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[lovin_you_89]

is it just me, or did we all take life before now for granted?
our biggest fear was missing the icecream man,
or that the boy we liked would find out and laugh at us.
we never knew that one day we would have to say goodbye to things.
goodbye classrooms that smell like playdough and glue.
goodbye teachers that loved us for who we were.
goodbye taking pictures of the boys we liked and hiding them.
goodbye inside jokes that didnt mean something perverted.
what an innocent carefree life we had.
i enjoyed not knowing why my parents were fighting.
i enjoyed not knowing every part of our schedule.
i enjoyed not caring about what we did, when we did it, and who we did it with.
i happen to like being ignorant.
when was all this responsibility thrown on us?
i spent all my life trying to grow up and away from my parents,
and now that i have to make all these life changing decisions..
i kind of want that back. 
colleges, boys, family, friends, homes, carreers, grades...
all these things that we have to choose every day,
and no handbook to guide us.

have you ever noticed the hardest word to say and feel is goodbye?