Tell Me You Own Me THE END (Chapter 15: We Both Go Down Together)
Title: Tell Me You Own Me
Author: lovingreituki
Genre: Romance, Psychological, Fantasy, Urban, Yaoi
Pairing(s): ReitaxRuki, RukixOC, AoixUruha
Warnings: Violence, slavery, rape, murders, gang...
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I just own my sick imagination.
Summary: Takanori's life completely changes when he kills the love of his life. He goes to one house where all the people are now supposed to be in prison, but they were "saved" by directors of the house-Kamijo and Gackt. At least, Takanori thinks it's just a simple house. He meets Akira Suzuki, his roommate, and that's when his life becomes twisted and totally confusing for him.
The next morning I woke up seeing that Akira wasn't next to me. My eyes widened and immediately all the worst thoughts flashed through my mind. Remembering the last night, it wouldn't be surprise if he really did leave me. I instantly got up from the bed and looked around the room hoping, I'll see him somewhere. But, nothing... Absolutely no one was there. My stomach started to twitch because I already started to freak out, until I looked next to the bed on the nightstand and saw some paper there. I reached the hand out to take it and when looked at it, it said that he was going to buy some food and he'll be back. I sighed in relief, because if he seriously left me, I wouldn't know what to do. Maybe I was too attached to him, but I couldn't possibly change it just like that. Maybe I was just too hopeless and desperate.
I dressed myself up and walked downstairs to the kitchen even though I knew there was nothing yet to eat. But, my stomach was growling and I still hoped I would find something. I opened the fridge and found nothing; what was I hoping? I groaned and leaned myself on the counter, trying to suppress my hunger somehow. I hoped Akira would come soon enough. I seriously haven't eaten for so long and didn't even feel hungry, because I was too overwhelmed by other thoughts. So many things happened that hunger wasn't even that important. Suddenly, I heard a plate being put on a counter next to me. I flinched and looked at a persona who placed the plate there. It wasn't a persona, it was the demon.
-I can't eat that...-I took a glance on pancakes that were on the plate. I loved pancakes, but I couldn't eat them.-I can't talk to you anymore; I can't do anything that has something to do with you.-I bit my lip, scared of what could happen after I said this. The plate suddenly scattered into pieces and I got startled and took a step back from Naxamar. He was looking at me with so much hatred but I didn't know if it was just hatred.
-Is it because of Akira?-He asked, realizing that he didn't like the idea of Akira standing between us. Though us between Naxamar and me didn't really exist, but somehow I thought Naxamar actually thought it existed.
-Y-yeah.-I could feel how Naxamar got pissed off when I said that. I clenched my fists and Naxamar looked around the kitchen.
-Why can't you see it?!-Naxamar suddenly snapped and I flinched again, confused this time. I seriously didn't know what the heck was he talking about.
-See what?-As soon as I asked, he pinned me against the wall, placing his hand against the wall next to me. My heart started to race with high speed and I wasn't sure how was this going to end. He was so close to me and I wasn't sure if I could push him if he tried to do something inappropriate Would I be unable to do anything just like always?
-Do you have any idea why I helped you all this time? Why I made you kill Masato? Why I try so desperately to destroy the relationship between Akira and you?-I blinked couple of times before my brain absorbed everything Naxamar had said just now. I asked myself that, to be honest, but I didn't know that Naxamar wanted to talk about it. Even more, that he had an actual reason for doing all this. What was even more surprising; I didn't feel scared. I was now more curious than anything else.
-No. I wanted to ask you but I didn't know you wanted to talk about it.-Oh no, I was talking to him again. But what to do when he got me curious and he's now going to answer questions which I was eager to know the answer to. It's going to alright if Naxamar answers everything before Akira comes back.
-Do you remember when I hummed and then you asked why was I doing that?
-Yeah, and you said that it was because I was in danger--
-But it isn't the whole meaning of it.-He interrupted before I had to add anything more. I raised my eyebrows in surprise and waited to be surprised even more.-When a demon hums...-He stopped just to gently move hair from my face and brush his fingers through my hair.-...it's either because of danger or...-Pausing again, he gently kissed my forehead and, yes, I didn't do absolutely nothing to stop him in his tracks. Maybe he did something to me to prevent me from pushing him away. Maybe some kind of hypnosis? Whoa, it has never crossed my mind until now. Maybe I wasn't that far away from the truth.-...because he is in love.-My eyes widened in shock and I wanted to step back but I'd hit just the wall, so I gave up on it. Instead, I just stared at Naxamar, barely believing the thing he's just said.
-Wh-...why? Why me?-It was pure shock for me, really. I didn't know if he was just screwing with me or if it really was the truth; though I don't see the reason why would he be lying.
-Because you're absolutely beautiful; in every way possible.-Well, I could say that I blushed at that. But even though he confessed and everything, I still couldn't give up on trying to push him away from me. I didn't want to ruin the relationship with Akira just because of someone paranormal. No matter how much Naxamar was good to me, there was still masochist in me that wanted sadist by his side a.k.a Akira. I raised my hands and pushed him slightly, just to give him clear for that I can't do anything that had to do with him. I've already said that at the beginning.
-Takanori...-At once, I heard Akira's voice and, freaked out, I pushed Naxamar harshly away from me just to see confused Akira. And even if he looked confused now, I was sure he wouldn't be in great mood later. Suddenly, I saw how some dark smoke was forming around Naxamar, but I wasn't sure if Akira saw it too. But, when I looked at Akira, I could say that he did see it too.
-Just stay there!-I told him not to move, because who knows what was Naxamar up to. As soon as I saw that the smoke was going at the Akira's direction, I ran as fast as I could to him to protect him just to feel something pushing me down to the floor.
-TAKANORI!-They both exclaimed as I fell on the stomach unable to move any muscle. Everything on me and in me hurt and I was sure that it my the end. But, honestly, I didn't actually care; at least, Akira wasn't the one who was hurt. At least, I showed him that I loved him and didn't do all of this with Naxamar on purpose. I mean, it wasn't the main reason I wanted to protect him, I just couldn't imagine life without Akira.
-What were you trying to do, Naxamar?!-I heard Akira yelling and wanted him to stop, because he may be hurt after for doing that.
