[Chaptered] A Broken Love Song 4/?
Title : A Broken Love Song (Chapter 4)
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : andreja1989
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Junba, Ohmiya
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Aiba Masaki used to be a great songwriter until the death of his beloved made him stop composing. Yet, the arrival of Sakurai Sho has colored his life. Sho taught him what is love and made him knew happiness again. But life...never be that easy...
Fourth Melody...
His fingers danced beautifully on the piano keys, created a lovely melody on every move. The room was filled with the blessed sounds. Jun couldn’t help but close his eyes and felt as if he was on a mountain, in the middle of a flower field. He could smell the light nice fragrance of the flowers, the wind touched his hair slowly and he could feel the clear air entering his lungs. He felt so free, it was his world, the perfection of all his whishes and no one could ruin it. The music was getting fast, Jun was sure that it was the peak of the piece, he felt like someone brought him flying. Someone who had a pair of wing, he showed him everything outside Jun’s world. He felt so damn worried about everything, would it be okay if I left my world? But he could feel firm hands on his shoulder, which made him stronger and believe in himself more. The music became so soft, the sign of love, but tough at the same time, the sign of passion. When the music ended he felt really exhausted but really vivacious... He opened his eyes and saw an angel smiling brightly at him.
“How is it?” Aiba still plastered the most brightly smile on his face, his hands rested on the piano keys.
“Perfect...” Jun nodded as he kissed Aiba’s forehead, “I know Ohno will like it, this song suits him...”
Aiba lifted his head to see his best friend. His dearest friend who kept him company no matter what happened, and Nino smiled at him. “Thank you...”
“You illustrated Nino’s personality well in the song...” Jun said as he stood up and walked to the kitchen. He brought three glasses and a bottle of cola with him. “And... I think it matches with Nino’s voice...”
“Yes, you have to sing this song for him on the opening of his exhibition...” Aiba said as he accepted the glass from Jun, his boyfriend poured the drink for him and Nino.
“Are you sure you’ll give the song to me?” Nino asked as he looked at the piece of paper in his hand. Although Aiba was his best friend, he still had not enough confidence to sing his song. He used to help Aiba with the tones when they still studied at art school, but it was different with singing a serious song. He wasn’t a popular singer to begin with...
“What are you talking about? I want you to sing my song since a long time ago, but you kept rejecting it!” Aiba pouted to his best friend. “I choose you not because you’re my best friend Ninomiya Kazunari, don’t feel full of yourself!”
“I know, so shut up!” Nino glared at him but Aiba laughed instead of being afraid of his friend. Nino hit his head playfully and said, “So, I’ll go now, I have a lunch with Satoshi.”
Aiba grinned, “Oh...lovey dovey couple. Tell him I miss him and to do his best on the exhibition...”
“Yes, sure,” Nino nodded and he walked out from the apartment.
Aiba, Jun, Nino and Ohno used to be a group of friends from the same university. Although they were from different departments somehow they met and became close to each other. Nino and Aiba were friends since high school and they got into the same university and same department, department of music. Second year in university Aiba started to date Jun, they met on a festival at their university; Jun was from department of theater. Ohno joined them in the early of their third year, he asked direction from them to meet his friend of department of music but in the end Nino flirted with him and they started dating some weeks after that. Ohno himself was from department of portraiture.
Jun sat besides his boyfriend and placed his hand on Aiba’s waist. Aiba rested his head on Jun’s shoulder, enjoying the presence of each other. Jun touched Aiba’s left hand slowly, traced his annularly and rotated the silver ring on it. Aiba giggled, “Proud of yourself?” he asked.
“Of course I am. Aiba Masaki just accepted my proposal, how come I wouldn’t feel proud of myself?” He asked but laughed hard when he saw Aiba blushed because of that.
“I hate you!” Aiba freed himself and turned to other direction with his back facing Jun.
Jun tugged Aiba back to face him and kissed him. “Liar...” he said as he deepened their kiss.
~*~
“You what?” Nino yelped loudly, but then he laughed until tears formed in the corner of his eyes.
