Calling All Friends You Might Want To Read This
Fear falls hard like rain again,
Washing over me
You say nothing will ever change
What do I believe?
You fall deep inside again,
Nothing left to see
Weakness fills your heart again
You put it to rest
So I'm doing it again
I said I would write some more stuff about friends and I am
a conversation kind of...made me realize alot of things
I have a lot of regrets of things that have happened in this past year. I realized, no matter what I do, no matter how much I want to change some of those things. I don't think I can. I don't have the power to do it, and even if I did, the possibility of things not happening the way I want them, ways down on me too heavily to really try. There are so many things that I want to do differently, because maybe things would be different. There are friends I have hurt, friends that shouldn't be around that are, friends that I have lost, because of me being stupid. Regrets, that every time I think about it, makes me sad. And I don't know if I'll be able to say goodbye to my regrets.
Candy: Everything that I have to say to you probably would take up the whole page so I'll try to make it short. I really never thought that we would be as close as we are today. First talking to you, you honestly intimidated me. I never thought that I would become friends with you and Britt. Or be apart of that little group, I thought I would always be the outsider, but look at us now. Me and you have been talking for a while now, and I couldn't be happier that I have you as a best friend. Me and you almost seemed to be opposites, and yet, we're really close. And I think the fact that you're not completely like me, is what I like about you the most. You're always there for me 24/7 and I know how hard that really must be. I know in the past year there have been a lot of problems, and I think I've been taking you for granted because I know that you're always going to be there no matter what. My hopes for us now is that we always stay best friends, and that we will ALWAYS be this close, and no matter what happens , I hope nothing will pull us apart. I love you girly, I really don't know what I would do without you in my life, you're my bestestestestestest friend and I hope that NEVER EVER changes.
Ashley: I'll have to admit. Like some of my other friends, I haven't known you for years. But you are one of the greatest friends I could ever have. You lay your flaws on the table and you tell people right off the bat that you're not perfect and you have your flaws. There has been a lot of drama this year, It's amazing how much drama people can go through. I've been there through your drama and you've been there through mine. I think it takes a strong person to go through what you have, because I know I would of given up..and I know with some of the stuff I've been through I have GIVEN up. But you, you just keep going. I really just wanted to let you know Ashley that you are a BEAUTIFUL person. No matter what anyone tells you, no matter what happens, I want you to remember that you're a beautiful good person, because you really are, no matter who you hang out with, no matter what you do, youre a beautiful good person.
Sam: Like I said with Ashley, I haven't known you for years. But you've taught me a lot about things. About how to go about certain things, and you make me see things in a different light, you really do. You're always someone that I can go to, and talk about something when there's no one else around. I know you always have some kind of advice, even if it's something small, it always seems to help. I don't know EVERYTHING about you, but I know you've been through stuff, and I know you've gotten through it, and I think that's why I view you as a wise person, because you've been through stuff and you know how it is. You're a very caring person, which is another reason why I think you're such an awesome person. You seem to cherish your friends, and you don't want them to make the same mistakes you have which is just, more than what words can say. And no matter what happens, I just hope you NEVER change.
ELENA LOSER BUM FACE. Okay what can I say about you hmm. You were one of my first friends when it came to going to crooms. And I must say I love you to death. I can tell you a lot of stuff, and even though I think you're weird sometimes *cough* which you are *cough* I still think you're an AWESOME person. And I'll always be there for you, and I just hope that you can always be there for me. Besides, who else, am I going to be able to talk to, during those four classes that we have together?? I hope we have classes together next year too. <33
Oscar...You are seriously one of my best friends. I don't have many true friends, I've told Candy this. I only have like maybe two or three true friends, you and Candy are one of them. Seriously. I know a lot of stuff has happened. And I feel like I've taken you for granted too, because I know you're always there. A lot has happened, especially with a lot of David stuff. And I don't know, I feel like you're always there for me, to protect me from something, which I truely do appreciate. A lot has happened, and you've been there every step of the way, and you're still here, and I don't think that you have a reason to be, and yet you're here anyway. I just hope that nothing between us changes.
Like I said, I had a conversation today that made me realize A LOT. It made me truely sit here and think about everything that has happened in the past year. It made me think about how, you could think one thing is this way and it's a completely other way. It made me think about how many friends I started out with and how many friends I have now. It made me think that I don't have to be the way to get inbetween things and try to solve them, that maybe stepping outside of the drama, can teach me so much more than being inside. It made me see how much I have truely changed. It made me realize who my true friends are, and how I should cherish them instead of taking them for granted. It made me realize that I can't change what has happened no matter how much I try, and that sometimes maybe I should leave the choice up to someone else instead of taking it upon myself to fix it...Anyway. If you weren't mentioned in the list above, you were either apart of the "regret" section or this section. And if not, then I didn't forget about you :]. Ill probably write about you later. <33
you had a bad day
let every one down
you sing a sad song
just to turn it around
Washing over me
You say nothing will ever change
What do I believe?
