i can't stop shaking
because it's cold and because i'm sad
I'm not going to San Francisco State
it's surprising how much this has hurt me
even though I must have seen it coming
I'm pissed now
because I took these fucking ap classes to get into college
that i'm mostly not even good at or passing
sure i didn't even apply to any UCs but I figured a SU would do
and now I feel like this whole horrible year
of trying to please everyone
was a big fat waste of time
and no it's not really because of money issues
my dad doesn't see the attraction to SF
why bother commuting all that way?
and what's so great that makes you want to go there?
and what are you going to study?
and thanks to my great grandma's seizure last week that scared the crap out of my dad
staying with her is something he doesn't want me to do
so i'm done trying
i really have no goals in life
and that's becoming depressing to me
eh who really needs college right?
it's all a scam...
i should go join the circus
I'm not going to San Francisco State
it's surprising how much this has hurt me
even though I must have seen it coming
I'm pissed now
because I took these fucking ap classes to get into college
that i'm mostly not even good at or passing
sure i didn't even apply to any UCs but I figured a SU would do
and now I feel like this whole horrible year
of trying to please everyone
was a big fat waste of time
and no it's not really because of money issues
my dad doesn't see the attraction to SF
why bother commuting all that way?
and what's so great that makes you want to go there?
and what are you going to study?
and thanks to my great grandma's seizure last week that scared the crap out of my dad
staying with her is something he doesn't want me to do
so i'm done trying
i really have no goals in life
and that's becoming depressing to me
eh who really needs college right?
it's all a scam...
i should go join the circus