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so i have a half hour right now, to do absolutely nothing. and its not just that i'm wasting time, i actually have everything that i need to do today, done. this is wonderful. today was how i want everyday to go. i got up at a decent hour, went to all my classes, didn't come home inbetween classes, so i went to the library and finished my homework (though i know not everyday i'll be able to get all my homework done inbetween classes, but still) and then yeah. i still have another class tonight, but its such a wonderful feelign knowing that i dont' have to do a singlething after class except go see him.
i hope everyday can go this well. its kind of discouraging knowing that everyday i'll have to start over and do everythign all over again, but oh well. its only a chance everyday to get this satisfaction.
today i'm doing well with my diet too. i hope that i can have this success everyday too. that would make me very happy with myself.
um. i am excited for duluth.
its so nice to have everything done and have enough time in teh day to also do what i want to do, and not have to rush through things just to make sure they get done.
i wish thomas and i could live together. it would be so much easier and i would love it so much more than where i'm at now. i hate the grand marc...only becuase i don't like kelle and chelsae because i don't know them, so i can't control everything in my o.c.d. power....and becuase its so inconveneient to live here, with driving and parking and thomas being twenty minutes away. which in all actuality is really a long way. twenty minutes...yeah.
i have realized that i dont' really need friends anymore. i have eveyrthing i need in thomas. i mean i still like talking to liz and lydia...but when i'm with them hanging out, i'm always just thinking about when it'll be done, vs how much fun i'm having...and then when i can see thomas again. so ya. i have lost friends, but i really don't care. i know this is ok for me, becuase i was an introvert to begin with. though, if thomas ever wanted to hang out with a group of his friends or something, i'd be up for that too, becuase i'd get to be with him. :)
i hope everyday can go this well. its kind of discouraging knowing that everyday i'll have to start over and do everythign all over again, but oh well. its only a chance everyday to get this satisfaction.
today i'm doing well with my diet too. i hope that i can have this success everyday too. that would make me very happy with myself.
um. i am excited for duluth.
its so nice to have everything done and have enough time in teh day to also do what i want to do, and not have to rush through things just to make sure they get done.
i wish thomas and i could live together. it would be so much easier and i would love it so much more than where i'm at now. i hate the grand marc...only becuase i don't like kelle and chelsae because i don't know them, so i can't control everything in my o.c.d. power....and becuase its so inconveneient to live here, with driving and parking and thomas being twenty minutes away. which in all actuality is really a long way. twenty minutes...yeah.
i have realized that i dont' really need friends anymore. i have eveyrthing i need in thomas. i mean i still like talking to liz and lydia...but when i'm with them hanging out, i'm always just thinking about when it'll be done, vs how much fun i'm having...and then when i can see thomas again. so ya. i have lost friends, but i really don't care. i know this is ok for me, becuase i was an introvert to begin with. though, if thomas ever wanted to hang out with a group of his friends or something, i'd be up for that too, becuase i'd get to be with him. :)