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Things go from absolutly great to absolute crap. Pattern maybe? Nah...
What sucks is relying on a false sense of security, and then the feeling of having a rug snatched out from under your feet and knocking you to the ground. Certain actions or or... I don't know, just certain things don't seal some sort of agreement that things will turn out a certain way all the time (or even ever for that matter?) and I guess in my past experiances I should've learned that, but I guess I chose to forget it. Its just that sometimes it seems like something, big or small, can have such a grand affect that things are set to be perfect from that point on. Or not even perfect, just not so shitty. And whoever gave us that idea anyways? Was it the same guy responsible for "Any broken heart can be fixed with a little TLC and a nice fat chocolate bar"? Cause really, thats bull shit and everyone knows it. But still you trick yourself into believing it'll work and you're just more upset when it doesn't. I mean its not the same, or as bad as living a lie or anything, but in all honesty aren't you? You're just sitting on one giant time bomb waiting for it to explode. I think the proper US History term was "powder keg". So there you have it, my life is one big giant powder keg.
On the upside, I get to work 2-close tommorow!! That should be all the great fun....
Right.