Last // NiiTe .. =(
well last nite.. after i got home from tha pool.. i slept for like 2 hours.. then woke up.. and i went to my room and was listenin to tha radio.. and readin a mag. .. then Brittney Spears's new song came on.. and i burst into tears.. i was so depressed and upset.. and i felt like Jess was gonna hate me forever.. and i was bein such a biiiitch that day.. and i didnt no wat to do.. and i couldnt STOP crying.. then i called jEs.. and i was like " is jes there ? " .. n then she came on tha fone... and like i could barely talk kuz i burst into tears again.. and i kept apologizing kuz i felt like a hOrribeL friend.. and omg it suckd.. i havent cried that much in like 2 months.. and ahhhh.. i hope thats not a sign for how the next couple of days/weeks are gonna b.. last nite i didnt no wat to do.. NO I DIDNT CUT.. kuz if i did .. i would have probaly ended up almost killin myself.. and.. umm.. BLAH!! MY LIFE SUX