silly kids

[lovlylady]

look babe! i did it...gosh, im so proud! im really really bored, so i decided to make a new journal considering that my last one was erased because when i was in the hospital and stuff, i couldnt update it. imagine that! who decided that when the journals are not used for a long time, they have to be erased? silly kids. anyways, life has been hectic as all hell. with the whole hospital fiasco, and then being released back into the "real world." my thoughts and emotions were all over the place! but as soon as i got out, i started back up with volleyball and school...and so far its been pretty good i must say! i am getting trained for work again this weekend... im not really looking forward to this actaully...it all seems unreal...like im sitting on the window-sil looking in at this girl. a girl that was once lost and thought of herself as gone, but who is getting her second wind, and coming back to finish the race! i think that i owe a lot of my success for the last 9 months or so to ashley and my family. my family (although i always bitch about them) has always been right by my side with whatever new problem i threw at them next. ashley has also been amazing through this all...i love that girl so much...she is so understanding, its almost like her and i are feeling the same thing...we understand when the other is hurt and crying inside, and when one of us is so happy that nothing can bring us down! we have tons of fun together, and all the while there is no drama! thank god...she too has been through hell and back too though. with haley gone, and her dad still here...her world has turned upside down...her mom is so great tho. they love eachother so much, and the best part is that they both share their love with me...ashley and her mom are like my other family...she is truly the only person i trust in life, i would do anything for her and to save our relationship we have together. whenever im with her, my life stops spinning so fast, and i actually find myself smiling again...it amazing what a great friend can do! i just hope that we can stay as close as we are this summer when i will be working again...but me and ash have to go on vacation together sometime...if you only knew how crazy we are when we are together...you might understand our bond with the other.

you never said forever could ever hurt like this