Epiphanies, Hating the World and the Like
OMFGHA. School today. Evil.
Okay. So APUSH test. On 3 chapters. [I semi forgot there was a test, totally forgot it included chapter 19. Ow. ><;] I was away on a trip this weekend, and my teacher was gone due to living somewhere out there in Katy or somesuch and her loss of power.
I took it. When a bunch of other people who went on the same trip asked Ms. Good and got out of it. What did I do?
Well, let's see. It rhymes with SOMB-er, and looks like TOMB. Which is what I'll be in when I find out I've [insert the word here]-ed it. :sigh:
So I went around with my AIDSpod and listened to my angry screamo music and pouted in a hoodie. And as of this moment I've still not touched any homework, and I've been home for a good two and a half hours. Ain't procrastination grand? I decided to hate the world the instant I found out I had to go to school today and deal with all the shit that trip caused me.
But I had a great time. Young Life is all Christian and whatnot, and I won't go into the details for fear of getting all these atheists and whatnots in a rage, don't annoy me please. Suffice to say I think I had an 'Oh' moment. [An 'Aha' moment is when you realize your relationship with Him. -No, Liz. Not that him. :smirk:] 'Oh's are close, but no cigars. As far as I'm concerned, I kinda had a metaphor in my head (probably partly inspired by the weather of this weekend in the GPL -Grapeland, Tx):
I am waiting in that cliched downpour outside in the rain, staring up at the dark sky completely soaked waiting for that special sign that tells me everything's allright and that there IS a God and that everything I want to believe in with my religion is true. And when I see someone who's already hit their 'Aha' moment, they walk by with a break in the clouds over their head, sun shining around them.
But I decided I'm ready to wait in that torrential rain if that's what it takes.
That, and I realized that System of a Down's Chop Suey is kinda religious, 'cause of the last lines, which are derived from JC's last moments on the cross: [Yes, I said JC. Get over it.]
Father into your hands, I commend my spirit
Father into your hands, why have you forsaken me?
In your eyes, forsaken me
In your thoughts, forsaken me
In your heart, forsaken me
Oh, trust in my, self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
That, as well as a lot of other things hit me this weekend. [I just hope they stay.]
ANYway. On another note. I hate school, mainly because it keeps me from watching as much SVU as I want. [Thanks to them, I'm only on the third disk of SVU season one. :snarl:] But tonight's my night for TV.
OMFLINEUP:
NCIS
House/Law and Order: Criminal Intent
Law and Order: Special Victims Unit
Tuesday nights are my briefest of heavens.
Dickie did good last week. Last five minutes was me in the clouds, floating above the world. But then I get back on LJ and find icons and am reminded that they're only together in my head and my fics. Then, I realize I hate them.
You'll hate them too.
Anyway.
Notes to self:
~Post fic? Hmm.
~Post QOTD's. :snork: :D
~Do homework? Psshwa. NEVAR! >D
~I forget. :DDD
Okay. So APUSH test. On 3 chapters. [I semi forgot there was a test, totally forgot it included chapter 19. Ow. ><;] I was away on a trip this weekend, and my teacher was gone due to living somewhere out there in Katy or somesuch and her loss of power.
I took it. When a bunch of other people who went on the same trip asked Ms. Good and got out of it. What did I do?
Well, let's see. It rhymes with SOMB-er, and looks like TOMB. Which is what I'll be in when I find out I've [insert the word here]-ed it. :sigh:
So I went around with my AIDSpod and listened to my angry screamo music and pouted in a hoodie. And as of this moment I've still not touched any homework, and I've been home for a good two and a half hours. Ain't procrastination grand? I decided to hate the world the instant I found out I had to go to school today and deal with all the shit that trip caused me.
But I had a great time. Young Life is all Christian and whatnot, and I won't go into the details for fear of getting all these atheists and whatnots in a rage, don't annoy me please. Suffice to say I think I had an 'Oh' moment. [An 'Aha' moment is when you realize your relationship with Him. -No, Liz. Not that him. :smirk:] 'Oh's are close, but no cigars. As far as I'm concerned, I kinda had a metaphor in my head (probably partly inspired by the weather of this weekend in the GPL -Grapeland, Tx):
I am waiting in that cliched downpour outside in the rain, staring up at the dark sky completely soaked waiting for that special sign that tells me everything's allright and that there IS a God and that everything I want to believe in with my religion is true. And when I see someone who's already hit their 'Aha' moment, they walk by with a break in the clouds over their head, sun shining around them.
But I decided I'm ready to wait in that torrential rain if that's what it takes.
That, and I realized that System of a Down's Chop Suey is kinda religious, 'cause of the last lines, which are derived from JC's last moments on the cross: [Yes, I said JC. Get over it.]
Father into your hands, I commend my spirit
Father into your hands, why have you forsaken me?
In your eyes, forsaken me
In your thoughts, forsaken me
In your heart, forsaken me
Oh, trust in my, self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
In my self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die
That, as well as a lot of other things hit me this weekend. [I just hope they stay.]
ANYway. On another note. I hate school, mainly because it keeps me from watching as much SVU as I want. [Thanks to them, I'm only on the third disk of SVU season one. :snarl:] But tonight's my night for TV.
OMFLINEUP:
NCIS
House/Law and Order: Criminal Intent
Law and Order: Special Victims Unit
Tuesday nights are my briefest of heavens.
Dickie did good last week. Last five minutes was me in the clouds, floating above the world. But then I get back on LJ and find icons and am reminded that they're only together in my head and my fics. Then, I realize I hate them.
You'll hate them too.
Anyway.
Notes to self:
~Post fic? Hmm.
~Post QOTD's. :snork: :D
~Do homework? Psshwa. NEVAR! >D
~I forget. :DDD