I need you so much closer.
So, I'm really sorry for the following but I only have one depressing thing to say and then I'm on to better things.
I just realized today that I wake up feeling shitty every single day cause I can't stop dreaming about Lane. Its getting ridiculous. You may be asking yourself, "what the hell is cathy doing up and online at 10:30 am?" well, ill tell you. i woke up from this amazing dream then got a glass of water and tried to go back to sleep but couldn't because i felt like i was being torchered or something. Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. Thats when I realized that I wake up every single day the same way. Which explains why I'm still so crabby after 12 hours of sleep. but still, it doesn't fail me. I haven't gone a single night since we broke up without dreaming about him. whatevs.
so, today=super fun (at least thats the plan). Imma go take a shower in a bit, then baby visit at 2 when kim gets off. then col's place. Which I would feel way better about if I had money. This no job thing is really getting ridiculous.
I can't wait to go back to school. not that being here isn't any fun cause it is. I love being able to hang out with everyone all the time. But, I dunno. There's just something about this town. I feel stuck when I'm here. But, a month and a half and I'm back in the city. at school. I can start fresh. Meet some new ppl. Get the whole Huntely atmosphere out of my everyday life. Maybe I won't think about Lane so much since I won't be with ppl that remind me of that time.
Im really looking foward to my fall schedule. I only have 2 classes every monday, wednesday and friday and their both lecture classes so i really don't ever have to go to them which is sweet.
I really should start focusing more on writing this song for my brother's wedding. I keep trying to think of lyrics and I just can't find anything nice to say. Ugh, I remember having a conversation with my brother a long time ago about how he promised not to get married until I'm of legal age to drink. But, I guess he couldn't wait... Stupid bitch wants babies now. She can't wait a year. These are the things I think about when I sit down to try and write this damn song.
I have nothing else to talk about, so Imma stop.
Peace and free love,
Cathy
I just realized today that I wake up feeling shitty every single day cause I can't stop dreaming about Lane. Its getting ridiculous. You may be asking yourself, "what the hell is cathy doing up and online at 10:30 am?" well, ill tell you. i woke up from this amazing dream then got a glass of water and tried to go back to sleep but couldn't because i felt like i was being torchered or something. Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. Thats when I realized that I wake up every single day the same way. Which explains why I'm still so crabby after 12 hours of sleep. but still, it doesn't fail me. I haven't gone a single night since we broke up without dreaming about him. whatevs.
so, today=super fun (at least thats the plan). Imma go take a shower in a bit, then baby visit at 2 when kim gets off. then col's place. Which I would feel way better about if I had money. This no job thing is really getting ridiculous.
I can't wait to go back to school. not that being here isn't any fun cause it is. I love being able to hang out with everyone all the time. But, I dunno. There's just something about this town. I feel stuck when I'm here. But, a month and a half and I'm back in the city. at school. I can start fresh. Meet some new ppl. Get the whole Huntely atmosphere out of my everyday life. Maybe I won't think about Lane so much since I won't be with ppl that remind me of that time.
Im really looking foward to my fall schedule. I only have 2 classes every monday, wednesday and friday and their both lecture classes so i really don't ever have to go to them which is sweet.
I really should start focusing more on writing this song for my brother's wedding. I keep trying to think of lyrics and I just can't find anything nice to say. Ugh, I remember having a conversation with my brother a long time ago about how he promised not to get married until I'm of legal age to drink. But, I guess he couldn't wait... Stupid bitch wants babies now. She can't wait a year. These are the things I think about when I sit down to try and write this damn song.
I have nothing else to talk about, so Imma stop.
Peace and free love,
Cathy