break down
well i woke up at 11 just so i could see jeff today cuz they where having a scrimage and it started at like 1ish or 2 yea lol. his mom was there so yea =/ hung out with nelson and heather also kellie and kristina where there and then paige and danela came. then i had to go home and babysit at 4:30 got in a little trouble cuz i wasnt home on time. wanted to go back to the varsity game with them but my mom wasnt home yet so jeff and nelson also jp came ove rmy house it was that fun but i got to see jeff we huged and kiss they had to leave =[ my sister was beign annoyign and then i got in trouble me and my mom got into a really big fight i was cryign for hours now i have a headache and yea. but things are better now. but i got found out jeff got in trouble =[[[[ god why?
but as i was crying long storry i though for hours while i was crying.
but i am a mean person =/
maybe not all the times and i have amde mistakes na di may not seem leik a mena perosn to you but i find myself mean for jsut tlakign a little bit abotu some ppl and they arnt even my friends so you mgith think its not mean but yeaa idk i just was thinkign aobut a lot of things now.
and now i wanna cry again cuz jeff woudlnt have gotten in trouble if he didnt have to come to my house and i shoudl have let them leave earlier and omg i hate this ill never ever be able to see himmm or tlak to him fjghshgksjgksgjdksjfksjfdghskjfghksjdfhgkjsghkjfsghksjgkjsfghkjsfg
i wanna like run away or soemthign and just get away from everything it would be nice i guess. well yea i gues im just a little sorta upset now.
i just kind afeel like i have been kicked to the curb and run over and beatenmy head kills and i feel stupid and that i have made so many mistakes and i shoudl have said what i tol dmy sister that got my mom mad at me i wasnt thinking i just got really mad.
and now i fucked that up buz i tol dher i hated her tho she forgave me but still i shoudlnt have dont any of that shit and this stupid carma would come back at me.
im so fucking sorry
but as i was crying long storry i though for hours while i was crying.
but i am a mean person =/
maybe not all the times and i have amde mistakes na di may not seem leik a mena perosn to you but i find myself mean for jsut tlakign a little bit abotu some ppl and they arnt even my friends so you mgith think its not mean but yeaa idk i just was thinkign aobut a lot of things now.
and now i wanna cry again cuz jeff woudlnt have gotten in trouble if he didnt have to come to my house and i shoudl have let them leave earlier and omg i hate this ill never ever be able to see himmm or tlak to him fjghshgksjgksgjdksjfksjfdghskjfghksjdfhgkjsghkjfsghksjgkjsfghkjsfg
i wanna like run away or soemthign and just get away from everything it would be nice i guess. well yea i gues im just a little sorta upset now.
i just kind afeel like i have been kicked to the curb and run over and beatenmy head kills and i feel stupid and that i have made so many mistakes and i shoudl have said what i tol dmy sister that got my mom mad at me i wasnt thinking i just got really mad.
and now i fucked that up buz i tol dher i hated her tho she forgave me but still i shoudlnt have dont any of that shit and this stupid carma would come back at me.
im so fucking sorry