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I'm not sure why it took so long, but I snapped today.
I hate this house, this "family", this life.
It feels terrible to say it, but my father makes me wish I was dead.
Seeing him like this brought back so many memories, & I got so sick I threw up.
I wonder how he does this & feels NOTHING. He sees how upset it makes everyone...& he doesn't seem to care.
I hate pity him.
For so many reasons
I hate this house, this "family", this life.
It feels terrible to say it, but my father makes me wish I was dead.
Seeing him like this brought back so many memories, & I got so sick I threw up.
I wonder how he does this & feels NOTHING. He sees how upset it makes everyone...& he doesn't seem to care.
I hate pity him.
For so many reasons