food? normal? wtf?
Just when I "think" I have a somewhat "normal" thought in my head. Everything crashes.
Starve or binge? Those are the only thoughts I seem to have.
As I eat 3 fudge covered cookie while the oven is cooking a loaded pizza!
Grr, I swear I am alone in all that I do. I look in the mirror and see this flabby shit at my belly and hips. It honestly grosses me out!
I have even gone to deleting friends on here so it doesn't somehow get out that I have again gone crazy!
Tomorrow is the beginning of a new test. I am starting this with diet shakes. 5 days of that then I can do a cleansing, I'm looking it up, to choose the best one. Then I should be able to get this weight under control. I cannot even stand the fact that I had to buy new jeans, size 8 Gad! I have been a 6 for sooo long!
Starve or binge? Those are the only thoughts I seem to have.
As I eat 3 fudge covered cookie while the oven is cooking a loaded pizza!
Grr, I swear I am alone in all that I do. I look in the mirror and see this flabby shit at my belly and hips. It honestly grosses me out!
I have even gone to deleting friends on here so it doesn't somehow get out that I have again gone crazy!
Tomorrow is the beginning of a new test. I am starting this with diet shakes. 5 days of that then I can do a cleansing, I'm looking it up, to choose the best one. Then I should be able to get this weight under control. I cannot even stand the fact that I had to buy new jeans, size 8 Gad! I have been a 6 for sooo long!