No explanations, no regrets...
Hello. Remember me?
Probably not.
I have been terrible about keeping tabs on people these last few months. Other than a random text message every so often or running into someone in the mall, I just plain have been terrible to get in touch with, and conversely I haven't made a strong attempt to keep old bonds thriving, which is my bad, completely.
So hey, if you're upset, I don't blame you. I've been a terrible friend in that respect. Its not that I'm ignoring anyone, or trying to. My lifestyle has been overhauled and I'm even now still adjusting. I'm learning how things are going to be from now on, and when I know for certain which way is up again, I can fit all the other pieces in the ever changing puzzle that is my life.
Big difference between the old Brent and the one writing today is that I'm not going to lose any sleep over this. I'm not stressed about it, and I'm not all pissed off that things aren't the way they used to be. I think I have the maturity to realize things don't always work out as planned. That's a big step for me, I think.
I miss you all, my friends. Please understand that. I love you all as well, in some way you've all been there for me during some of the harder times of my life. I'm happy to say I'm in a better (albeit busier) time in my life now. I'm stepping into a scary new world for me, and nothing is certain until I can gain footing.
The world of collections is neither glamourous nor amusing, but it very adequately pays the bills. It requires long hours, and the commute is almost 2 hours of pure hell, but I feel in the end it may be worth it. Clean Harbors is a good company to work for, but it gives a lot of heartburn, too. So maybe it's a mixed bag after all. Definitely better than anything I've had job-wise though.
There's so much to talk about, so much has happenned and so much more is happenning that I hardly know where to begin. So we'll tackle this the way I always do. Randomly.
Kevin and I are still together and doing very well. I was originally wary of working with someone I am dating, but we seem to have met common ground, and we have a clear separation between work and home (mostly). Since I also with with Kevin's mother, Sandy, it makes it that much more interesting. Her and I get along very well, to the point that she doesnt want me to leave to go to my Parent's house anymore. They set a place for me at the Dinner table every night. Its very cute.
My family. Wow, what developments there. Most everyone is already aware that my parents are getting divorced. I won't delve into the particulars of their lives, but needless to say it does complicate matters at home. Mom had moved out briefly, but has returned to save money to actually afford her own place. Dad apparently is keeping the house as long as he can, though he claims he couldn't afford to keep it. So on top of the normal arguing that goes on in my house, we get them going at it about divorcing too. Needless to say I spend even more time in my room with the door closed.
My sister is well, and my nephew Andrew has grown so big! Two and a half already. Talking, walking, asking questions, dancing, goofing off. Everything is so new and exciting for him, it really is great to watch him grow and develop into a kid from a baby.
I think Jett (my nephew's father for those who don't know) is dating Steph again, but I cannot confirm that. He certianly is around a lot lately...
I love having the weekends off, now all I need is for everyone else to have them off!
Lately moreso than ever, I'm filling what little spare time playing World Of Warcraft on Khadgar. (For those who don't care about WoW, skip ahead, cuz I'm gonna geek rant for a few) With BC now released, I'm happy to be able to play my Hunter again and see what new toys I can get for him. And hot on his heels is my mage, now lvl 56, ready to squeeze up and through the Dark Portal towards greatness. At level 50 is my paladin, and hopefully he won't be far behind those two. Kevin plays along with the pally with his Druid, so I want to be able to see this new content with him. Cris just moved his lvl 60 over to Khadgar, so I'll have a rogue available whenever he's free to help us get caught up. I've been trying to convince my sister to port over her warrior, but she doesnt want to leave her home server (Runetotem) behind. I have a Dranei Shaman rolled up, but I have no idea when I'll play him, although I do intend to play him quite a bit.
There, that's the super short WoW Update. Feel free to read on.
I did wait out all night for a Nintendo Wii, and I was #5 to get one. I've thoroughly enjoyed it thus far, although I rarely take the extra time to play it. All I seem to use it for is the Weather Channel that comes on it and the internet Browser for when I'm too lazy to boot up my PC. I like the fact that the day I brought it home, my whole family got involved and we played bowling on Wii Sports all night. Its a powerful device indeed if it can get my Mom to play video games.
