Stupid Air Force...
I really had no idea I'd miss him this much. I thought I'd be ok...that it wouldn't be that big of a deal. I've been alone before, right? But I really didn't know it'd be this hard. I guess it's really true..."you don't know what you've got till it's gone"...because this sucks. He called me yesterday and left a message while I was at school...to tell me his address and that he loved me...and his mom called me and said that he called her too and told her it was really hard and that he wanted her to call me and let me know how much he loves me and that he wishes he could write and call more...this is driving me insane. I want to see him, to hear him, to touch him...and I can't. There is no possible way for me to do that right now, and I hate it. I guess it's good...at least now I know that this is for real...because if it wasn't I wouldn't feel this way. But I miss him. And I miss him a lot. And I don't know how to make it better...I think because there's really nothing I can do.