-It was supposed to be for you.-But, Naxamar was still calm like nothing happened.
I tried to turn myself to lay on my back but it was really hard. Like I had cramps in every muscle possible.
-Do something!-Akira exclaimed.
-I can't. If I could, I wouldn't use that spell.-Somehow, I succeeded and turned myself to lay on back, and felt like something was tightening my windpipe. I barely could breathe, and now when I thought that it could be Akira to experience all this now, I was actually glad it was me. I can't imagine a person like him to expiriance any kind of pain. I heard Akira's footsteps approaching me and he knelt beside me.
-Takanori...-I heard him whisper and that elicited my smile on the surface. He placed my head on his lap and now I could see how teary were Akira's eyes.-Why are you so stupid to do something like that?-His hand stroked my cheek as tears found their way to his eyes. It was the first time I saw Akira crying. My heart ached at that sight of him, because he was always strong, wasn't he? That was what he tried to be; that was what he wanted to be. I didn't want him to cry, especially not because of me.
-Don't...cry...-That was when I actually realized that I couldn't even speak. That even my speech was fading out, and that the end really has came to me.-Please... don't... you're...strong....aren't you?-I definitely wouldn't like to see him in my last minutes like that. Though, I was thankful he actually cared, that he didn't lie all this time. He took my hand and squeezed as he still looked into my eyes until my mouth let out their last breath and everything just became black, I just felt something warm on my skin.
Everything was absolutely dark, I couldn't see anything but I still was going somewhere. I could hear a warm voice saying my name, but as if it came from somewhere where I couldn't reach. I just knew the voice sounded really kind and I could listen to it forever. But the last hopes faded away and the voice stopped, and there was absolutely nothing. Just darkness... It was scary at some point, and I could say that I was somewhere between life and death. But as if I couldn't see that border because if I would step further or backwards, I wouldn't go anywhere. I couldn't see anything, but that was until the ground (if I could name it 'ground') underneath me opened and I fell into it. Was I standing on the border until then and now I completely crossed it and now was my the end?
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I was somewhere... I didn't know where. Another dimension, maybe?I felt different, I felt stronger. Like it wasn't me who was standing there. But I felt like something was lacking, something was missing. Not around me, but in me. There was someone or something what I was supposed to miss, but I didn't seem to remember anything from my human life. I wasn't human now, that was for sure, I was demon because I was half-demon in my past life. I just remembered that I died by protecting someone, someone who was dear to me. That was probably someone whom I should miss, but I still wasn't sure. I also remembered that the one who killed me was the demon named Naxamar, but that was everything I could call up. I really felt strange and I started walking, because I didn't know what else to do. The sky above me was mostly with dark clouds and it seemed as if it was about to start raining, but none raindrop fell. And I was walking out of some forest and could see that there was some kind of palace not so far away from the forest. I frowned at that and started walking towards said place. The palace was huge and had pitched roof, and was also painted black. It had two floors expect that there was also attic on top. I came near the double door and they seemed heavy to push since they looked like they were made of iron. I placed both of my hands and that was also when I realized how pale I actually was. Well that was expected since I didn't have blood that circulated through my body anymore. Wow, I was actually living dead, that was the thought that crossed my mind as I realized the obvious fact.
I pushed the door open and was surprised how actually it was easy to open them. They weren't heavy as they seemed. As soon as I set a foot in there, I could see many pairs of eyes staring at me. Like I was some kind of an alien, but I was same as them in fact. When I closed the door behind me, they all started whispering around them and it was obvious that they were gossiping me. But there was something different in it; the way they looked at me, with opened mouth. Like they saw someone famous or someone who looked like a fucking monster. I felt awkward so I just remained there waiting someone to actually direct me or to show me around or, I don't know, do something with this newcomer.
-Are you that... that kid Naxamar has fallen for?!-Someone exclaimed and I looked at the direction the voice was coming from. I seriously didn't know what the hell they were talking about. I frowned in confusion and then someone added:
-Famous romance! Between the mortal and demon!-I looked at them like they totally had gone insane. Even if Naxamar really has fallen for me, how the hell they know that?! But, it looked like informations were spreading here quickly. I already didn't like it.
-Silence!-Suddenly, someone said. I looked at the person who had just saved me, and it was some man who looked like he was around 30.-Welcome, Takanori. We've been waiting for you.-He politely smiled and I blinked couple of time. They were waiting for me? I smiled too because that was everything I remembered to do.-Follow me.-He said and I did as he said. Finally, I escaped the attack of 'my fans', if I could name them like that. I mean, they seemed excited by my arrival.
I entered some kind of office and sat on the chair on the opposite side of the man.
-My name is Amon, and...-He paused like he was trying to remember something and then he continued.-...your name is now Ruki. Every demon has different name from their human life. You can't use Takanori.-I nodded in understanding and then, suddenly, someone barged in and Amon exclaimed:-Who the hell told you to barge in like this?!
-There is another new demon!-Amon looked confused as he heard news. I looked at the demon (I assumed they were all demons here) who interrupted and he was wearing some kind of uniform, I don't know.
-Another one?-Amon asked, frowning. The man nodded and pushed the newcomer in the room. As he came in, I felt weird. Like some kind of puzzle in me was finally finished. Like the miss in me had now completely disappeared as soon as the new demon with the cloth over his nose came in. He had red eyes and blonde hair and looked really strong. Then, he sat on the chair next to me but I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. It was weird because I didn't feel like someone was lacking. As he saw that I looked at him, he started looking at me too. I felt embarrassed and returned my gazed towards Amon.-And, you are...?
-Akira.-The blonde guy immediately answered with his deep voice.-My killer was Naxamar, though I wanted him to kill me.-I flinched as I heard that because Naxamar was also the one who cause my death.
-He killed me too!-I exclaimed and Akira instantly looked at me.-I ... I died protecting someone...
-And I died because the one who was protecting me died. And I loved that person.-We both stared at each other with disbelief and we heard Amon chuckled.
-I loved the person who I protected... but seems like it's useless, because he killed himself after.-I laughed a bit, because it was too obvious that he was the one who I tried to protect.
-No way...-Akira took a deep breath and focused his gaze on Amon.
-But isn't it obvious that... we are...the ones who are in love?
