oh fuck
there are some things i'm ashamed of. first is when i'm in a fight i forget the good, great, and amazing things about you, i know i love you, but its just like eh, and i'm sorry. its at its worst when its been a long time since i saw you and then we start fighting, then i just dont care about what i say or do, and i'm sorry. i dont like feeling like that, because it feels like shit, then when i come to my senses and everythings fine i feel like a stupid idiot, and i'm ashamed of how i felt and acted. i'm sorry love. the other thing is that i watched the end of some stupid sappy movie last night, and as the movie ended, it got through my rock hard exterior (haha) and made me sad, i felt like i was a girl haha. i think thats all i got.
Update:
my samantha is gonna have puppies very soon, i guess a few days before she's gonna start clawing at where she's gonna give birth, like she's digging a nest, well she's already started with that. ryan's back to iraq :( he's there for another 8 months or so, then he comes home for a month, then he goes to alaska, then home for good. steve is just dumb. he left his car overnight at the train station and it got towed, and of course he doesnt have the money to pay for it, so there's mommy and daddy to the rescue again. he's constantly in a fight with his girlfriend. joey's joey lol. me i'm doing ok my back is hurting a lot tonight, i took medicines, just waiting for them to kick in. i still love my muffin more than i love life (haha i think i love taking a shit more than i love life), so lemme rephrase that, i love her more than ..... ummmm .... music, thats a good one. ha its kinda like i'm talking to myself. but she is amazing, i love her so much. sorry for being an asshole. :\ i cant wait to see her again, which will be in about 11 hours. i guess thats it for now.
Update:
my samantha is gonna have puppies very soon, i guess a few days before she's gonna start clawing at where she's gonna give birth, like she's digging a nest, well she's already started with that. ryan's back to iraq :( he's there for another 8 months or so, then he comes home for a month, then he goes to alaska, then home for good. steve is just dumb. he left his car overnight at the train station and it got towed, and of course he doesnt have the money to pay for it, so there's mommy and daddy to the rescue again. he's constantly in a fight with his girlfriend. joey's joey lol. me i'm doing ok my back is hurting a lot tonight, i took medicines, just waiting for them to kick in. i still love my muffin more than i love life (haha i think i love taking a shit more than i love life), so lemme rephrase that, i love her more than ..... ummmm .... music, thats a good one. ha its kinda like i'm talking to myself. but she is amazing, i love her so much. sorry for being an asshole. :\ i cant wait to see her again, which will be in about 11 hours. i guess thats it for now.