You fall deep inside again,
Nothing left to see
Weakness fills your heart again
You put it to rest
So I'm doing it again
I said I would write some more stuff about friends and I am
a conversation kind of...made me realize alot of things
I have a lot of regrets of things that have happened in this past year. I realized, no matter what I do, no matter how much I want to change some of those things. I don't think I can. I don't have the power to do it, and even if I did, the possibility of things not happening the way I want them, ways down on me too heavily to really try. There are so many things that I want to do differently, because maybe things would be different. There are friends I have hurt, friends that shouldn't be around that are, friends that I have lost, because of me being stupid. Regrets, that every time I think about it, makes me sad. And I don't know if I'll be able to say goodbye to my regrets.
Candy: Everything that I have to say to you probably would take up the whole page so I'll try to make it short. I really never thought that we would be as close as we are today. First talking to you, you honestly intimidated me. I never thought that I would become friends with you and Britt. Or be apart of that little group, I thought I would always be the outsider, but look at us now. Me and you have been talking for a while now, and I couldn't be happier that I have you as a best friend. Me and you almost seemed to be opposites, and yet, we're really close. And I think the fact that you're not completely like me, is what I like about you the most. You're always there for me 24/7 and I know how hard that really must be. I know in the past year there have been a lot of problems, and I think I've been taking you for granted because I know that you're always going to be there no matter what. My hopes for us now is that we always stay best friends, and that we will ALWAYS be this close, and no matter what happens , I hope nothing will pull us apart. I love you girly, I really don't know what I would do without you in my life, you're my bestestestestestest friend and I hope that NEVER EVER changes.
Ashley: I'll have to admit. Like some of my other friends, I haven't known you for years. But you are one of the greatest friends I could ever have. You lay your flaws on the table and you tell people right off the bat that you're not perfect and you have your flaws. There has been a lot of drama this year, It's amazing how much drama people can go through. I've been there through your drama and you've been there through mine. I think it takes a strong person to go through what you have, because I know I would of given up..and I know with some of the stuff I've been through I have GIVEN up. But you, you just keep going. I really just wanted to let you know Ashley that you are a BEAUTIFUL person. No matter what anyone tells you, no matter what happens, I want you to remember that you're a beautiful good person, because you really are, no matter who you hang out with, no matter what you do, youre a beautiful good person.
Sam: Like I said with Ashley, I haven't known you for years. But you've taught me a lot about things. About how to go about certain things, and you make me see things in a different light, you really do. You're always someone that I can go to, and talk about something when there's no one else around. I know you always have some kind of advice, even if it's something small, it always seems to help. I don't know EVERYTHING about you, but I know you've been through stuff, and I know you've gotten through it, and I think that's why I view you as a wise person, because you've been through stuff and you know how it is. You're a very caring person, which is another reason why I think you're such an awesome person. You seem to cherish your friends, and you don't want them to make the same mistakes you have which is just, more than what words can say. And no matter what happens, I just hope you NEVER change.
ELENA LOSER BUM FACE. Okay what can I say about you hmm. You were one of my first friends when it came to going to crooms. And I must say I love you to death. I can tell you a lot of stuff, and even though I think you're weird sometimes *cough* which you are *cough* I still think you're an AWESOME person. And I'll always be there for you, and I just hope that you can always be there for me. Besides, who else, am I going to be able to talk to, during those four classes that we have together?? I hope we have classes together next year too. <33
Oscar...You are seriously one of my best friends. I don't have many true friends, I've told Candy this. I only have like maybe two or three true friends, you and Candy are one of them. Seriously. I know a lot of stuff has happened. And I feel like I've taken you for granted too, because I know you're always there. A lot has happened, especially with a lot of David stuff. And I don't know, I feel like you're always there for me, to protect me from something, which I truely do appreciate. A lot has happened, and you've been there every step of the way, and you're still here, and I don't think that you have a reason to be, and yet you're here anyway. I just hope that nothing between us changes.
Like I said, I had a conversation today that made me realize A LOT. It made me truely sit here and think about everything that has happened in the past year. It made me think about how, you could think one thing is this way and it's a completely other way. It made me think about how many friends I started out with and how many friends I have now. It made me think that I don't have to be the way to get inbetween things and try to solve them, that maybe stepping outside of the drama, can teach me so much more than being inside. It made me see how much I have truely changed. It made me realize who my true friends are, and how I should cherish them instead of taking them for granted. It made me realize that I can't change what has happened no matter how much I try, and that sometimes maybe I should leave the choice up to someone else instead of taking it upon myself to fix it...Anyway. If you weren't mentioned in the list above, you were either apart of the "regret" section or this section. And if not, then I didn't forget about you :]. Ill probably write about you later. <33
you had a bad day
let every one down
you sing a sad song
just to turn it around