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i long for that type of companionship that i haven't really had since age seventeen. or so. someone to just be comfortable around, talk without judgement, listen to records. i mean, i've found it in him, but i think it's important to have that special female friend. he's been my best friend now, but what do i do when he goes away? the thought scares me. being alone in our apartment. three weeks seems like an eternity, and i'm always the one to dwell and worry. worry worry worry. i'm going to give myself cancer.
i miss her so fucking much sometimes it hurts, but people change and i don't think we would ever be like that again. for some reason it kind of scares me to try...i don't know.
wanderlust, i hope you're well.
xoxo