JUSTLISTEN.
alriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.
to start off.
i really don't like how this year is ending. if i have to cry for people to forgive me, i will.
i can't STAND loosing so MANY fucking friends in a period of 2 weeks. it's not very pleasant.
so people telling me how i've been acting like a bitch and my excuse is "no, people are being bitches to me" is very lame. i REALLY can't understand how differnt i've been acting, but i really can't handle it anymore. it's veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy sad. all i want is to go back to... 3 weeks ago. i was very happy.
ive been fucking up ROYALY andd i realllllly just want to APOLIGIZE.
most of the people that i'm going to put on this list are going to laugh. and NEVER look at me the same and just be my friend cause they're obligated. i really hope this isn't the case.
okay.
JAMIE- you are the person this is mainly going out to. you have been sooo awesome to me this year. i cant believe our friendship thrown out the window because of how ive been acting lately. if i comes to friends or people that are more than just friends. i know its sad how i have to apoligize over this, but when i call you all i hear is "what"... just catching up. and online you dont answer me. if you dont want to make anything of this, i will never forgive myself. online i just wouldnt know what to say. and if everyone reads this i really dont care... cause i really dont have anything to hide. so ma'am id appreciate if we could just talk. and if not... heh. are we still going after christmas shopping?
SHAWNA- mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. wtf happened. AT THIS TIME LAST YEAR WE WERE AT YOUR HOUSE SMOKING WEED WATCHING AMERICAS FUNNIEST VIDEOS. i miss you so much. i know ive been being a bitch too... but all of a sudden after the first time i got mad about some stupid subject... chicks before dicks... anyway i dont care about that anymore. all i want is to chill and not having it be just to go to a party... just chill like we used to. i misssss youuuuuuuuu. omg. iknowww like i really suck at smoking but i thought our friendship was more than that... i just dont know anymore. i hate to make it seem like im crawling back... but just thinking of how our friendship was only cause of the conveinence and drugs... just makes me feel like that couldnt be all of it. i know we could still chill and not making it that way. but the thing with these kind of things its only my opinion. so... if we could talk id REALLY appreciate it... i think i overreacted... so? ... .
LAUREN- i guess there really isnt anything that has gone wrong. but i was being fucked up at the party... i think we stopped chilling cause of jamie... but youve been awesome too. if you can convince people we should go to titos and go shopping?
&brett but he wont be reading this.
alright guys. now that you know that im vulnerable... can you be considerate?
thanks.
that was a waste for anyone else reading this. HAH.