Steal my heart and hold my tongue
Whew! Its been quite a week. Although I think every week is going to be "quite a week" for the next...um...9 years. Yesterday marked the end of our second week of school and already I had 2 calc quizzes, 2 calc group assignments, 2 4-page Spanish essays and a Spanish exam. Plus whatever else for Organic Chem and Anthro. But hey, I asked for it and to be honest, I like having things to do. I'm definitely checking a lot off of my list each day.
Tonight at about 10:45 I finished a 9.5-10 hr homework marathon. I got out of class at noon and just went crazy with homework and got on a roll. My hand is SO cramped, but I am very happy with such a productive day. I think Dieneke is definitely starting to rub off on me :) Plus, Organic Chem is even starting to click (although I don't want to jinx myself).
Each day has its ups and downs. I wish that the break-up hadn't happened right now with all of this change. I wish that I didn't feel such pressure to perform well for the sake of my future. I wish that all of the people I love could be here to validate me, talk to me, tell me about their days. But all of those things aren't happening for a reason, and it probably has something to do with me becoming a better, stronger person. My classes become much more tolerable when I remember that they are stepping stones to making a dream come true.
So thank you to everyone for letting me hold on so long. Thank you for standing next to me and holding my hand, whispering in my ear that its going to be ok. Thank you for tolerating this friend who refuses to let go. Now that I don't have you, I am appreciating you even more as I learn to do things for myself on my own . And as I learn to keep myself company (harder than I thought). But that doesn't mean I don't still want you for company if thats an option...there's always room for 2.
Love to all.
Hold my hand inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I've waited all these years
Tonight at about 10:45 I finished a 9.5-10 hr homework marathon. I got out of class at noon and just went crazy with homework and got on a roll. My hand is SO cramped, but I am very happy with such a productive day. I think Dieneke is definitely starting to rub off on me :) Plus, Organic Chem is even starting to click (although I don't want to jinx myself).
Each day has its ups and downs. I wish that the break-up hadn't happened right now with all of this change. I wish that I didn't feel such pressure to perform well for the sake of my future. I wish that all of the people I love could be here to validate me, talk to me, tell me about their days. But all of those things aren't happening for a reason, and it probably has something to do with me becoming a better, stronger person. My classes become much more tolerable when I remember that they are stepping stones to making a dream come true.
So thank you to everyone for letting me hold on so long. Thank you for standing next to me and holding my hand, whispering in my ear that its going to be ok. Thank you for tolerating this friend who refuses to let go. Now that I don't have you, I am appreciating you even more as I learn to do things for myself on my own . And as I learn to keep myself company (harder than I thought). But that doesn't mean I don't still want you for company if thats an option...there's always room for 2.
Love to all.
Hold my hand inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I've waited all these years