Kevin and I are looking into moving closer to work. We're still in the conceptual stages right now as we're recoiling from holiday expenses (This was the first year I could afford presents for just about everybody!) but once everything gets ironed out and we settle some of our larger monthly bills (car loans), we're going to look into a place somewhere not too far form Clean Harbors.
The holidays were fun, but very busy. I havent been in the Christmas spirit in years, but as said above, this was the first year where I had enough free cash that I could actually buy things for people and not have to make a harsh decision like "food or gas?". I did get a Christmas card from Magnus, and a very belated "Thank you" is in order for it. My Christmas haul was very sizable this year. I winter jacket, a leather jacket, 2 Wii Games, lots of cash, gift cards. Kevin got me an FM transmitter and desk speakers for my iPod, a whole stocking full of goodies, and most impressively an original set of Transformers G1 Dinobots. (Most with their weapons and cards!) as well as an additional Grimlock. There was much more as well, but honestly the whole thing went so fast it's hard to remember. Clothes, got lots of nice new clothes for work, which I honestly can never have enough of.
It's weird. I just really felt the need to explain where I'm coming from for all of you. I suppose because I do care what others think of me, and I know I've not been a friend to many of you in quite some time. I miss you all, it's a piece of my life that is not with me, and makes me feel incomplete sometimes without having my friends around me.
I will understand completely if anyone feels that they've been slighted by me. I don't believe that is the case, but I will understand. If anyone feels that I'm not worth their time anymore, that's fine too. Better to move on than to waste stress on the likes of me. I'm doing well with where I am now. And I would never want anyone to try to keep old relationships alive in favor of maintaining the status quo of what these friendships once were. Time has a knack for moving people in and out of your life, after all.
I'm cutting off here for now, If anyone wishes to say something, please do! I'll make every effort to respond quickly to everyone who does.
(Sorry I forgot the tag to Cut lj posts. I'll fix it when I get home tonight -_-; )
Probably not.
I have been terrible about keeping tabs on people these last few months. Other than a random text message every so often or running into someone in the mall, I just plain have been terrible to get in touch with, and conversely I haven't made a strong attempt to keep old bonds thriving, which is my bad, completely.
So hey, if you're upset, I don't blame you. I've been a terrible friend in that respect. Its not that I'm ignoring anyone, or trying to. My lifestyle has been overhauled and I'm even now still adjusting. I'm learning how things are going to be from now on, and when I know for certain which way is up again, I can fit all the other pieces in the ever changing puzzle that is my life.
Big difference between the old Brent and the one writing today is that I'm not going to lose any sleep over this. I'm not stressed about it, and I'm not all pissed off that things aren't the way they used to be. I think I have the maturity to realize things don't always work out as planned. That's a big step for me, I think.
I miss you all, my friends. Please understand that. I love you all as well, in some way you've all been there for me during some of the harder times of my life. I'm happy to say I'm in a better (albeit busier) time in my life now. I'm stepping into a scary new world for me, and nothing is certain until I can gain footing.
The world of collections is neither glamourous nor amusing, but it very adequately pays the bills. It requires long hours, and the commute is almost 2 hours of pure hell, but I feel in the end it may be worth it. Clean Harbors is a good company to work for, but it gives a lot of heartburn, too. So maybe it's a mixed bag after all. Definitely better than anything I've had job-wise though.
There's so much to talk about, so much has happenned and so much more is happenning that I hardly know where to begin. So we'll tackle this the way I always do. Randomly.
Kevin and I are still together and doing very well. I was originally wary of working with someone I am dating, but we seem to have met common ground, and we have a clear separation between work and home (mostly). Since I also with with Kevin's mother, Sandy, it makes it that much more interesting. Her and I get along very well, to the point that she doesnt want me to leave to go to my Parent's house anymore. They set a place for me at the Dinner table every night. Its very cute.
