what a beautiful face

[lovley_cello]

i want to talk to you, out of habit, out of concern, who knows? but i have decided that you will be the one to break the silence, to let me know that you want me in your life, that i don't hurt too much to bear. i'll always be here.

i want to reflect, i want to live

i am going to settle...yes, you only live once, but let's be realistic

you know, some days it's enough just to hold your hand

when the air thickens, that's when i know it's time to pull back, to break the spell

i hear over and over, "you only live once," well, maybe i just want to live it right

i am on the verge of another round of self-discovery, i can feel it

i want to have bizarre celebrations and pretend i don't exist

i am often overwhelmed with joy in response to the joy of others
when i see that goofy smile that all boys get when they're in love, i just melt, no matter the recipiant
with so much joy in the world around me, do i even need my own?
(the answer will always be yes, no matter what i might wish)