Let Me Let Go
Gah... stayed up way too late last night watching the original Highlander movie on AMC... never seen it before... interesting doesn't quite sum it up...
On to more pressing matters:
So, Matt and I are taking a break for while. A must, I think. We fell hard and fast... we're still in love. But you have to have certainty before you hit that point of no return. I already have my guarantees, but my trial will be different from his, and hopefully this will help us come up with answers.
I can't say that I totally comfortable with the idea. It is hard to repress the feeling that you're being replaced or threatened. Very hard. But logically, I know this must be done, so I do my best to squash those doubts. Besides, who in the hell could ever get to know him as I have? Or go through what we have gone through? The times that try you, the times that are difficult, the times of overwhelming adversity, these are the times that only make love and friendship and loyalty flourish. If it is meant to work out, it will.
Matt, my best friend, my confidante, my shoulder to cry on, will always be there, and I will always love him. And it is in that, that I find my faith and my strength.
And one day, we will look back on this, and say we were glad we did it, but thank God we won't ever have to do it again.
In the mean time, I need to get my life in order. I need to follow my own path, and heal my wounds. That I must do alone. At least summer holiday is in a week... I need a vacation.
On to more pressing matters:
So, Matt and I are taking a break for while. A must, I think. We fell hard and fast... we're still in love. But you have to have certainty before you hit that point of no return. I already have my guarantees, but my trial will be different from his, and hopefully this will help us come up with answers.
I can't say that I totally comfortable with the idea. It is hard to repress the feeling that you're being replaced or threatened. Very hard. But logically, I know this must be done, so I do my best to squash those doubts. Besides, who in the hell could ever get to know him as I have? Or go through what we have gone through? The times that try you, the times that are difficult, the times of overwhelming adversity, these are the times that only make love and friendship and loyalty flourish. If it is meant to work out, it will.
Matt, my best friend, my confidante, my shoulder to cry on, will always be there, and I will always love him. And it is in that, that I find my faith and my strength.
And one day, we will look back on this, and say we were glad we did it, but thank God we won't ever have to do it again.
In the mean time, I need to get my life in order. I need to follow my own path, and heal my wounds. That I must do alone. At least summer holiday is in a week... I need a vacation.