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It really is amazing just how much something like a pregnancy or childbirth can change how one looks at the world both as a whole and as day-to-day company. Being a new mother has been surprisingly therapeutic - almost cathartic - for me.
Going through something so taxing truly shows you who your REAL friends are. I am amazed at how my close, small circle of friends have again reached out to me these past few months, whether it’s through weekly phone calls, the occasional text message, or the random Facebook/MySpace message reminding me that they care. It has brought me a sense of…well, normalcy that I’ve found extremely comforting. It has reminded me of the joys that I shared before Lily, and I am looking forward to reconnecting with these people.
This experience has also returned a very dear friend to me, and has re-opened communication with another person that was very dear to me. These have been very pleasant surprises!
I am also surprised at my sudden ability to set boundaries where I never have before. Relationships and interactions that have long been unhealthy are no longer acceptable to me, as they not only affect my overall well-being, but that eventually expands to affect my daughter and my family. I want to treasure every moment that I have with Lily, and being stressed out or upset by teenage-style angst and stupid employee politics keeps me from absorbing each and every toothless grin my daughter graces me with each day. It’s just not worth it to allow myself to succumb to trying to take on the counselor role to those that are not willing to accept being counseled. It’s not worth it to allow myself to get stressed about immature behavior from people older than me. They will not change, and I can’t and won’t spend my time dwelling on that which I cannot change. I’ve already spent far too much time wondering why people do what they do, and getting stressed over people that behave (what I consider to be) illogically. It’s not worth it and, in most cases, the relationships are not worth it, either.
I truly have become a different person these past few months. My tolerance for bullshit and drama has lowered, and my priorities have changed. It feels wonderful to finally rid myself of so many of the burdens I’d placed on myself over the years. There are a lot of changes going on behind the scenes that I will have to adapt to in the near future.
Bring it on.
Now playing: G. Love & Special Sauce - Superhero Brother
via FoxyTunes
It really is amazing just how much something like a pregnancy or childbirth can change how one looks at the world both as a whole and as day-to-day company. Being a new mother has been surprisingly therapeutic - almost cathartic - for me.
Going through something so taxing truly shows you who your REAL friends are. I am amazed at how my close, small circle of friends have again reached out to me these past few months, whether it’s through weekly phone calls, the occasional text message, or the random Facebook/MySpace message reminding me that they care. It has brought me a sense of…well, normalcy that I’ve found extremely comforting. It has reminded me of the joys that I shared before Lily, and I am looking forward to reconnecting with these people.
This experience has also returned a very dear friend to me, and has re-opened communication with another person that was very dear to me. These have been very pleasant surprises!
I am also surprised at my sudden ability to set boundaries where I never have before. Relationships and interactions that have long been unhealthy are no longer acceptable to me, as they not only affect my overall well-being, but that eventually expands to affect my daughter and my family. I want to treasure every moment that I have with Lily, and being stressed out or upset by teenage-style angst and stupid employee politics keeps me from absorbing each and every toothless grin my daughter graces me with each day. It’s just not worth it to allow myself to succumb to trying to take on the counselor role to those that are not willing to accept being counseled. It’s not worth it to allow myself to get stressed about immature behavior from people older than me. They will not change, and I can’t and won’t spend my time dwelling on that which I cannot change. I’ve already spent far too much time wondering why people do what they do, and getting stressed over people that behave (what I consider to be) illogically. It’s not worth it and, in most cases, the relationships are not worth it, either.
I truly have become a different person these past few months. My tolerance for bullshit and drama has lowered, and my priorities have changed. It feels wonderful to finally rid myself of so many of the burdens I’d placed on myself over the years. There are a lot of changes going on behind the scenes that I will have to adapt to in the near future.
Bring it on.