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Time started: 22:31
Name: Ali
Age: 18
Location: UK
Birthdate: 1992
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How long have you been cutting? 5 years
And do you actually want to stop? Yes and No
Why/Why not? Yes because i dont want to be dependant on it as a coping method. No because it feels so damn good and nothing works in the way that does.
Do you cut line's or words? Lines
Have you every taken a pic. of it? No, I dont need any evidence of it anywhere.
Do you have any rituals? Always have to cut in multiples of 5
What do you like best about cutting? The relief it gives me.
Are you ashamed to be a cutter? No, but im not proud of it either.
What do you use to cut? Craft knife blades, scissors, whatever I can find if they're not to hand.
Are you happy with what you use to cut? Yeah- blunts easy though
Have you been diagnosed with anything? No
By whom?
Do you self diagnose? I try not to.
What would you say you had if you had to diagnose yourself? rapid cycling bi polar or borderline personality
Are you on medication? Nope
What kind/s?
Do you self medicate? Nope
Do you purposly take more/less? which?
Ever been in psych hospital? No
What for/how long?
Have you tried to commit suicide? Once
Do you still have those thoughts? Every day
Have you ever needed stitches? Ive never GOT stitches.
Are you afraid that one time you might slice too deep? Yes
Has anyone ever stopped being your friend because they found out about your cutting? No. But she made me promise to stop.
What happened with that? I didnt. I just hid it better.
What is your worst experience relating to cutting? Bleeding all over my sheets and pjs and having to make up excuses as to why.
What has been your best experience with cutting? When i get really angry and just cut and cut and cut.
Would you ever do sadomasochistic stuff, like getting your partner to cut you and vice versa? Ive asked him to. I hope he will.
Do you fantasise about hurting others in anyway? Sometimes
If yes, How? various knife-related injuries.
And would you like to really do it in real life? No
(Do you think you would?)
What about killing someone? Ive thought about it
Do you dream of that?
Could you do it? Never.
Tell us something we don't know about yourself. To everyone I know, i am the least likely person to SI. No one would expect it of me. Ever.
Time finished: 22:45
Date: 15-08-10
Name: Ali
Age: 18
Location: UK
Birthdate: 1992
MSN:
AIM:
YAHOO:
Email:
How long have you been cutting? 5 years
And do you actually want to stop? Yes and No
Why/Why not? Yes because i dont want to be dependant on it as a coping method. No because it feels so damn good and nothing works in the way that does.
Do you cut line's or words? Lines
Have you every taken a pic. of it? No, I dont need any evidence of it anywhere.
Do you have any rituals? Always have to cut in multiples of 5
What do you like best about cutting? The relief it gives me.
Are you ashamed to be a cutter? No, but im not proud of it either.
What do you use to cut? Craft knife blades, scissors, whatever I can find if they're not to hand.
Are you happy with what you use to cut? Yeah- blunts easy though
Have you been diagnosed with anything? No
By whom?
Do you self diagnose? I try not to.
What would you say you had if you had to diagnose yourself? rapid cycling bi polar or borderline personality
Are you on medication? Nope
What kind/s?
Do you self medicate? Nope
Do you purposly take more/less? which?
Ever been in psych hospital? No
What for/how long?
Have you tried to commit suicide? Once
Do you still have those thoughts? Every day
Have you ever needed stitches? Ive never GOT stitches.
Are you afraid that one time you might slice too deep? Yes
Has anyone ever stopped being your friend because they found out about your cutting? No. But she made me promise to stop.
What happened with that? I didnt. I just hid it better.
What is your worst experience relating to cutting? Bleeding all over my sheets and pjs and having to make up excuses as to why.
What has been your best experience with cutting? When i get really angry and just cut and cut and cut.
Would you ever do sadomasochistic stuff, like getting your partner to cut you and vice versa? Ive asked him to. I hope he will.
Do you fantasise about hurting others in anyway? Sometimes
If yes, How? various knife-related injuries.
And would you like to really do it in real life? No
(Do you think you would?)
What about killing someone? Ive thought about it
Do you dream of that?
Could you do it? Never.
Tell us something we don't know about yourself. To everyone I know, i am the least likely person to SI. No one would expect it of me. Ever.
Time finished: 22:45
Date: 15-08-10