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I have to re-take my fucking permit test.
Are you fucking kidding me?? I can't stand this anymore!! I hate this!! And I hate myself for not being able to do this!
I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of people saying, "What?? You're nineteen and you don't have a license?? What's wrong with you??" I'm sick of juniors in high school getting their licenses before me and flaunting it in my face. I'm sick of wanting to hang out with people but not having a way to get there. I'm sick of people asking, "Aww, does Lauren need a ride?"
I'm sick of me not being able to learn how to operate a fucking vehicle.
It's not fair. Why can't I be afraid of something that DOESN'T affect my life like this? No, I have to be afraid of something that EVERYONE has to learn how to do.
I just wish I could crawl under a rock and forget about everyone and everything.
I have to re-take my fucking permit test.
Are you fucking kidding me?? I can't stand this anymore!! I hate this!! And I hate myself for not being able to do this!
I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of people saying, "What?? You're nineteen and you don't have a license?? What's wrong with you??" I'm sick of juniors in high school getting their licenses before me and flaunting it in my face. I'm sick of wanting to hang out with people but not having a way to get there. I'm sick of people asking, "Aww, does Lauren need a ride?"
I'm sick of me not being able to learn how to operate a fucking vehicle.
It's not fair. Why can't I be afraid of something that DOESN'T affect my life like this? No, I have to be afraid of something that EVERYONE has to learn how to do.
I just wish I could crawl under a rock and forget about everyone and everything.