“Shut up!” Aiba really wanted to hit his best friend with his shoe or something. “That’s not even funny!”
“It is... funny...” He tried to talk in the middle of his laugh, “Then? What did you guys do after your parents left you alone?”
Aiba’s memory went back to three weeks ago... The day when he met Sakurai Sho, for the second time...
Aiba couldn’t believe how stupid he was to let this Sakurai made fun of him. Why didn’t he try to look for his prospective fiancé before they met? He cursed himself silently. He wanted to slap himself every time he remembered how he enjoyed last night, he screamed that guy name again and again every time he felt Sho hitting the right spot. Shit! He cursed again. Sho contrarily looked so calm, he just drank his coffee from time to time, waiting Aiba to talk first. But in the end he gave up...
“You look sick, want me to drive you home?” he asked and placed his cup on the table.
“No, thank you,” Aiba answered coldly, showing how mad he was at the guy.
“I’m sorry about last night...” Sho started but then he paused, “No, I don’t feel sorry... I prefer my prospective fiancé did it with me than a random guy...”
“You are a random guy!” Aiba emphased the random guy in his words.
“I was, but now, I am not...” Sho corrected it.
“So soon means the next morning, I see...” Aiba remembered the letter that was written by Sho, where he hoped they would meet each other again soon.
“From all the things that we supposed to talk about you bring my letter up?” Sho asked but Aiba ignored him.
Aiba glared at him, felt really annoyed because the guy’s acted calm. “We aren’t supposed to talk about anything!”
“We are supposed to talk about each other, so we can know each other more...” Sho moved closer and placed his hands on the table.
“I don’t want to know about you,” Aiba answered as he backed off and leaned his back to his chair.
“But I do...” Sho said softly and stared directly into Aiba’s eyes. The later turned his gaze immediately to another place. “Let’s start from...who is Jun?”
Aiba’s eyes widened when he heard Sho mentioning Jun name, “What?”
“You whispered Jun in your sleep...” Sho looked back to Aiba, his gaze was full of questions.
“That’s not your business...” Aiba hissed, “You probably bought me, but it doesn’t mean I have to tell you everything about myself!” He almost stood up when he felt Sho held his hand.
“That’s not what I meant, Masaki...” Aiba pulled his hand fast from Sho’s grip, his expression full of disgust but Sho still looked back at him and didn’t show any regret because he touched Aiba. “If you don’t want to tell me about that, you don’t have to...”
“Then, this is the end of our discussion, see you on the wedding party!” he walked away and ignored Sho who called at him for so many times.
“Dramatic...” Nino nodded and sipped the rest of the ice tea in his glass. He placed his empty glass and looked at Aiba from behind his sunglasses. His friend didn’t say anything else and just stared blankly to his empty cup. “Then, what will you do...? You can’t live forever with him and ignoring him at the same time... Masaki, it’s time to move on...”
“I don’t have a plan to spend the rest of my life together with him!” Aiba snapped.
“But you do have a plan to remember Jun for the rest of your life...” Nino concluded, he read the menu again and looked so sucked into it. Aiba didn’t answer it.
“No news from the investigation?” he asked Nino again, and his friend peeked at him behind the menu book.
“No,” Nino answered it. “You know Masaki, why don’t you use your husband’s power... I think it’ll be easier to find the driver who crashed Jun...”
“Asking for his help? Hell, no way!” he looked away. “He won’t let me kill that person if I find him...” Aiba mumbled softly.
“I will also never let you do it...” Nino reminded him. “Masaki... Jun won’t be happy if you think to kill someone because of him...”
Aiba stood up fast and glared at Nino, “Don’t bring Jun to this matter!”
Nino lifted both of his hands, “Calm down... I’m sorry...”
Aiba’s cell phone was vibrating slowly on the table, he reached to his phone and threw it again without replying it. He sat down and crossed his hands, looking outside the window.
“Who?” Nino asked lightly and he lifted his hand to call the waiter.
“Sakurai,” Aiba answered fast.
