Bloody Romance...
Ok, so theres only one thing in my life that I know for sure.... I want to die in Ireland. I can't explain it, its more on a spiritual level. It feels that my soul is being called to there. I'm not sure about the rest of my life, but thats about the only thing I really do care about. Dieing in Ireland , would be like, being showered by a thousand of kisses by a lover.
Earlier today I tried to explain this to Greg. I felt like he was trying to tell me, how can I know thats what my soul wants. By the end of the conversation he disappeared, and I was left crying. I have no idea why I chose then to start crying. Maybe I guess I got offended by someone I actually care about. He just seem like he was trying to prove me wrong, about knowing what my soul wants. It was heart breaking. God, it felt like he was breaking my heart all over again. I mean the best thing he could've have said was, thats cool...even if he didn't agree. Geeze I gave him, a "thats cool", when he told me he was getting married...and this was only about 5 months after he dumped me. Although my heart wanted me to tell him, "no I don't agree," I still just said thats cool. I wanted him to be happy. I still really love and adore Greg. And it just really sucks, that I'm just a friend. But geesh, it just felt like his main purpose for today, was to crush me.
Earlier today I tried to explain this to Greg. I felt like he was trying to tell me, how can I know thats what my soul wants. By the end of the conversation he disappeared, and I was left crying. I have no idea why I chose then to start crying. Maybe I guess I got offended by someone I actually care about. He just seem like he was trying to prove me wrong, about knowing what my soul wants. It was heart breaking. God, it felt like he was breaking my heart all over again. I mean the best thing he could've have said was, thats cool...even if he didn't agree. Geeze I gave him, a "thats cool", when he told me he was getting married...and this was only about 5 months after he dumped me. Although my heart wanted me to tell him, "no I don't agree," I still just said thats cool. I wanted him to be happy. I still really love and adore Greg. And it just really sucks, that I'm just a friend. But geesh, it just felt like his main purpose for today, was to crush me.