-I've never denied.-Akira retorted and Amon cleared his throat before he spoke.
-I'm sorry for interrupting you two in cognition, but I just want to tell Akira that his name now is Reita. And, here are the keys from your room; you're going to share it. You two can leave now.-I grabbed the keys and we both got out, and headed upstairs. No one said anything, probably because he was surprised by the information we had just found out. When we arrived, I opened the door and we got in. There were two beds on both of sides of the room and one big window between them. It was empty, there was nothing else in it.
I took a glance on Reita who was observing room too as me, and then he went to the bed on the right side of the room and sat on it. That was when I actually started to wonder what he had a band over his nose. Have I seen it already while I was...alive? But, even if I did, I didn't now; so I just stared at it. I brought up the courage and walked towards Akira (or should I call him now Reita?). I bent down so I faced him now and lifted my hand, poking his covered nose.
-Why are you wearing it? - Suddenly, he grabbed my wrist and pushed me to lay on his bed. My eyes widened in surprise and soon he was on top of me.-Wha...what are you doing?
-Well, didn't we use to do it if we were lovers?-Akira bent down and placed a brief kiss on my lips.
-But, it's still not sure if we really were lovers.-The lump slid down my throat and he smirked.
-So? We don't remember anything, anyway. Either if we were or weren't, it doesn't change the fact that I like you.-I had weird twist in my stomach and still couldn't stop staring with wide eyes at him.
-You can't like someone after first meeting. I mean, we didn't even meet. We just talked for few minutes.
-Would you stop nagging?-He said annoyed and pushed his tongue into my mouth and I was unable to say anything more. His hands started undressing my shirt and then I stripped my pants mechanically. I didn't want to struggle anymore, since I thought it wouldn't end nicely. Also, to be honest, he already made me horny. I didn't know why or how, it just happened. He was probably still my lover. There isn't any other explanation. Maybe my brain didn't remember him, but my body would never probably forget him. Even if it, at some point, would turn out he wasn't, I would still like to believe that he is, because he deserves to be called like that. I could feel that he deserved.
Akira started rubbing his cock against mine over fabric while he licked me all over my chest. Even if he didn't do anything specially, I felt aroused as each second passed. I didn't know how he managed to do it, but he succeed in it. Soon, his tongue returned in my mouth and somehow I liked to kiss him more than anything. The way his tongue just wins dominance in my mouth and that there is no way that he would let me leader in any kind of situation. Yeah, just by kissing, I could see that.
He stopped with kissing, and I was ready to whine, but then he stripped his pants with underwear and stripped mine too. As soon as I was uncovered, I spread out my legs and was sure he would just push it in instantly, but his fingers replaced his big cock. Yup, he was big and now I wouldn't mind even less if he really was my lover. Akira thrusted his fingers in me, but even with just doing it with his fingers, he was doing miracles with my body. I gripped the covers underneath and moaned loudly.
-Damn, I wouldn't be surprised if you really were my lover.-He said seductively, but I didn't have time to think about it, because the third finger was pushed after.
-Akira!-I groaned and he bent down to my ear, whispering:
-My name now is Reita.-Somehow, I thought I wouldn't be able to get used in calling him like that. Like I called him Akira for too long.
-R-reita...-I gasped and scratched his back as he pushed his fingers deeper. He pulled out his fingers and licked them, smirking confidentally.
-Are you ready?-I instantly nodded and he stroked his cock few times before he pushed it in. I thought that if I was demon, I wouldn't feel pain, but I did. It seriously should be illegal to have this big cock. I stifled the moans that the pain caused and wrapped arms around Akira tightly as if it would help me ease the pain.-Does it hurt?
-You...can move...-I said because I still didn't want to stay hard for too long. Akira did as I said, but as if my words meant 'move fast so the bed starts shaking'. But I guessed it wasn't Akira's own fault, it was probably because he was demon and was stronger than before. I seriously thought all my bones are going crack because of him. But, damn, it felt so good. I kept moaning completely forgetting all the others who could hear me. Akira started kissing me passionately trying to swallow all my moans that were coming out of my mouth. If Akira wasn't demon, I could bet that his back would start bleeding by now. He stopped with molesting my mouth when he hit my prostate and then, we heard some creak sound coming from bed. He stopped in moving and we both looked at each other confused until the plank that was holding mattress of the bed fell and both of us together with it. Actually, we slid down a bit, not fell. I would be laughing by now but I was too horny to do that. He didn't seem in mood to laugh either, so he just rolled his eyes. Suddenly, he pulled out of me and started dressing himself up. I grabbed his hand: - Where are you going?-I asked confused.
-To report this shit to Amon.
-Not before you finish with me.-I pulled him back by the hand and he rolled his eyes again.
-How do you think to finish it when we fucked up the bed?-He swore to much; that was what I noticed.
-It was your fault, not mine.-I paid attention to put the accents on pronouns.
-But you liked it that way.-And he paid too, not forgetting to put his smirk on his face.
-But don't tell me that you didn't like it?
-Not as much as you did.
-I've never asked you to do it.-Now I started to put the accents on verbs. He frowned and before he could add something more, someone knocked on the door. We looked at the direction of the door when it opened and saw no one else but Amon. His eyes widened in shock as he saw half-naked Akira, fully naked me and fucked up bed by Akira.
-What the...
-It's Akira's fault.-I grinned as Akira gave me a death glare.
-I don't want to argue who was this fault, I just wanted to give you two clothes which you are going to wear from now on.
-Will you leave the clothes here and leave the room?-Akira said annoyed and Amon seemed surprised, so he hurriedly did as Akira said and told us to go downstairs after we are finished talking and dressing up. Akira returned his gaze towards me and I looked at him with pleading look. I seriously couldn't bear my arousal anymore. It was dripping wet, wanting someone to take care of it and the person who I wanted it to be, refused.
-Will you?-I pointed at my cock and he rolled his eyes, picking up the blue outfit Amon left on the bed of the other side of the room. The one that wasn't fucked up. He had blue outfit because he had something that has to do with water, while I was fire; completely opposite of him. Especially because he had red eyes and I had blue, whcih was also opposite of our own outfits. I didn't know why was it like that, but I liked it. It wasn't usual, that was the fact.-Reitaaaa...-I whined as loud as I could to show him how much I needed him, his touch, his hands, his whole being. He didn't even take a glance on me, but when he was completely in blue, I could say that he looked like a prince. That one prince which only existed in fairy tales. Akira looked absolutely amazing and outfit also looked like the ones which princes wore.
