It's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away and I am missing you to death.
I have nothing profound to say.
Profound looks like it's spelled incorrectly, but I'm positive it isn't.
I'm going to miss my old life, maybe.
But I think things are going well, still.
Colby gets home in a week, and I'm looking forward to it.
I absolutely hate missing people.
Especially him.
I am very scared to move out.
And I am scared that something totally stupid will happen to me at school.
What if I can't find my classes or I forget to buy books, or my roommates are super crazy, or I suddenly want to just come home. OR I realize I know absolutely nothing and all of my hard work in high school was a wash because I'm just really not as smart as anyone else in the whole school.
BUT, I'm not going to worry about it really.
I am so glad I'm staying in San Diego.
I couldn't imagine leaving, even though about a year ago I was dead set on leaving the state.
I know I made the right decision.
I'm sort of over drama. I say what I mean and mean what I say.
No regrets.
If you don't like it, whatever.
I'm pretty much enjoying all of my friends, and I can't wait to make new ones in school.
Thank God.
I'm learning to take each day as it comes. The future scares me. It's like going to college was my primary goal for the last 12 years of my life.
I have to figure out what to look for next.
For some reason though, I'm having a lot of trouble with decision making.
I sort of just want to see where life takes me.
I want to be successful, and get married, and just be happy.
I already am happy, I know that. Just not fulfilled, is maybe what I am trying to say.
All in all though, if I had to choose a life for myself, any life, I'd choose what I have going now.
Amazing boyfriend, great friends, a family who's starting to come together, a bright future, and an amazing opportunity to make the most out of everything. I'm going to a great school, and I knew it was possible, it just seemed like this day would seriously never come.
I am so lucky.
And I am so in love.
I'm floating, and it's working out perfectly.
Random thoughts expressed in a random order.
Profound looks like it's spelled incorrectly, but I'm positive it isn't.
I'm going to miss my old life, maybe.
But I think things are going well, still.
Colby gets home in a week, and I'm looking forward to it.
I absolutely hate missing people.
Especially him.
I am very scared to move out.
And I am scared that something totally stupid will happen to me at school.
What if I can't find my classes or I forget to buy books, or my roommates are super crazy, or I suddenly want to just come home. OR I realize I know absolutely nothing and all of my hard work in high school was a wash because I'm just really not as smart as anyone else in the whole school.
BUT, I'm not going to worry about it really.
I am so glad I'm staying in San Diego.
I couldn't imagine leaving, even though about a year ago I was dead set on leaving the state.
I know I made the right decision.
I'm sort of over drama. I say what I mean and mean what I say.
No regrets.
If you don't like it, whatever.
I'm pretty much enjoying all of my friends, and I can't wait to make new ones in school.
Thank God.
I'm learning to take each day as it comes. The future scares me. It's like going to college was my primary goal for the last 12 years of my life.
I have to figure out what to look for next.
For some reason though, I'm having a lot of trouble with decision making.
I sort of just want to see where life takes me.
I want to be successful, and get married, and just be happy.
I already am happy, I know that. Just not fulfilled, is maybe what I am trying to say.
All in all though, if I had to choose a life for myself, any life, I'd choose what I have going now.
Amazing boyfriend, great friends, a family who's starting to come together, a bright future, and an amazing opportunity to make the most out of everything. I'm going to a great school, and I knew it was possible, it just seemed like this day would seriously never come.
I am so lucky.
And I am so in love.
I'm floating, and it's working out perfectly.
Random thoughts expressed in a random order.