Happy Halloween Bitches.
things have been...hellish...lately. really. things just keep on getting worse, too. thankfully, I've got Anna here for me helping me like crazy. Others kinda sorta help too....but not quite. They try.
Anna made me make a list...two, rather. One of everything bad in me that i can see. Then one of everything good in me that I can see.
more update later. 8 ball with shasta calls.
*edited*
Wow...what an abrupt ending up there! Haha...didn't realize I had really done that!
Let's see..Now, with those lists, I have to take the bad one and extend it so that for every one bad thing I had written, there will be two beneath it. The two beneath it are explanations of the bad thing. Example:
1. Drinking
a. “Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has strife? Who has complaints? Who has needless bruises? Who has bloodshot eyes? Those who linger over wine, who go to sample bowls of mixed wine. Do not gaze at wine when it is red, when it sparkles in the cup, when it goes down smoothly! In the end it bites like a snake and poisons like a viper.” Proverbs 23: 29-32.
b. Not really sure where at in my life this has come from. I had my first alcoholic drink maybe a year and a half ago. Never had any exposure to it prior to that because my parents are strongly against drinking. My father used to drink, as does his entire family, but he stopped when he met my mother. My father’s side of the family has had many deaths from alcoholism, but not in any relation to where it would pass onto me. Drinking is appealing to me. Don’t know why.
The first part is WHY it is bad(Bible verse if possible) and then the second part is where this is coming from from me...if that makes sense. Such as, where in my past or environment or feelings or whatever, do I feel the need to do this bad thing. It's really helping a lot. Anna is helping me more than I ever imagined anyone ever could.
Life did take a good turn this past weekend though. I've been in a good mood for...eh...4 days now? It's amazing. AND I had an amazing date last night. I'm dating this guy named Brandon...he lives in Villa Rica which is where my parents live...he's 23 and works A LOT! It's hard to schedule dates around my schedule and his because I go back to VR for our dates and that's an hour drive. We went at saw SAW III last night.....AMAZING! So very intense! My sister and her friend came too(they knew that I would be there...and my mom knew that she would be there...but didn't say anything to me...grrr.) Anyways, the movie, as I said, was amazing. Very intense. Very gory...and insanely twisted! But that was what made it so good!
Well, more later. I'll start posting in here more often because no one reads :) I feel safe here.
Shower time, then research project time...then HALLOWEEN TIME! I'm Zorro for Halloween this year!!! It's amazing. I look great in black.
<3
ME.
Anna made me make a list...two, rather. One of everything bad in me that i can see. Then one of everything good in me that I can see.
more update later. 8 ball with shasta calls.
*edited*
Wow...what an abrupt ending up there! Haha...didn't realize I had really done that!
Let's see..Now, with those lists, I have to take the bad one and extend it so that for every one bad thing I had written, there will be two beneath it. The two beneath it are explanations of the bad thing. Example:
1. Drinking
a. “Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has strife? Who has complaints? Who has needless bruises? Who has bloodshot eyes? Those who linger over wine, who go to sample bowls of mixed wine. Do not gaze at wine when it is red, when it sparkles in the cup, when it goes down smoothly! In the end it bites like a snake and poisons like a viper.” Proverbs 23: 29-32.
b. Not really sure where at in my life this has come from. I had my first alcoholic drink maybe a year and a half ago. Never had any exposure to it prior to that because my parents are strongly against drinking. My father used to drink, as does his entire family, but he stopped when he met my mother. My father’s side of the family has had many deaths from alcoholism, but not in any relation to where it would pass onto me. Drinking is appealing to me. Don’t know why.
The first part is WHY it is bad(Bible verse if possible) and then the second part is where this is coming from from me...if that makes sense. Such as, where in my past or environment or feelings or whatever, do I feel the need to do this bad thing. It's really helping a lot. Anna is helping me more than I ever imagined anyone ever could.
Life did take a good turn this past weekend though. I've been in a good mood for...eh...4 days now? It's amazing. AND I had an amazing date last night. I'm dating this guy named Brandon...he lives in Villa Rica which is where my parents live...he's 23 and works A LOT! It's hard to schedule dates around my schedule and his because I go back to VR for our dates and that's an hour drive. We went at saw SAW III last night.....AMAZING! So very intense! My sister and her friend came too(they knew that I would be there...and my mom knew that she would be there...but didn't say anything to me...grrr.) Anyways, the movie, as I said, was amazing. Very intense. Very gory...and insanely twisted! But that was what made it so good!
Well, more later. I'll start posting in here more often because no one reads :) I feel safe here.
Shower time, then research project time...then HALLOWEEN TIME! I'm Zorro for Halloween this year!!! It's amazing. I look great in black.
<3
ME.