i noo.. u like to think those dont staaaank but lean a little bit close see rose really smell like..
well.. i took 2 pills today! lets c how thats gonna make me.. lol
and omg last nite i went to sarah's till like 10.. and we werr on tha tramp. all nite.. it was so fun!!!! kuz i was hyper as ever!! lol..
and umm.. ali and sarah r at the shore.. jess is goin to a party today i think.. and emily isnt gettin home till later.. so that leaves me with.. NOTHING to do! lol.. o well.. my dads coming over today i think.. sumtime.. oh and my mom asked me if i cut lately.. and i cant lie to her face.. so i told her.. and i told her i did it with sizzors.. and then wen i was at sarah's.. she went in my room and took my sizzors.. and then wen she picked me up she sed that i couldnt have cut myself with them.. therr to dull.. and she was like.. wat did u really use? n i was like.. a knife.. but i only ever used a knife like 1nce or 2wice.. ( wich is a lie... ).. and i was like but i hav used sizzors b4! and they do work.. u jus gotta keep cuttin.. and then we got home.. and i was about to get outa tha car.. and shes like stay here.. and we had a talk about it.. and shes all like i dont know wat to do with you anymore.. if you were to kill urself.. i would have to kill myself for not preventing it.. and shes like.. there are places i can send you.. and im like NO DONT SEND ME AWAY!! omg i dont wanna go to a fuqin mental institution..and shes like.. marissa i just dont know wat to do with you anymore.. im worried about you.. and i dont understand this whole cutting thing.. and im like UR NOT GONNA UNDERSTAND IT, YOU DONT DO It.. n blah blah blah.. ah shes so worried aobut me.. and about the medication im on and shyt.. she has to stop worrying about me.. IM NOT GONNA KILL MYSELF.. and when i wanted to kill myself.. i didnt actually have the guts to DO IT.. and i wont... i promise i wont.. and shes like.. well the ppl who do commit suicide.. are the ones that say they wont do it.. or are the ones who dont tell sumbody about it.. ( and i never tell her wen i cut myself... ).. and thats wat she was getting at.. im like OMG IM NOT GONNA DO IT!! AH! i wish that sumbody would believe me about these things! JEEZ!
anywho ! lol.. Scotts gone till like the 23rd i think.. =( i miss him! hes like the only person i really like talkin to online! haha..
well.. wbL.. byE !
<3 Marissa
and omg last nite i went to sarah's till like 10.. and we werr on tha tramp. all nite.. it was so fun!!!! kuz i was hyper as ever!! lol..
and umm.. ali and sarah r at the shore.. jess is goin to a party today i think.. and emily isnt gettin home till later.. so that leaves me with.. NOTHING to do! lol.. o well.. my dads coming over today i think.. sumtime.. oh and my mom asked me if i cut lately.. and i cant lie to her face.. so i told her.. and i told her i did it with sizzors.. and then wen i was at sarah's.. she went in my room and took my sizzors.. and then wen she picked me up she sed that i couldnt have cut myself with them.. therr to dull.. and she was like.. wat did u really use? n i was like.. a knife.. but i only ever used a knife like 1nce or 2wice.. ( wich is a lie... ).. and i was like but i hav used sizzors b4! and they do work.. u jus gotta keep cuttin.. and then we got home.. and i was about to get outa tha car.. and shes like stay here.. and we had a talk about it.. and shes all like i dont know wat to do with you anymore.. if you were to kill urself.. i would have to kill myself for not preventing it.. and shes like.. there are places i can send you.. and im like NO DONT SEND ME AWAY!! omg i dont wanna go to a fuqin mental institution..and shes like.. marissa i just dont know wat to do with you anymore.. im worried about you.. and i dont understand this whole cutting thing.. and im like UR NOT GONNA UNDERSTAND IT, YOU DONT DO It.. n blah blah blah.. ah shes so worried aobut me.. and about the medication im on and shyt.. she has to stop worrying about me.. IM NOT GONNA KILL MYSELF.. and when i wanted to kill myself.. i didnt actually have the guts to DO IT.. and i wont... i promise i wont.. and shes like.. well the ppl who do commit suicide.. are the ones that say they wont do it.. or are the ones who dont tell sumbody about it.. ( and i never tell her wen i cut myself... ).. and thats wat she was getting at.. im like OMG IM NOT GONNA DO IT!! AH! i wish that sumbody would believe me about these things! JEEZ!
anywho ! lol.. Scotts gone till like the 23rd i think.. =( i miss him! hes like the only person i really like talkin to online! haha..
well.. wbL.. byE !
<3 Marissa