letters to sara
dear sara,
i don't even know what to do anymore. i don't wanna do anything. i wanna stay at home and cry and sleep. i don't wanna eat, i don't wanna laugh, i don't wanna move. i can hardly watch tv because everything is about couples, and it breaks my heart because i had something SO good and i lost it. because i'm an idiot. it's SO cliche, but you never really know what you have until it's gone. i really feel like i've lost him, and that's so scary because i don't wanna be with anyone else.. ever. ya know.. maybe it'll change some day in the future, but i have a feeling that if/when i try to start dating again, no guy will ever live up to what jeff was to me. i won't settle for less. so i'll be miserable and alone. i have this scenerio in my head that one day in the future, we'll be walking down the street and run into each other and start over. fall in love again. fix things. but until then, i won't be with anyone else. i will wait. he says he doesn't want me to wait too long. he doesn't know that i'll be waiting until the day he says yes. i try to be strong. i try not to let my emotions get in control of me. i just can't. i can't even paste on a smile anymore. i'm breaking down, and who's gonna put the pieces back together?
love always,
kara dyan
i don't even know what to do anymore. i don't wanna do anything. i wanna stay at home and cry and sleep. i don't wanna eat, i don't wanna laugh, i don't wanna move. i can hardly watch tv because everything is about couples, and it breaks my heart because i had something SO good and i lost it. because i'm an idiot. it's SO cliche, but you never really know what you have until it's gone. i really feel like i've lost him, and that's so scary because i don't wanna be with anyone else.. ever. ya know.. maybe it'll change some day in the future, but i have a feeling that if/when i try to start dating again, no guy will ever live up to what jeff was to me. i won't settle for less. so i'll be miserable and alone. i have this scenerio in my head that one day in the future, we'll be walking down the street and run into each other and start over. fall in love again. fix things. but until then, i won't be with anyone else. i will wait. he says he doesn't want me to wait too long. he doesn't know that i'll be waiting until the day he says yes. i try to be strong. i try not to let my emotions get in control of me. i just can't. i can't even paste on a smile anymore. i'm breaking down, and who's gonna put the pieces back together?
love always,
kara dyan