My family. Wow, what developments there. Most everyone is already aware that my parents are getting divorced. I won't delve into the particulars of their lives, but needless to say it does complicate matters at home. Mom had moved out briefly, but has returned to save money to actually afford her own place. Dad apparently is keeping the house as long as he can, though he claims he couldn't afford to keep it. So on top of the normal arguing that goes on in my house, we get them going at it about divorcing too. Needless to say I spend even more time in my room with the door closed.
My sister is well, and my nephew Andrew has grown so big! Two and a half already. Talking, walking, asking questions, dancing, goofing off. Everything is so new and exciting for him, it really is great to watch him grow and develop into a kid from a baby.
I think Jett (my nephew's father for those who don't know) is dating Steph again, but I cannot confirm that. He certianly is around a lot lately...
I love having the weekends off, now all I need is for everyone else to have them off!
Lately moreso than ever, I'm filling what little spare time playing World Of Warcraft on Khadgar. (For those who don't care about WoW, skip ahead, cuz I'm gonna geek rant for a few) With BC now released, I'm happy to be able to play my Hunter again and see what new toys I can get for him. And hot on his heels is my mage, now lvl 56, ready to squeeze up and through the Dark Portal towards greatness. At level 50 is my paladin, and hopefully he won't be far behind those two. Kevin plays along with the pally with his Druid, so I want to be able to see this new content with him. Cris just moved his lvl 60 over to Khadgar, so I'll have a rogue available whenever he's free to help us get caught up. I've been trying to convince my sister to port over her warrior, but she doesnt want to leave her home server (Runetotem) behind. I have a Dranei Shaman rolled up, but I have no idea when I'll play him, although I do intend to play him quite a bit.
There, that's the super short WoW Update. Feel free to read on.
I did wait out all night for a Nintendo Wii, and I was #5 to get one. I've thoroughly enjoyed it thus far, although I rarely take the extra time to play it. All I seem to use it for is the Weather Channel that comes on it and the internet Browser for when I'm too lazy to boot up my PC. I like the fact that the day I brought it home, my whole family got involved and we played bowling on Wii Sports all night. Its a powerful device indeed if it can get my Mom to play video games.
Kevin and I are looking into moving closer to work. We're still in the conceptual stages right now as we're recoiling from holiday expenses (This was the first year I could afford presents for just about everybody!) but once everything gets ironed out and we settle some of our larger monthly bills (car loans), we're going to look into a place somewhere not too far form Clean Harbors.
The holidays were fun, but very busy. I havent been in the Christmas spirit in years, but as said above, this was the first year where I had enough free cash that I could actually buy things for people and not have to make a harsh decision like "food or gas?". I did get a Christmas card from Magnus, and a very belated "Thank you" is in order for it. My Christmas haul was very sizable this year. I winter jacket, a leather jacket, 2 Wii Games, lots of cash, gift cards. Kevin got me an FM transmitter and desk speakers for my iPod, a whole stocking full of goodies, and most impressively an original set of Transformers G1 Dinobots. (Most with their weapons and cards!) as well as an additional Grimlock. There was much more as well, but honestly the whole thing went so fast it's hard to remember. Clothes, got lots of nice new clothes for work, which I honestly can never have enough of.
It's weird. I just really felt the need to explain where I'm coming from for all of you. I suppose because I do care what others think of me, and I know I've not been a friend to many of you in quite some time. I miss you all, it's a piece of my life that is not with me, and makes me feel incomplete sometimes without having my friends around me.
I will understand completely if anyone feels that they've been slighted by me. I don't believe that is the case, but I will understand. If anyone feels that I'm not worth their time anymore, that's fine too. Better to move on than to waste stress on the likes of me. I'm doing well with where I am now. And I would never want anyone to try to keep old relationships alive in favor of maintaining the status quo of what these friendships once were. Time has a knack for moving people in and out of your life, after all.
I'm cutting off here for now, If anyone wishes to say something, please do! I'll make every effort to respond quickly to everyone who does.
(Sorry I forgot the tag to Cut lj posts. I'll fix it when I get home tonight -_-; )