so yeah
I'm pretty much backing away from everyone but Jazzy (<3) for a while because I really want to stay drama free and I'm really sick of all my friends doing the same shit over and over again even if I voice my opinion or not. Fuck drugs, fuck exes, and fuck drama. If you can't understand why I don't want these things in my life then you're not really my friend any way. I'm sick of people ragging on me for my past mistakes even though they themselves are guilty of far worse, yet if I say anything it doesn't matter I'm still in the wrong for defending myself. I'm trying to move on with my life and become a positive person. I'm not attacking anyone this is for everyone to read and understand I'm talking to all of you. I'm not saying I'm better than anyone, these are just things I want to exclude from my life and people can't seem to understand that I'm not going to let shit like this slip by anymore. I don't understand why my friends still treat me with such disrespect even though I have done so goddamn much and have just smiled. What about all the countless rides, times I've bought food, or let people crash at my house, all the times I've pitched in WAY more than my share, or even gone out of my way to give people I don't even know rides places without asking for anything in return? Do you know why I do all these things? BECAUSE i TREAT MY FRIENDS THE WAY I WOULD LIKE TO BE TREATED! But no, because I'm the one who does these things willingly I'm the one who should be treated like shit constantly right? I'm tired of pretending everything is ok and it's ok to treat me like this.
The last 4 hours before 4am I spent holding a dear friends hair back while he was vomiting from drinking too much. I had a lot of time to sit and think to myself "Which of my friends would do this for me?" and I could think of only one honestly...I hadn't seen this kid but once in over 2 1/2 years but I still did this for him because I would want someone to do this for me, not because I wanted something out of him.
Sit and think, which one of your friends (if any ) WOULD HONESTLY do this for you....
The last 4 hours before 4am I spent holding a dear friends hair back while he was vomiting from drinking too much. I had a lot of time to sit and think to myself "Which of my friends would do this for me?" and I could think of only one honestly...I hadn't seen this kid but once in over 2 1/2 years but I still did this for him because I would want someone to do this for me, not because I wanted something out of him.
Sit and think, which one of your friends (if any ) WOULD HONESTLY do this for you....