so i guess im the new girl now...
How long have you been cutting? about 2 years
And do you actually want to stop? sometimes
Why/Why not? i love it, but my best friend gets really upset when i do it.
Do you cut lines or words? both
Have you ever taken a pic of it? not for a while
Do you have any rituals? i close my eyes while im doing it and then once its done i watch the blood
What do you like best about cutting? it hurts. it makes me feel real
Are you ashamed to be a cutter? no
What do you use to cut? anything i can get my hands on
Are you happy with what you use to cut? not really. i had a really nice knife but it was confiscated.
Have you been diagnosed with anything? no, my parents wont take me to the doctor about it.
Do you self diagnose? no
Are you on medication? no
Do you self medicate? no
Ever been in a psych hospital? yes
What for/ how long? a few hours. i talked the doctors into thinking it was all a misunderstanding.
Have you tried to commit suicide? no
Do you still have those thoughts? yes, every second of every day
Have you ever needed stitches? no
Are you afraid that one time you might slice too deep? no
Has anyone ever stopped being your friend because they found out about your cutting? no
What happened with that? everyone that found out has been really supportive. i dont know if i like that or not.
What is your worst experience related to cutting? the first time my older brother thought i was actually going to kill myself. he couldn't stop cryin (we're like best friends)
What has been your best experience related to cutting? my 3rd or 4th time... the rush was inSANE
Would you ever do sadomasochistic stuff like getting your partner to cut you and vice versa? no i like to do it to myself.
Do you fantasize about hurting others in anyway? earlier this week i wanted to hurt my best friend. it scared me.
If yes, how? i just wanted to take his shoulders and shake him really really hard. and i wanted to hit him in the face.
And would you like to really do it in real life? yes
(Do you think you would?) no
Thought about killing someone? other them myself no
Do you dream of that? yes. other people and me
Could you do it? no
Tell us something we don't know about yourself: i've never had braces
And do you actually want to stop? sometimes
Why/Why not? i love it, but my best friend gets really upset when i do it.
Do you cut lines or words? both
Have you ever taken a pic of it? not for a while
Do you have any rituals? i close my eyes while im doing it and then once its done i watch the blood
What do you like best about cutting? it hurts. it makes me feel real
Are you ashamed to be a cutter? no
What do you use to cut? anything i can get my hands on
Are you happy with what you use to cut? not really. i had a really nice knife but it was confiscated.
Have you been diagnosed with anything? no, my parents wont take me to the doctor about it.
Do you self diagnose? no
Are you on medication? no
Do you self medicate? no
Ever been in a psych hospital? yes
What for/ how long? a few hours. i talked the doctors into thinking it was all a misunderstanding.
Have you tried to commit suicide? no
Do you still have those thoughts? yes, every second of every day
Have you ever needed stitches? no
Are you afraid that one time you might slice too deep? no
Has anyone ever stopped being your friend because they found out about your cutting? no
What happened with that? everyone that found out has been really supportive. i dont know if i like that or not.
What is your worst experience related to cutting? the first time my older brother thought i was actually going to kill myself. he couldn't stop cryin (we're like best friends)
What has been your best experience related to cutting? my 3rd or 4th time... the rush was inSANE
Would you ever do sadomasochistic stuff like getting your partner to cut you and vice versa? no i like to do it to myself.
Do you fantasize about hurting others in anyway? earlier this week i wanted to hurt my best friend. it scared me.
If yes, how? i just wanted to take his shoulders and shake him really really hard. and i wanted to hit him in the face.
And would you like to really do it in real life? yes
(Do you think you would?) no
Thought about killing someone? other them myself no
Do you dream of that? yes. other people and me
Could you do it? no
Tell us something we don't know about yourself: i've never had braces