Adjusting...
I quit taking my meds. You might ask the obvious question of "why?". Survey says: Because I'd rather be miserable than be numb. I don't like being numb. My meds made me numb. When I was numb, I was miserable, but I didn't feel anything. I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't smile. I couldn't cry. I was just a lifeless piece of shit. It's better to feel than to not. But as a result of no longer taking my medication, I feel like shit. The feeling like shit is due to withdrawl. It's just like quiting a recreational drug. Withdrawl sucks. Can't sleep. I feel nausious. It's a constant state of feeling like your gonna regurgitate. I've lost most of my appitite. Which, to me, is a good thing. But when I do eat, I feel even worse than when I don't. I'm also done smoking menthol. The taste of menthol makes me want to vomit even more. I'm on my last pack of them. I would throw them out, but I was never one to waste cigs.
The last thing she gave me was a cold...
The last thing she gave me was a cold...