Fuckkkkkk
We agreed on fuck buddies. No strings. No drama. No stress. No constant need to know what the other is doing or who they are with or why they are not responding. Just talking about random things at random times. Like the weather, my work, your work, my kids, your kid or whatever else comes to mind. Which happens to of course be sex a lot of the time. It is a little strange the agreement we came up with considering our ex's our now engaged to be married. Good for them I could care less, but they are also part of the drama that has been my life since I announced I was moving back to Maine. So of course if your ex ever found out about our agreement or us being friends would just be something I don't think I could handle. Well actually I could handle it. Why the fuck would it even matter to her is beyond me. She is engaged so it shouldn't matter. She shouldn't have a say. Whatever.
So when we made this agreement we started asking questions and testing, or teasing, each other to see what we liked and didn't like. What we would do and wouldn't do. What we wanted to do but haven't yet. We shared things that I didn't even discuss with someone I dated for 2 years. You got to know a part of me that not many people know exist. Finding out you are a lot like me surprised me. And once again stupid me started letting my feelings get involved. I started to like you. Will I ever admit to you that I do like you. Think again. Won't happen. I will do everything it takes for you to never know how I feel. You have become a great friend, and fuck buddy, why ruin it with damn emotions.
Yup there is my life in a nutshell.