-What are you staring at?-If he would just cut out that kind of talking and tried to be a bit more charming with his words; and he would be absolutely perfect.
-Nothing...-I muttered and got up to put on my new clothes. He watched every my move towards the outfit:
-Are you seriously not going to do with that by yourself?-He sneered and I just took a glance on him for a second before I took my outfit. I refrained myself from saying something and have any further conversation with him. I was already angry because he just left me there naked and did absolutely nothing and that was also his fault for having hard on.
I put the red outfit on and realized that I didn't look that bad either. I had red shorts long enough to slightly cover my knees and long white socks to my knees with black shoes. On top, I had red tight jacket with long sleeves that had black wide ends. Under the jacket, there was black shirt with big red bow tied around the collar. It wasn't the simple bow, it looked more stylish than simple one.
-Let's go.-Akira said after we finished and didn't even compliment my outfit. But I didn't do that either, so I couldn't really blame him.
We went downstairs and saw on the left side of big hall a round big table. Everyone were sitting, expect two empty seats which were probably for Akira and me. We sat too and waited for something or someone. I didn't really know what was going to happen now. After some time, Amon came and stood in front of the table and observed us all for a minute. Since Akira and I sat on the opposite side of where Amon stood and he couldn't see what we did under the table, Akira took a chance and placed his hand on my cock over the fabric. I looked at him surprised but he kept his steady look and just squeezed it tighter what made me gasp silently.
-Welcome everyone.-Amon started off and then as he saw no one said anything after, just continued:-As you already know, you all are now demons. Maybe you don't know, but you still have a heart expect that it doesn't pump blood. It works so you can reproduce.-I frowned at him confused and surprised at the same time. I didn't know demons could reproduce and I was confused because the heart didn't pump blood anymore. It kind of made me sad.-There's nothing confusing in that, Ruki.-So he noticed.-You're not humans anymore, your body works differently. Speaking about sex, heterosexual and homosexual sex here works almost the same.-When he said that, it seemed like he talked especially for Akira and me because he stared at us disapprovingly. Akira didn't seem to care about that, because he slipped his hand into my underwear and my eyes instantly widened in surprise.-The who's on top...-Amon continued.-...takes energy from the one who's on bottom. So, for ones who are on bottom, you might feel slightly dizzy after you reach your limit since your energy is taken.-Maybe it was good I didn't come in the room, but now I will. Akira didn't stop moving his hand up and down on my arousal. I tried my best to suppress any kind of moan slip my mouth. It would be so embarrassing and I think it's Akira's point now. I didn't want him to win the game.-But that's not the only way to take energy.-Amon excused himself and went on the other side of the room, opening something that looked like freezer and took a pipette which was with something on the side that was supposed to be open. The green liquid floated in it.-That's the modern way to take the energy. Before, demons only could take energy through sex or go to human world to take the energy from humans. Don't worry, you'll learn how to do that too.-He said sarcastically.-But, you wont't learn that here, but in the building that was built for that.
-Something like school?-Someone asked. I would ask too, but Akira just kept on molesting my cock. And he didn't even let me to come. Asshole.
-Exactly. You'll go there every day, because you have to learn that all before the big war starts.
-THE BIG WAR?!-Everyone exclaimed terrified, while I just took a chance to moan silently. I will kill Akira after...I'm so going to do that. I was terrified by the word 'war' too, but I couldn't express anything otherwise I would just embarrass myself. Fuck you, Akira. Just fuck you.
-Yeah. But you don't have to worry about that...yet. When it's right time, you'll be informed. You have to focus also on learning demonic language. No one will talk to you in Japanese here. I'm talking in Japanese, so you could understand me, obviously. Also...-He emphasized.-... another one important thing. You are forbidden to use magic that you learn in this palace.
-But how Naxamar used Japanese with Ruki? Aren't demons forbidden to talk to humans and befriend them? And fall in love with them?-I could kill that person who said that. I didn't know if what they talked about was truth or lie, but I knew after that Akira sped up the pace and come closer to my ear and said.
-Who's Naxamar?-He whispered. Amon looked nervous and just muttered.
-I'm not the one who should discuss about that. You can leave now.-And he just left from there. Everyone started staring at me like I killed someone and then they just left too, but Akira and me remained on our seats. Akira pulled the hand out of my underwear and stood up, heading towards the door of the palace.
-Where are you going?-I asked.
-Just follow me.-He simply said and opened the door, and I followed him. I closed the door behind me and we walked towards the forest. I started thinking about Naxamar. Besides that he was the one who wanted to kill my lover, probably Akira, I forgot everything. And there's nothing I could do to return the memories. Maybe I should just give up on thinking about that, since it's useless. But I really want know more about him and what happened between us.
We arrived at some place beside some stream and there was also a bench not so far from the stream. Akira pulled me to him by the collar and now I was face to face with him.
-Why did you have to torture me under the table?-I said annoyed.
-Why did you whine about not being able to jerk it off?-Here we are again, arguing about something stupid.
-I've never said I couldn't do it, I just wanted it to be you.
-And it was me, and it is me, and it will be me.
-Which means...?
-I don't want to hear about that Naxamar guy again.-I bit my lip and would now blush my ass off, but I didn't have the blood which would cause that. Instead of that, I felt those rocks in my stomach, stumbling and rolling. I felt really safe in his presence even though I know him for an hour or less. Maybe he really was my lover.
-Maybe you really were my lover.
-And I am.-He immediately said and I gave him a confused look.-I've known all along. How could I forget that face? Those eyes? Those lips?-I couldn't believe what he said. How come he didn't forget everything? He didn't let me add anything more, catching my lips with his, not letting me breathe. I wrapped my arms around him and felt like I was melting. Maybe love really can last forever. Maybe real love actually existed and the world still wasn't that fucked up. But all I knew now is that I didn't want let Akira slip away from my hands. I didn't want this to happen... I'm going to protect him with all my might if that big war starts. The love I felt before was coming back in big amounts and I hope it doesn't vanish suddenly.