“Sakurai Masaki?” Nino asked him again and got a hard hit from Aiba on his head. “What? You’re a Sakurai!”
“Sho...” Aiba snorted and Nino smiled to him.
The waiter came and Nino ordered a glass of ice tea again, he looked back to Aiba when the waiter left them. “He is a good man right? He didn’t even touch you this past 2 weeks, not forget the fact you had one night stand with him before, he didn’t want to push you...”
“He just didn’t have a chance to do it, okay? I slept in the living room...” It wasn’t that bad to sleep in the living room because Sho’s couch was comfortable enough. Sho tried for so many times to make him move to his room, Sho even said that he would move to another room if it made him comfortable, but Aiba stubbornly refused it. He could remember clearly how disappointed and sad Sho’s face at that time was, but he blinded himself and acted like he didn’t notice it. In the end every morning Aiba found himself covered by a blanket, which he didn’t bring every night.
“I still insist he didn’t want to push you or... made you feel like he harnesses you...” He smiled to the waiter when she brought his ice tea.
“He is not that nice...” Aiba said sarcastically. Aiba knew that he just lied again and again whenever he said that his husband wasn’t a nice guy. He didn’t even understand why Sho acted so patient towards him. He drunk almost every night and Sho always picked him up by himself, although he had to go back to his overtime work right after that. Aiba didn’t care but it doesn’t mean he didn’t know about it.
Nino shrugged, “Why don’t you try to seduce him, I think it won’t work... what did he say in his message?”
“He is coming home tonight; he left for another city for 3 days...” Aiba answered. Sho went to another city to take care of his job. Surprisingly, Aiba didn’t try to go to the bar when he knew Sho was outside the town. Although he thought he would like to be a sensation by having sex with another guy when people already knew he is married to someone. But Aiba couldn’t touch Sho’s nerve no matter what. Sho even knew that Aiba’s family sold him to save his brother but he said he didn’t even care and Aiba could exploit him. Aiba couldn’t understand what Sho was actually thinking...
“Prefect, you have a chance... he didn’t see you in three days, it’ll be easy to seduce him…” Nino smiled devilishly.
“Shut up!” he opened his wallet and left the money on the table, “I’m going home!” He walked out from the cafe leaving Nino alone with his ice tea.
Aiba drove his car crazily; he parked his car carelessly on the Sho’s yard. He threw the key to one of security who greeted him without even saying anything. Sho’s house was big, obviously, very luxurious. Aiba never felt his life to be poor before but he didn’t felt rich as well, although he was a song writer. He walked along the long hallway until he reached a large white room, the living room. He threw himself on the couch and rested his head on its fluffy surface. He took something from his pocket, a folded paper. When he opened the paper slowly, he saw his own handwriting on it. His cheeks were immediately wet, he stood up and walked directly to Sho’s room. He tried to not crush anything on his way because his eyes were blurred.
He poured some amount of whiskey to a crystal glass and lightened his cigarette. He placed the glass and an ashtray above the piano. Aiba opened the keys cover and placed his hand on it. A tear dropped to his hand and he kept sobbed nonstop. He tried to push the key down but his hands were numb. Aiba grabbed his wrist of his right hand tightly but it stubbornly didn’t move like he wanted. Every part of him filled Aiba’s head. The firm arms, childish smile, melodious laughter, the strong gaze...
Jun...
Jun...
Please bring me with you...
I can’t bear it alone...I can’t life without you...
His body crumbled to the floor. He wanted to tear himself into pieces if it could lighten the pain, probably another great pain would make him forget about this pain. He couldn’t stop thinking about him although he clearly understands that he no longer existed. He couldn’t stop loving him, every time he tried to erase Jun from his head the stronger shadow appeared, drowned him to the deep sins...
~*~
Aiba felt his eyelids patched to each other, it was so hard to open his eyes. He touched his eyelash and started to clean it. He opened his eyes and found he was still in Sho’s room, instead the floor he was on Sho’s bed. He turned to the right and saw a body was lying down on the sofa. He pulled himself to sat and leaned on the bed head. Aiba realized that he only wears a shirt and his underpants. Someone changed his clothes already. But he didn’t understand why he felt so empty, like his soul flying away and left his body...
