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I've been in such a bitter mood today. I don't like it, for the passed month I've been way too negative. I'm just not happy with the way things are going really. The only thing I am happy about is my band, which I'm really liking how we're doing now. But everything else bothers me. I don't even know how I could write without making me sound whiney and stupid. I don't think I'm living how people should. Like, everything I do/say/think conflicts with myself. I think I need medication. Theres one side of me that just goes with the flow, who cares what happens, but the other that over analyze's everything and always wants a plan. Their's the me that just wants to be the fuck away from everyone else for ever, and the one that never wants to be alone. That could classified as very mild shizophrenia, couldn't it? haha. I don't hallucinate, thankfully. I don't hear things that don't exist, but sometimes I think I do hear people call my name, but I think that's normal haha.
I just need to make up my mind and stop fucking up with everyone, because I'm tired of being like this.
I just need to make up my mind and stop fucking up with everyone, because I'm tired of being like this.