Meaningless Words That Make Your Heart Beat

[lovingthehated]

I feel empty.
I feel lonely.
Sometimes I dont feel at all.
I dont know what to say.
I dont know what to do.
So amny things Iw ant to say to you.
But will it matter?
I dont understand why.
I cant explain the things you can't explain.
I want it to end. 
I want to leave.
I want to stop thinking
but you keep clouding my mind.
I tell myself I'm okay.
And maybe I am.
A friend was all I needed.
But I got so much less than that.
I think I deserved it.
I think I really did.
I'm not perfect.
I have my flaws.
Is that okay with you?
You want so much more 
than I can give.
I wanted to be special.
But you don't call any more.
It makes me sad.
I t made me mad.
But none of it matters.
As my pen writes these last few lines.
I start to wonder 
if this is okay.
Can I tell you how I feel?
Can I let you know?
I think I dersved it. 
Im not perfect.
I have my flaws.
Is that okay with you?
You want so much more.
Than I can give.