It was him, it is him, it will be him.
Author: lovingreituki
Genre: Romance, Psychological, Fantasy, Urban, Yaoi
Pairing(s): ReitaxRuki, RukixOC, AoixUruha
Warnings: Violence, slavery, rape, murders, gang...
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I just own my sick imagination.
Summary: Takanori's life completely changes when he kills the love of his life. He goes to one house where all the people are now supposed to be in prison, but they were "saved" by directors of the house-Kamijo and Gackt. At least, Takanori thinks it's just a simple house. He meets Akira Suzuki, his roommate, and that's when his life becomes twisted and totally confusing for him.
The next morning I woke up seeing that Akira wasn't next to me. My eyes widened and immediately all the worst thoughts flashed through my mind. Remembering the last night, it wouldn't be surprise if he really did leave me. I instantly got up from the bed and looked around the room hoping, I'll see him somewhere. But, nothing... Absolutely no one was there. My stomach started to twitch because I already started to freak out, until I looked next to the bed on the nightstand and saw some paper there. I reached the hand out to take it and when looked at it, it said that he was going to buy some food and he'll be back. I sighed in relief, because if he seriously left me, I wouldn't know what to do. Maybe I was too attached to him, but I couldn't possibly change it just like that. Maybe I was just too hopeless and desperate.
I dressed myself up and walked downstairs to the kitchen even though I knew there was nothing yet to eat. But, my stomach was growling and I still hoped I would find something. I opened the fridge and found nothing; what was I hoping? I groaned and leaned myself on the counter, trying to suppress my hunger somehow. I hoped Akira would come soon enough. I seriously haven't eaten for so long and didn't even feel hungry, because I was too overwhelmed by other thoughts. So many things happened that hunger wasn't even that important. Suddenly, I heard a plate being put on a counter next to me. I flinched and looked at a persona who placed the plate there. It wasn't a persona, it was the demon.
-I can't eat that...-I took a glance on pancakes that were on the plate. I loved pancakes, but I couldn't eat them.-I can't talk to you anymore; I can't do anything that has something to do with you.-I bit my lip, scared of what could happen after I said this. The plate suddenly scattered into pieces and I got startled and took a step back from Naxamar. He was looking at me with so much hatred but I didn't know if it was just hatred.
-Is it because of Akira?-He asked, realizing that he didn't like the idea of Akira standing between us. Though us between Naxamar and me didn't really exist, but somehow I thought Naxamar actually thought it existed.
-Y-yeah.-I could feel how Naxamar got pissed off when I said that. I clenched my fists and Naxamar looked around the kitchen.
-Why can't you see it?!-Naxamar suddenly snapped and I flinched again, confused this time. I seriously didn't know what the heck was he talking about.
-See what?-As soon as I asked, he pinned me against the wall, placing his hand against the wall next to me. My heart started to race with high speed and I wasn't sure how was this going to end. He was so close to me and I wasn't sure if I could push him if he tried to do something inappropriate Would I be unable to do anything just like always?
-Do you have any idea why I helped you all this time? Why I made you kill Masato? Why I try so desperately to destroy the relationship between Akira and you?-I blinked couple of times before my brain absorbed everything Naxamar had said just now. I asked myself that, to be honest, but I didn't know that Naxamar wanted to talk about it. Even more, that he had an actual reason for doing all this. What was even more surprising; I didn't feel scared. I was now more curious than anything else.
-No. I wanted to ask you but I didn't know you wanted to talk about it.-Oh no, I was talking to him again. But what to do when he got me curious and he's now going to answer questions which I was eager to know the answer to. It's going to alright if Naxamar answers everything before Akira comes back.
-Do you remember when I hummed and then you asked why was I doing that?
-Yeah, and you said that it was because I was in danger--
-But it isn't the whole meaning of it.-He interrupted before I had to add anything more. I raised my eyebrows in surprise and waited to be surprised even more.-When a demon hums...-He stopped just to gently move hair from my face and brush his fingers through my hair.-...it's either because of danger or...-Pausing again, he gently kissed my forehead and, yes, I didn't do absolutely nothing to stop him in his tracks. Maybe he did something to me to prevent me from pushing him away. Maybe some kind of hypnosis? Whoa, it has never crossed my mind until now. Maybe I wasn't that far away from the truth.-...because he is in love.-My eyes widened in shock and I wanted to step back but I'd hit just the wall, so I gave up on it. Instead, I just stared at Naxamar, barely believing the thing he's just said.
-Wh-...why? Why me?-It was pure shock for me, really. I didn't know if he was just screwing with me or if it really was the truth; though I don't see the reason why would he be lying.
-Because you're absolutely beautiful; in every way possible.-Well, I could say that I blushed at that. But even though he confessed and everything, I still couldn't give up on trying to push him away from me. I didn't want to ruin the relationship with Akira just because of someone paranormal. No matter how much Naxamar was good to me, there was still masochist in me that wanted sadist by his side a.k.a Akira. I raised my hands and pushed him slightly, just to give him clear for that I can't do anything that had to do with him. I've already said that at the beginning.
-Takanori...-At once, I heard Akira's voice and, freaked out, I pushed Naxamar harshly away from me just to see confused Akira. And even if he looked confused now, I was sure he wouldn't be in great mood later. Suddenly, I saw how some dark smoke was forming around Naxamar, but I wasn't sure if Akira saw it too. But, when I looked at Akira, I could say that he did see it too.
-Just stay there!-I told him not to move, because who knows what was Naxamar up to. As soon as I saw that the smoke was going at the Akira's direction, I ran as fast as I could to him to protect him just to feel something pushing me down to the floor.
-TAKANORI!-They both exclaimed as I fell on the stomach unable to move any muscle. Everything on me and in me hurt and I was sure that it my the end. But, honestly, I didn't actually care; at least, Akira wasn't the one who was hurt. At least, I showed him that I loved him and didn't do all of this with Naxamar on purpose. I mean, it wasn't the main reason I wanted to protect him, I just couldn't imagine life without Akira.
-What were you trying to do, Naxamar?!-I heard Akira yelling and wanted him to stop, because he may be hurt after for doing that.
-It was supposed to be for you.-But, Naxamar was still calm like nothing happened.