“Ah? You awake? Are you okay?” Sho just woke up and ran to him immediately. “I panicked when I couldn’t find you in the living room or another room, I thought you didn’t come back home until I found you fainted on my room...” but Aiba didn’t answer it.
Jun...
“What happened? Please tell me... I can’t bear it if you faint again...” Sho begged to his wife and felt the fear when he saw Aiba’s eyes just stared to his hands blankly.
Jun...
“Masaki...” Sho shook his body slowly, “Masaki... please...”
Jun...
Sho pulled him to his embrace, he hugged Aiba tightly. “Masaki... Please don’t do this to me... you can do whatever you want to me but please don’t bear your pain alone...”
Jun...I love you...
Sho placed his hands on Aiba’s cheeks but he didn’t find anything except the empty eyes. “Masaki... Maybe I’m not the one you love... maybe I’m just a husband that you don’t want... maybe I’m just adding another pain to your heart... but let me fix it... let me enter your life, Masaki...” he hugged his wife again. “I’ll do whatever you want, if you don’t want Sakurai Sho, I’ll be the one that you want...”
Suddenly Aiba placed his hands on Sho’s waist. Sho could feel his shirt wet because of Aiba’s tears but he didn’t even care about that. “Jun...” Aiba whispered.
Sho swallowed his own pain and answered, “Yes Masaki... I’m here...”
AN : yay! it's Thursday and I posted a broken Love Song LOL, although some hours ago someone said "it's not saturday!" to me XD
but earlier better right? haha
finally, Nino made his apperance, he and Oh-chan will appear a lot on next chapters~~
I know the progress of the fic is so slow, but I like to make Sakuraiba relationship grow slowly~~ not immediately XD
besides there are a lot of things that I haven't write yet, the main plot of the fic~~ but I can promise you, this fic is not only about arranged marriage...hahaha
please wait and see ne~~ <3
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : andreja1989
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Junba, Ohmiya
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Aiba Masaki used to be a great songwriter until the death of his beloved made him stop composing. Yet, the arrival of Sakurai Sho has colored his life. Sho taught him what is love and made him knew happiness again. But life...never be that easy...
Fourth Melody...
His fingers danced beautifully on the piano keys, created a lovely melody on every move. The room was filled with the blessed sounds. Jun couldn’t help but close his eyes and felt as if he was on a mountain, in the middle of a flower field. He could smell the light nice fragrance of the flowers, the wind touched his hair slowly and he could feel the clear air entering his lungs. He felt so free, it was his world, the perfection of all his whishes and no one could ruin it. The music was getting fast, Jun was sure that it was the peak of the piece, he felt like someone brought him flying. Someone who had a pair of wing, he showed him everything outside Jun’s world. He felt so damn worried about everything, would it be okay if I left my world? But he could feel firm hands on his shoulder, which made him stronger and believe in himself more. The music became so soft, the sign of love, but tough at the same time, the sign of passion. When the music ended he felt really exhausted but really vivacious... He opened his eyes and saw an angel smiling brightly at him.
“How is it?” Aiba still plastered the most brightly smile on his face, his hands rested on the piano keys.
“Perfect...” Jun nodded as he kissed Aiba’s forehead, “I know Ohno will like it, this song suits him...”
Aiba lifted his head to see his best friend. His dearest friend who kept him company no matter what happened, and Nino smiled at him. “Thank you...”
“You illustrated Nino’s personality well in the song...” Jun said as he stood up and walked to the kitchen. He brought three glasses and a bottle of cola with him. “And... I think it matches with Nino’s voice...”
“Yes, you have to sing this song for him on the opening of his exhibition...” Aiba said as he accepted the glass from Jun, his boyfriend poured the drink for him and Nino.
