doesn't get it!! I've wanted to go to this school since j was younger. If I feel bad then I actually do feel really bad. And it's going to be a long time for me to get over this.