I tried to turn myself to lay on my back but it was really hard. Like I had cramps in every muscle possible.
-Do something!-Akira exclaimed.
-I can't. If I could, I wouldn't use that spell.-Somehow, I succeeded and turned myself to lay on back, and felt like something was tightening my windpipe. I barely could breathe, and now when I thought that it could be Akira to experience all this now, I was actually glad it was me. I can't imagine a person like him to expiriance any kind of pain. I heard Akira's footsteps approaching me and he knelt beside me.
-Takanori...-I heard him whisper and that elicited my smile on the surface. He placed my head on his lap and now I could see how teary were Akira's eyes.-Why are you so stupid to do something like that?-His hand stroked my cheek as tears found their way to his eyes. It was the first time I saw Akira crying. My heart ached at that sight of him, because he was always strong, wasn't he? That was what he tried to be; that was what he wanted to be. I didn't want him to cry, especially not because of me.
-Don't...cry...-That was when I actually realized that I couldn't even speak. That even my speech was fading out, and that the end really has came to me.-Please... don't... you're...strong....aren't you?-I definitely wouldn't like to see him in my last minutes like that. Though, I was thankful he actually cared, that he didn't lie all this time. He took my hand and squeezed as he still looked into my eyes until my mouth let out their last breath and everything just became black, I just felt something warm on my skin.
Everything was absolutely dark, I couldn't see anything but I still was going somewhere. I could hear a warm voice saying my name, but as if it came from somewhere where I couldn't reach. I just knew the voice sounded really kind and I could listen to it forever. But the last hopes faded away and the voice stopped, and there was absolutely nothing. Just darkness... It was scary at some point, and I could say that I was somewhere between life and death. But as if I couldn't see that border because if I would step further or backwards, I wouldn't go anywhere. I couldn't see anything, but that was until the ground (if I could name it 'ground') underneath me opened and I fell into it. Was I standing on the border until then and now I completely crossed it and now was my the end?
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I was somewhere... I didn't know where. Another dimension, maybe?I felt different, I felt stronger. Like it wasn't me who was standing there. But I felt like something was lacking, something was missing. Not around me, but in me. There was someone or something what I was supposed to miss, but I didn't seem to remember anything from my human life. I wasn't human now, that was for sure, I was demon because I was half-demon in my past life. I just remembered that I died by protecting someone, someone who was dear to me. That was probably someone whom I should miss, but I still wasn't sure. I also remembered that the one who killed me was the demon named Naxamar, but that was everything I could call up. I really felt strange and I started walking, because I didn't know what else to do. The sky above me was mostly with dark clouds and it seemed as if it was about to start raining, but none raindrop fell. And I was walking out of some forest and could see that there was some kind of palace not so far away from the forest. I frowned at that and started walking towards said place. The palace was huge and had pitched roof, and was also painted black. It had two floors expect that there was also attic on top. I came near the double door and they seemed heavy to push since they looked like they were made of iron. I placed both of my hands and that was also when I realized how pale I actually was. Well that was expected since I didn't have blood that circulated through my body anymore. Wow, I was actually living dead, that was the thought that crossed my mind as I realized the obvious fact.
I pushed the door open and was surprised how actually it was easy to open them. They weren't heavy as they seemed. As soon as I set a foot in there, I could see many pairs of eyes staring at me. Like I was some kind of an alien, but I was same as them in fact. When I closed the door behind me, they all started whispering around them and it was obvious that they were gossiping me. But there was something different in it; the way they looked at me, with opened mouth. Like they saw someone famous or someone who looked like a fucking monster. I felt awkward so I just remained there waiting someone to actually direct me or to show me around or, I don't know, do something with this newcomer.
-Are you that... that kid Naxamar has fallen for?!-Someone exclaimed and I looked at the direction the voice was coming from. I seriously didn't know what the hell they were talking about. I frowned in confusion and then someone added:
-Famous romance! Between the mortal and demon!-I looked at them like they totally had gone insane. Even if Naxamar really has fallen for me, how the hell they know that?! But, it looked like informations were spreading here quickly. I already didn't like it.
-Silence!-Suddenly, someone said. I looked at the person who had just saved me, and it was some man who looked like he was around 30.-Welcome, Takanori. We've been waiting for you.-He politely smiled and I blinked couple of time. They were waiting for me? I smiled too because that was everything I remembered to do.-Follow me.-He said and I did as he said. Finally, I escaped the attack of 'my fans', if I could name them like that. I mean, they seemed excited by my arrival.
I entered some kind of office and sat on the chair on the opposite side of the man.
-My name is Amon, and...-He paused like he was trying to remember something and then he continued.-...your name is now Ruki. Every demon has different name from their human life. You can't use Takanori.-I nodded in understanding and then, suddenly, someone barged in and Amon exclaimed:-Who the hell told you to barge in like this?!
-There is another new demon!-Amon looked confused as he heard news. I looked at the demon (I assumed they were all demons here) who interrupted and he was wearing some kind of uniform, I don't know.
-Another one?-Amon asked, frowning. The man nodded and pushed the newcomer in the room. As he came in, I felt weird. Like some kind of puzzle in me was finally finished. Like the miss in me had now completely disappeared as soon as the new demon with the cloth over his nose came in. He had red eyes and blonde hair and looked really strong. Then, he sat on the chair next to me but I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. It was weird because I didn't feel like someone was lacking. As he saw that I looked at him, he started looking at me too. I felt embarrassed and returned my gazed towards Amon.-And, you are...?
-Akira.-The blonde guy immediately answered with his deep voice.-My killer was Naxamar, though I wanted him to kill me.-I flinched as I heard that because Naxamar was also the one who cause my death.
-He killed me too!-I exclaimed and Akira instantly looked at me.-I ... I died protecting someone...
-And I died because the one who was protecting me died. And I loved that person.-We both stared at each other with disbelief and we heard Amon chuckled.
-I loved the person who I protected... but seems like it's useless, because he killed himself after.-I laughed a bit, because it was too obvious that he was the one who I tried to protect.
-No way...-Akira took a deep breath and focused his gaze on Amon.
-But isn't it obvious that... we are...the ones who are in love?
-I've never denied.-Akira retorted and Amon cleared his throat before he spoke.