“Are you sure you’ll give the song to me?” Nino asked as he looked at the piece of paper in his hand. Although Aiba was his best friend, he still had not enough confidence to sing his song. He used to help Aiba with the tones when they still studied at art school, but it was different with singing a serious song. He wasn’t a popular singer to begin with...
“What are you talking about? I want you to sing my song since a long time ago, but you kept rejecting it!” Aiba pouted to his best friend. “I choose you not because you’re my best friend Ninomiya Kazunari, don’t feel full of yourself!”
“I know, so shut up!” Nino glared at him but Aiba laughed instead of being afraid of his friend. Nino hit his head playfully and said, “So, I’ll go now, I have a lunch with Satoshi.”
Aiba grinned, “Oh...lovey dovey couple. Tell him I miss him and to do his best on the exhibition...”
“Yes, sure,” Nino nodded and he walked out from the apartment.
Aiba, Jun, Nino and Ohno used to be a group of friends from the same university. Although they were from different departments somehow they met and became close to each other. Nino and Aiba were friends since high school and they got into the same university and same department, department of music. Second year in university Aiba started to date Jun, they met on a festival at their university; Jun was from department of theater. Ohno joined them in the early of their third year, he asked direction from them to meet his friend of department of music but in the end Nino flirted with him and they started dating some weeks after that. Ohno himself was from department of portraiture.
Jun sat besides his boyfriend and placed his hand on Aiba’s waist. Aiba rested his head on Jun’s shoulder, enjoying the presence of each other. Jun touched Aiba’s left hand slowly, traced his annularly and rotated the silver ring on it. Aiba giggled, “Proud of yourself?” he asked.
“Of course I am. Aiba Masaki just accepted my proposal, how come I wouldn’t feel proud of myself?” He asked but laughed hard when he saw Aiba blushed because of that.
“I hate you!” Aiba freed himself and turned to other direction with his back facing Jun.
Jun tugged Aiba back to face him and kissed him. “Liar...” he said as he deepened their kiss.
~*~
“You what?” Nino yelped loudly, but then he laughed until tears formed in the corner of his eyes.
“Shut up!” Aiba really wanted to hit his best friend with his shoe or something. “That’s not even funny!”
“It is... funny...” He tried to talk in the middle of his laugh, “Then? What did you guys do after your parents left you alone?”
Aiba’s memory went back to three weeks ago... The day when he met Sakurai Sho, for the second time...
Aiba couldn’t believe how stupid he was to let this Sakurai made fun of him. Why didn’t he try to look for his prospective fiancé before they met? He cursed himself silently. He wanted to slap himself every time he remembered how he enjoyed last night, he screamed that guy name again and again every time he felt Sho hitting the right spot. Shit! He cursed again. Sho contrarily looked so calm, he just drank his coffee from time to time, waiting Aiba to talk first. But in the end he gave up...
“You look sick, want me to drive you home?” he asked and placed his cup on the table.
“No, thank you,” Aiba answered coldly, showing how mad he was at the guy.
“I’m sorry about last night...” Sho started but then he paused, “No, I don’t feel sorry... I prefer my prospective fiancé did it with me than a random guy...”
“You are a random guy!” Aiba emphased the random guy in his words.
“I was, but now, I am not...” Sho corrected it.
“So soon means the next morning, I see...” Aiba remembered the letter that was written by Sho, where he hoped they would meet each other again soon.
“From all the things that we supposed to talk about you bring my letter up?” Sho asked but Aiba ignored him.
Aiba glared at him, felt really annoyed because the guy’s acted calm. “We aren’t supposed to talk about anything!”
“We are supposed to talk about each other, so we can know each other more...” Sho moved closer and placed his hands on the table.
“I don’t want to know about you,” Aiba answered as he backed off and leaned his back to his chair.
“But I do...” Sho said softly and stared directly into Aiba’s eyes. The later turned his gaze immediately to another place. “Let’s start from...who is Jun?”
Aiba’s eyes widened when he heard Sho mentioning Jun name, “What?”
“You whispered Jun in your sleep...” Sho looked back to Aiba, his gaze was full of questions.
