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It's been a long time since the "first times." The first time we met...to the first time we kissed..to our first fight...our first good-bye..our first tears...to the last "I love you" People say you never realize what you have until you lose it. In a way they're right. But I never took you for granted because I knew any day I could wake up and you would be gone. I just hoped so much, it wouldn't be for a very long time. But now I miss all those things, I never really noticed. Like how much I miss your hands holding mine and most of all I miss your smile. No matter what was wrong all you had to do was give me that smile of yours and somehow I knew everything was going to be alright. I haven't seen that smile in forever. I just keep hoping I'll see it again so I can have that feeling that everything is going to be alright again. I'm not all right. I'm anything but okay right now. I just keep wondering if I'm ever on your mind. Or if you miss my smile too. I wonder if you wake up in the middle of the night, and can't sleep because I'm on your mind. I miss you soo much. There's nothing I can say that would ever make you understand just what you mean to me. I want more than anythng to see your smile again, and know its for me...I need something to hang onto..I need you<3