-I'm sorry for interrupting you two in cognition, but I just want to tell Akira that his name now is Reita. And, here are the keys from your room; you're going to share it. You two can leave now.-I grabbed the keys and we both got out, and headed upstairs. No one said anything, probably because he was surprised by the information we had just found out. When we arrived, I opened the door and we got in. There were two beds on both of sides of the room and one big window between them. It was empty, there was nothing else in it.
I took a glance on Reita who was observing room too as me, and then he went to the bed on the right side of the room and sat on it. That was when I actually started to wonder what he had a band over his nose. Have I seen it already while I was...alive? But, even if I did, I didn't now; so I just stared at it. I brought up the courage and walked towards Akira (or should I call him now Reita?). I bent down so I faced him now and lifted my hand, poking his covered nose.
-Why are you wearing it? - Suddenly, he grabbed my wrist and pushed me to lay on his bed. My eyes widened in surprise and soon he was on top of me.-Wha...what are you doing?
-Well, didn't we use to do it if we were lovers?-Akira bent down and placed a brief kiss on my lips.
-But, it's still not sure if we really were lovers.-The lump slid down my throat and he smirked.
-So? We don't remember anything, anyway. Either if we were or weren't, it doesn't change the fact that I like you.-I had weird twist in my stomach and still couldn't stop staring with wide eyes at him.
-You can't like someone after first meeting. I mean, we didn't even meet. We just talked for few minutes.
-Would you stop nagging?-He said annoyed and pushed his tongue into my mouth and I was unable to say anything more. His hands started undressing my shirt and then I stripped my pants mechanically. I didn't want to struggle anymore, since I thought it wouldn't end nicely. Also, to be honest, he already made me horny. I didn't know why or how, it just happened. He was probably still my lover. There isn't any other explanation. Maybe my brain didn't remember him, but my body would never probably forget him. Even if it, at some point, would turn out he wasn't, I would still like to believe that he is, because he deserves to be called like that. I could feel that he deserved.
Akira started rubbing his cock against mine over fabric while he licked me all over my chest. Even if he didn't do anything specially, I felt aroused as each second passed. I didn't know how he managed to do it, but he succeed in it. Soon, his tongue returned in my mouth and somehow I liked to kiss him more than anything. The way his tongue just wins dominance in my mouth and that there is no way that he would let me leader in any kind of situation. Yeah, just by kissing, I could see that.
He stopped with kissing, and I was ready to whine, but then he stripped his pants with underwear and stripped mine too. As soon as I was uncovered, I spread out my legs and was sure he would just push it in instantly, but his fingers replaced his big cock. Yup, he was big and now I wouldn't mind even less if he really was my lover. Akira thrusted his fingers in me, but even with just doing it with his fingers, he was doing miracles with my body. I gripped the covers underneath and moaned loudly.
-Damn, I wouldn't be surprised if you really were my lover.-He said seductively, but I didn't have time to think about it, because the third finger was pushed after.
-Akira!-I groaned and he bent down to my ear, whispering:
-My name now is Reita.-Somehow, I thought I wouldn't be able to get used in calling him like that. Like I called him Akira for too long.
-R-reita...-I gasped and scratched his back as he pushed his fingers deeper. He pulled out his fingers and licked them, smirking confidentally.
-Are you ready?-I instantly nodded and he stroked his cock few times before he pushed it in. I thought that if I was demon, I wouldn't feel pain, but I did. It seriously should be illegal to have this big cock. I stifled the moans that the pain caused and wrapped arms around Akira tightly as if it would help me ease the pain.-Does it hurt?
-You...can move...-I said because I still didn't want to stay hard for too long. Akira did as I said, but as if my words meant 'move fast so the bed starts shaking'. But I guessed it wasn't Akira's own fault, it was probably because he was demon and was stronger than before. I seriously thought all my bones are going crack because of him. But, damn, it felt so good. I kept moaning completely forgetting all the others who could hear me. Akira started kissing me passionately trying to swallow all my moans that were coming out of my mouth. If Akira wasn't demon, I could bet that his back would start bleeding by now. He stopped with molesting my mouth when he hit my prostate and then, we heard some creak sound coming from bed. He stopped in moving and we both looked at each other confused until the plank that was holding mattress of the bed fell and both of us together with it. Actually, we slid down a bit, not fell. I would be laughing by now but I was too horny to do that. He didn't seem in mood to laugh either, so he just rolled his eyes. Suddenly, he pulled out of me and started dressing himself up. I grabbed his hand: - Where are you going?-I asked confused.
-To report this shit to Amon.
-Not before you finish with me.-I pulled him back by the hand and he rolled his eyes again.
-How do you think to finish it when we fucked up the bed?-He swore to much; that was what I noticed.
-It was your fault, not mine.-I paid attention to put the accents on pronouns.
-But you liked it that way.-And he paid too, not forgetting to put his smirk on his face.
-But don't tell me that you didn't like it?
-Not as much as you did.
-I've never asked you to do it.-Now I started to put the accents on verbs. He frowned and before he could add something more, someone knocked on the door. We looked at the direction of the door when it opened and saw no one else but Amon. His eyes widened in shock as he saw half-naked Akira, fully naked me and fucked up bed by Akira.
-What the...
-It's Akira's fault.-I grinned as Akira gave me a death glare.
-I don't want to argue who was this fault, I just wanted to give you two clothes which you are going to wear from now on.
-Will you leave the clothes here and leave the room?-Akira said annoyed and Amon seemed surprised, so he hurriedly did as Akira said and told us to go downstairs after we are finished talking and dressing up. Akira returned his gaze towards me and I looked at him with pleading look. I seriously couldn't bear my arousal anymore. It was dripping wet, wanting someone to take care of it and the person who I wanted it to be, refused.
-Will you?-I pointed at my cock and he rolled his eyes, picking up the blue outfit Amon left on the bed of the other side of the room. The one that wasn't fucked up. He had blue outfit because he had something that has to do with water, while I was fire; completely opposite of him. Especially because he had red eyes and I had blue, whcih was also opposite of our own outfits. I didn't know why was it like that, but I liked it. It wasn't usual, that was the fact.-Reitaaaa...-I whined as loud as I could to show him how much I needed him, his touch, his hands, his whole being. He didn't even take a glance on me, but when he was completely in blue, I could say that he looked like a prince. That one prince which only existed in fairy tales. Akira looked absolutely amazing and outfit also looked like the ones which princes wore.