“That’s not your business...” Aiba hissed, “You probably bought me, but it doesn’t mean I have to tell you everything about myself!” He almost stood up when he felt Sho held his hand.
“That’s not what I meant, Masaki...” Aiba pulled his hand fast from Sho’s grip, his expression full of disgust but Sho still looked back at him and didn’t show any regret because he touched Aiba. “If you don’t want to tell me about that, you don’t have to...”
“Then, this is the end of our discussion, see you on the wedding party!” he walked away and ignored Sho who called at him for so many times.
“Dramatic...” Nino nodded and sipped the rest of the ice tea in his glass. He placed his empty glass and looked at Aiba from behind his sunglasses. His friend didn’t say anything else and just stared blankly to his empty cup. “Then, what will you do...? You can’t live forever with him and ignoring him at the same time... Masaki, it’s time to move on...”
“I don’t have a plan to spend the rest of my life together with him!” Aiba snapped.
“But you do have a plan to remember Jun for the rest of your life...” Nino concluded, he read the menu again and looked so sucked into it. Aiba didn’t answer it.
“No news from the investigation?” he asked Nino again, and his friend peeked at him behind the menu book.
“No,” Nino answered it. “You know Masaki, why don’t you use your husband’s power... I think it’ll be easier to find the driver who crashed Jun...”
“Asking for his help? Hell, no way!” he looked away. “He won’t let me kill that person if I find him...” Aiba mumbled softly.
“I will also never let you do it...” Nino reminded him. “Masaki... Jun won’t be happy if you think to kill someone because of him...”
Aiba stood up fast and glared at Nino, “Don’t bring Jun to this matter!”
Nino lifted both of his hands, “Calm down... I’m sorry...”
Aiba’s cell phone was vibrating slowly on the table, he reached to his phone and threw it again without replying it. He sat down and crossed his hands, looking outside the window.
“Who?” Nino asked lightly and he lifted his hand to call the waiter.
“Sakurai,” Aiba answered fast.
“Sakurai Masaki?” Nino asked him again and got a hard hit from Aiba on his head. “What? You’re a Sakurai!”
“Sho...” Aiba snorted and Nino smiled to him.
The waiter came and Nino ordered a glass of ice tea again, he looked back to Aiba when the waiter left them. “He is a good man right? He didn’t even touch you this past 2 weeks, not forget the fact you had one night stand with him before, he didn’t want to push you...”
“He just didn’t have a chance to do it, okay? I slept in the living room...” It wasn’t that bad to sleep in the living room because Sho’s couch was comfortable enough. Sho tried for so many times to make him move to his room, Sho even said that he would move to another room if it made him comfortable, but Aiba stubbornly refused it. He could remember clearly how disappointed and sad Sho’s face at that time was, but he blinded himself and acted like he didn’t notice it. In the end every morning Aiba found himself covered by a blanket, which he didn’t bring every night.
“I still insist he didn’t want to push you or... made you feel like he harnesses you...” He smiled to the waiter when she brought his ice tea.
“He is not that nice...” Aiba said sarcastically. Aiba knew that he just lied again and again whenever he said that his husband wasn’t a nice guy. He didn’t even understand why Sho acted so patient towards him. He drunk almost every night and Sho always picked him up by himself, although he had to go back to his overtime work right after that. Aiba didn’t care but it doesn’t mean he didn’t know about it.
Nino shrugged, “Why don’t you try to seduce him, I think it won’t work... what did he say in his message?”
“He is coming home tonight; he left for another city for 3 days...” Aiba answered. Sho went to another city to take care of his job. Surprisingly, Aiba didn’t try to go to the bar when he knew Sho was outside the town. Although he thought he would like to be a sensation by having sex with another guy when people already knew he is married to someone. But Aiba couldn’t touch Sho’s nerve no matter what. Sho even knew that Aiba’s family sold him to save his brother but he said he didn’t even care and Aiba could exploit him. Aiba couldn’t understand what Sho was actually thinking...
“Prefect, you have a chance... he didn’t see you in three days, it’ll be easy to seduce him…” Nino smiled devilishly.
