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So I've done a really shitty job of updating this thing, but I promise to try and get better.
Things kinda suck right now. I mean yes they could get a WHOLE lot worse but yeah... my Pawpaw (the one that lives with me) is in the hospital for a really bad bladder infection that could be part of something else worse... I don't really know much of the details, just that he has to stay overnight at least tonight because they have him hooked up to IV's for antibiotics. On top of that, my dog is most likely going to be put to sleep tonight. For those of you who don't know, I love my dog to death and I've had him since I can even remember. Like, 14 years. So its hard to think about not having him around. Two nights ago I came home from dinner with AJ, and he was laying weird, breathing heavy, and refused to move. He was litteraly like a sack of potatoes. And once again, anyone who knows me knows I freak out, and so I spent the next like, 4 hours crying while my mom took care of him. She laid in a recliner in our living room and held him and covered him in a blanket and just rubbed him all night. The most moving he was doing was clenching his stomache. I was convinced he would be gone when I woke up, but it was quite the opposite. My mom woke me up at like, 8 to tell me he was fine, that he'd fallen out of the chair in the middle of the night and peeed (how many e's is that?!) and stuff, but that once my dad went in to the office to work on the computer and she left to take a shower, he got up and pranced in there like nothing was wrong! So we don't really know what was up, but since then he's been a little less mobile and stuff and my parents have basically decided its time. Its sad like none other, and I keep randomly crying but its for the best and hopefully it will be all good soon.
So yeah! Things aren't all peachy keen like I wish they were, but its not that bad. AJ's been really busy with school this week, so my contact with him has been at a bare minimum, but he's been talking to me on the phone a lot and trying his best to make me feel better about things so that means a lot... and Hayden's out of town so he's going to come home and be like, WTF so I don't have him either. Basically, I'm on my own! But I can handle it.. I think?
Its been so long I forgot to update about orientation!! It was good... met a ton of people, including my roommate. She seems cool and stuff, more like me than not. Which is a good thing, right? I also met this girl Libby, and this guy Kansas (Austin's his real name but... whatever) and made good friends with them. Whether or not I ever see/talk to them again is a different story but I hope to! They were tons of fun. Basically I went to a whole bunch of classes on random things and took random tours. All of which I paid like zero attention to. I saw Xavier a few times, and he called my SOL to track me down at one point which was totally cute. And the opitomy (sp) of cuteness was AJ coming to say goodnight randomly before I went to bed :) Totally made my day. All in all, it was fun but I was glad to be off campus and back to my normal routine after 2 days. I didn't get to see my dorm because its still being built, but I did get to stay in the one that is supposed to be exactly like it, and its nice and roomy. Plus curfew rules are neat. I have no curfew during school year, but, boys aren't allowed in my room after midnight Sunday-Thursday, and 2 am Friday and Saturday. Meh, could be worse I guess. I signed up for classes and officially changed my major from Math to Communications. I'm taking: Cybertopia as Freshmen Studies (Rhet and Comp) (DONT LAUGH! I had like, no choice in the matter. It was that or something about China), Intro to Comm, and Presentational Speaking. I'm also signed up for Chem, but I think I'm going to drop it and do a summer course eventually. I don't have to take it, but my counseler just wanted me to have 15 when I first signed up. I deffinantly plan on taking fewer courses, doing a whole lot better, and working... rather than cramming all the time and having no life.
Speaking of work, its all I've been doing. I get up, get ready, work work work, then hang out with AJ before going to sleep and starting over. I get paid tommorow which is nice, and I'm making good money but eventually I'm going to get really burned out. But the people are nice, mostly, and I get a kick ass discount so I'm not complaining too much. Its fun for the most part and only a pain in the ass sometimes so... yeah!
All things considering, I'm doing pretty good. I'm excited to be turning 18, then I move into my dorm not even a week later, then start classes, and its a whole new beginning kinda! Things are good with the boyfriend, the job, and the family (mostly) and once everyone gets back in town, I plan on spending more time with my friends. I totally fell victim to Facebook... I'm such a nerd! But its kinda fun to be meeting people I'll be seeing all the time next year so wheres the harm in it?
Well, this is incredibly long, AJ's calling, and everyone's returning from the hospital so its time to get going.
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