-What are you staring at?-If he would just cut out that kind of talking and tried to be a bit more charming with his words; and he would be absolutely perfect.
-Nothing...-I muttered and got up to put on my new clothes. He watched every my move towards the outfit:
-Are you seriously not going to do with that by yourself?-He sneered and I just took a glance on him for a second before I took my outfit. I refrained myself from saying something and have any further conversation with him. I was already angry because he just left me there naked and did absolutely nothing and that was also his fault for having hard on.
I put the red outfit on and realized that I didn't look that bad either. I had red shorts long enough to slightly cover my knees and long white socks to my knees with black shoes. On top, I had red tight jacket with long sleeves that had black wide ends. Under the jacket, there was black shirt with big red bow tied around the collar. It wasn't the simple bow, it looked more stylish than simple one.
-Let's go.-Akira said after we finished and didn't even compliment my outfit. But I didn't do that either, so I couldn't really blame him.
We went downstairs and saw on the left side of big hall a round big table. Everyone were sitting, expect two empty seats which were probably for Akira and me. We sat too and waited for something or someone. I didn't really know what was going to happen now. After some time, Amon came and stood in front of the table and observed us all for a minute. Since Akira and I sat on the opposite side of where Amon stood and he couldn't see what we did under the table, Akira took a chance and placed his hand on my cock over the fabric. I looked at him surprised but he kept his steady look and just squeezed it tighter what made me gasp silently.
-Welcome everyone.-Amon started off and then as he saw no one said anything after, just continued:-As you already know, you all are now demons. Maybe you don't know, but you still have a heart expect that it doesn't pump blood. It works so you can reproduce.-I frowned at him confused and surprised at the same time. I didn't know demons could reproduce and I was confused because the heart didn't pump blood anymore. It kind of made me sad.-There's nothing confusing in that, Ruki.-So he noticed.-You're not humans anymore, your body works differently. Speaking about sex, heterosexual and homosexual sex here works almost the same.-When he said that, it seemed like he talked especially for Akira and me because he stared at us disapprovingly. Akira didn't seem to care about that, because he slipped his hand into my underwear and my eyes instantly widened in surprise.-The who's on top...-Amon continued.-...takes energy from the one who's on bottom. So, for ones who are on bottom, you might feel slightly dizzy after you reach your limit since your energy is taken.-Maybe it was good I didn't come in the room, but now I will. Akira didn't stop moving his hand up and down on my arousal. I tried my best to suppress any kind of moan slip my mouth. It would be so embarrassing and I think it's Akira's point now. I didn't want him to win the game.-But that's not the only way to take energy.-Amon excused himself and went on the other side of the room, opening something that looked like freezer and took a pipette which was with something on the side that was supposed to be open. The green liquid floated in it.-That's the modern way to take the energy. Before, demons only could take energy through sex or go to human world to take the energy from humans. Don't worry, you'll learn how to do that too.-He said sarcastically.-But, you wont't learn that here, but in the building that was built for that.
-Something like school?-Someone asked. I would ask too, but Akira just kept on molesting my cock. And he didn't even let me to come. Asshole.
-Exactly. You'll go there every day, because you have to learn that all before the big war starts.
-THE BIG WAR?!-Everyone exclaimed terrified, while I just took a chance to moan silently. I will kill Akira after...I'm so going to do that. I was terrified by the word 'war' too, but I couldn't express anything otherwise I would just embarrass myself. Fuck you, Akira. Just fuck you.
-Yeah. But you don't have to worry about that...yet. When it's right time, you'll be informed. You have to focus also on learning demonic language. No one will talk to you in Japanese here. I'm talking in Japanese, so you could understand me, obviously. Also...-He emphasized.-... another one important thing. You are forbidden to use magic that you learn in this palace.
-But how Naxamar used Japanese with Ruki? Aren't demons forbidden to talk to humans and befriend them? And fall in love with them?-I could kill that person who said that. I didn't know if what they talked about was truth or lie, but I knew after that Akira sped up the pace and come closer to my ear and said.
-Who's Naxamar?-He whispered. Amon looked nervous and just muttered.
-I'm not the one who should discuss about that. You can leave now.-And he just left from there. Everyone started staring at me like I killed someone and then they just left too, but Akira and me remained on our seats. Akira pulled the hand out of my underwear and stood up, heading towards the door of the palace.
-Where are you going?-I asked.
-Just follow me.-He simply said and opened the door, and I followed him. I closed the door behind me and we walked towards the forest. I started thinking about Naxamar. Besides that he was the one who wanted to kill my lover, probably Akira, I forgot everything. And there's nothing I could do to return the memories. Maybe I should just give up on thinking about that, since it's useless. But I really want know more about him and what happened between us.
We arrived at some place beside some stream and there was also a bench not so far from the stream. Akira pulled me to him by the collar and now I was face to face with him.
-Why did you have to torture me under the table?-I said annoyed.
-Why did you whine about not being able to jerk it off?-Here we are again, arguing about something stupid.
-I've never said I couldn't do it, I just wanted it to be you.
-And it was me, and it is me, and it will be me.
-Which means...?
-I don't want to hear about that Naxamar guy again.-I bit my lip and would now blush my ass off, but I didn't have the blood which would cause that. Instead of that, I felt those rocks in my stomach, stumbling and rolling. I felt really safe in his presence even though I know him for an hour or less. Maybe he really was my lover.
-Maybe you really were my lover.
-And I am.-He immediately said and I gave him a confused look.-I've known all along. How could I forget that face? Those eyes? Those lips?-I couldn't believe what he said. How come he didn't forget everything? He didn't let me add anything more, catching my lips with his, not letting me breathe. I wrapped my arms around him and felt like I was melting. Maybe love really can last forever. Maybe real love actually existed and the world still wasn't that fucked up. But all I knew now is that I didn't want let Akira slip away from my hands. I didn't want this to happen... I'm going to protect him with all my might if that big war starts. The love I felt before was coming back in big amounts and I hope it doesn't vanish suddenly.
It was him, it is him, it will be him.