“Shut up!” he opened his wallet and left the money on the table, “I’m going home!” He walked out from the cafe leaving Nino alone with his ice tea.
Aiba drove his car crazily; he parked his car carelessly on the Sho’s yard. He threw the key to one of security who greeted him without even saying anything. Sho’s house was big, obviously, very luxurious. Aiba never felt his life to be poor before but he didn’t felt rich as well, although he was a song writer. He walked along the long hallway until he reached a large white room, the living room. He threw himself on the couch and rested his head on its fluffy surface. He took something from his pocket, a folded paper. When he opened the paper slowly, he saw his own handwriting on it. His cheeks were immediately wet, he stood up and walked directly to Sho’s room. He tried to not crush anything on his way because his eyes were blurred.
He poured some amount of whiskey to a crystal glass and lightened his cigarette. He placed the glass and an ashtray above the piano. Aiba opened the keys cover and placed his hand on it. A tear dropped to his hand and he kept sobbed nonstop. He tried to push the key down but his hands were numb. Aiba grabbed his wrist of his right hand tightly but it stubbornly didn’t move like he wanted. Every part of him filled Aiba’s head. The firm arms, childish smile, melodious laughter, the strong gaze...
Jun...
Jun...
Please bring me with you...
I can’t bear it alone...I can’t life without you...
His body crumbled to the floor. He wanted to tear himself into pieces if it could lighten the pain, probably another great pain would make him forget about this pain. He couldn’t stop thinking about him although he clearly understands that he no longer existed. He couldn’t stop loving him, every time he tried to erase Jun from his head the stronger shadow appeared, drowned him to the deep sins...
~*~
Aiba felt his eyelids patched to each other, it was so hard to open his eyes. He touched his eyelash and started to clean it. He opened his eyes and found he was still in Sho’s room, instead the floor he was on Sho’s bed. He turned to the right and saw a body was lying down on the sofa. He pulled himself to sat and leaned on the bed head. Aiba realized that he only wears a shirt and his underpants. Someone changed his clothes already. But he didn’t understand why he felt so empty, like his soul flying away and left his body...
“Ah? You awake? Are you okay?” Sho just woke up and ran to him immediately. “I panicked when I couldn’t find you in the living room or another room, I thought you didn’t come back home until I found you fainted on my room...” but Aiba didn’t answer it.
Jun...
“What happened? Please tell me... I can’t bear it if you faint again...” Sho begged to his wife and felt the fear when he saw Aiba’s eyes just stared to his hands blankly.
Jun...
“Masaki...” Sho shook his body slowly, “Masaki... please...”
Jun...
Sho pulled him to his embrace, he hugged Aiba tightly. “Masaki... Please don’t do this to me... you can do whatever you want to me but please don’t bear your pain alone...”
Jun...I love you...
Sho placed his hands on Aiba’s cheeks but he didn’t find anything except the empty eyes. “Masaki... Maybe I’m not the one you love... maybe I’m just a husband that you don’t want... maybe I’m just adding another pain to your heart... but let me fix it... let me enter your life, Masaki...” he hugged his wife again. “I’ll do whatever you want, if you don’t want Sakurai Sho, I’ll be the one that you want...”
Suddenly Aiba placed his hands on Sho’s waist. Sho could feel his shirt wet because of Aiba’s tears but he didn’t even care about that. “Jun...” Aiba whispered.
Sho swallowed his own pain and answered, “Yes Masaki... I’m here...”
AN : yay! it's Thursday and I posted a broken Love Song LOL, although some hours ago someone said "it's not saturday!" to me XD
but earlier better right? haha
finally, Nino made his apperance, he and Oh-chan will appear a lot on next chapters~~
I know the progress of the fic is so slow, but I like to make Sakuraiba relationship grow slowly~~ not immediately XD
besides there are a lot of things that I haven't write yet, the main plot of the fic~~ but I can promise you, this fic is not only about arranged marriage...hahaha
please wait and see ne~~ <3