I've Got To Remember This Is Just.A.Game.
Everyone who's lookin' at me
I'm running around in circles, plaqued with
Acquired desperation's building high
I've got to remember this is just a game
At this moment I really don't know how I'm supposed to feel. I really don't care at this moment and time I DONTCARE. I'm just like blah with the whole thing, And the best thing for me to do, is just to move on, and forget about them. I don't know I feel like I've wasted time that I could of been doing something else with my life, but like someone very smart said, nothing is ever wasted, it's an experience.
But if I knew this was going to happen, I might of not put myself through it to tell you the truth. Cuz it hurts. Whether I don't care right now or not, it still hurts. I kind of just want to pull away from everyone right now until I figure things out, but I know I can't do that. Right now, Ashley is helping me alot with what's going on, cuz well duh she understands. I'm really happy to have her as a friend, seriously.
My friend Candy is helping me out with it too. So I have two very good trustworthy people that I can talk to about it (of course there are more of you people duh just cuz I don't mention you doesn't mean you're a good trustworthy friend =]). So I think I'm just going to try and go on with my life. I know I'm going to be upset tomorrow at lunch cuz I see the both of them there. And everyone's going to be asking me if I'm okay so I'm just going to try to be the same fun happy Elyse, even though it's going to be hard.
I need new friends, I need more friends to get my mind off of ALL of this. Hopefully I'll be able too, if I go to the movies with Sam tomorrow. So, yeah. I'm off.
"once upon a year gone
by she saw herself
give in
and everytime she closed
her eyes she saw
what could
happen"