je desteste ma famille!!!
so i absolutely freaking hate my god damned family. i was trying to sleep cuz i was tired and i wake to hear that psycho who calls herself my sister talking and laughing with her b/f. so im like "wtf Tori im trying to sleep" and she's like "wat? you were being a bitch earlier, its not ur time in the room, and i don't give a f**k" and then flips me off. so i wait till my sorry excuse for a mom comes home and tell her about this. im like "mom i was trying to sleep and Tori came in and started talking and laughing and stuff with her b/f" so my mom goes "well maybe if u were nice to ur sister earlier and weren't a bitch then i would do something but u deserve it" and walks away. i didn't wash the dishes for my sister cuz her stupid nail popped off when she sat down while babysitting. 1) they're fake 2)she should've had them removed when she went to get them done last time and they were all breaking off 3)she never does anything for me and i used to do shit for her all the time and i finally just started to say "screw you guys" recently cuz im tired of being walked all over by my family like im a piece of crap. im so close to just going swimming in my below zero degrees pool and lying out while the cold wind ices my body so that i can get seriously ill and just freaking die and at least that way i don't have to worry about the consequences of suicide. its funny how i had moved in order to get away from all my problems but since i moved here i've tried to commit suicide twice and have cut myself multiple times. im more depressed here and i hate it with a freaking passion because i hate being this way.........i hate feeling sad when i want to be happy and i hate that my family has some kind of malice toward me. it seems anytime i get the smallest bit of happiness in my life then the worst my family gets. just the other week when my b/f came over my sister had a psycho episode and ran in my room where i was and my mom came in and started screaming and yelling at her. i was so embarassed. right in front of my b/f...i wanted to cry so hard but i didn't. i hate everything.