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one.Another year has gone by. I'm a little late, I know. A lot of things have happened, a lot of bad things, a lot of good things. I've grown up a lot. Things are happening to the people around me that make me want to scream and cry and run for help. But these things are the things that make us who we are. I think without loss, we cannot progress in life. Without anything holding you back, nothing would be difficult. Things recently have been shaky. By lately I mean in the past few months. I had a run with the law, but really, so did everyone else I know. It seems to me that our group of friends has dwindled down to three. Look at last new years, everyone was in the same place with the people we loved, and this year it was just the three of us. I have the best girl friends in the world. I love the cig and red and my sisters at heart. They have seen me in my worst and in my best. 2006 was one of the most tiresome, stressful, crazy, awful times and I am glad it is all passed. It was horrible and it was great. I miss my sisters so much. I mean my fuckin CTC sisters, it's crazy to me, do you remember the days when nothing mattered and all we did was love each other and have fun and said fuck everyone else? I do and those were easily the best days of my life. I wish all of us still got along. Maybe it was because we were all so young. Maybe we really have changed a lot. You bitches will always have a place in my heart. We've been through a lot of shit together, and you are the ones that made me who I am. It came to our attention the other day that our friends are not our friends anymore. They are simply people we used to love and respect. Everything is different and everyone is so kiniving and un truthful and I am SO thankful we never got into that shit. I am glad we are smart. I'm glad I still have the people that mean the world to me around me and that I didn't give them up for a fucking drug. Things are happening around me that are stirring everyone up. I want it to stop and I want the bullshit to stop and I want this place back to the way it used to be, because it seems lately the only person you can trust is yourself. Drugs are not anything I ever want to affect my life but they have and they have affected us more that we know. Our friends are not themselves and it is hard to accept. I think the one thing I have realized this year is that we all need to appreciate what we have. Things happen that we can't control and sometimes we are ready for them and sometimes they are the most sudden fucking things in the world. Appreciate what is around you and the people you have because in a blink of an eye everything can be different. I'm worried about our friends and I hate the lies and the shit talking and the bullshit. It's not worth it. Let's start over.

end."dont cry i'll bring this home to you
if i can make this night light enough to move
dont cry i'll bring this home to you"