i hate storms, unlike you.
i am so happy right now and it makes me really appreciate what i have at this time. sometimes when i look at the past, all i see is misery in comparison to the present. i just cant believe how negative my lifestyle was. i would have never realized it if it wasnt for change. im sure many talk about how i'm some drunkie clubhead now, but do they really know? it dosent bother me so much, though. now a days many think they know a person from their myspace profile. ha. i learned that people really AREN'T quite what they seem when i wasted a year and a half with a physco who tried to physically abuse me, cheated on me, never let me hang out with my best girlfriend, monitered my cell phone, and never let me spend my own work money on myself because he made me pay for his gas money to come see ME! HA. i realize it was my fault for putting up with him, but to be on track with the point i'm trying to make, he was soooo different when i first met him. when i first met him i met that guy off myspace. seemed confident, charming, funny, considerate, and intelligent. not much time passed till i met the real person behind that big, fake, smile. take all the characteristics i stated and take the opposite of those. inside that person was my worst nightmare. i guess i just stayed because i was young, it was my first real serious relationship, i was gulible...haha, and i thought maybe that guy i met the first time would return. but he would put on an act as if he changed but it was the same bullshit over and over. and the sad part about it is that his friends knew, and because they didnt want to get on his bad side, they kept their mouths shut. i cant wait till their asses get straight played. karma's a bitch. and at least i can say that karma was definitely always on my side.
whoo! i guess its been a while and i had to get some of that off my chest. i guess its just cause i have been so overly happy these past couple of days. life is so good with my boyfriend and daughter that at times, i almost feel like i dont deserve any of it. it feels to good to be true. i freak out that i am going to wake up and it all be a dream and im going to go back to hanging out with negative people with their negative lifestyles and i'd be back with my ex, continuing to pass up good guys and continue getting cheated on and verbally and pretty much physically abused. but i guess it makes getting out of relationships like that to make you realize just how much you really are worth.
i am blessed. i couldnt be happier with anyone else. my boyfriend is it! we see it all, together.
anywayyyyyyyy,
for anyone who cares
my life is good
& can only get better.
my life is not average
and its very exciting.
anddddddd MAN am i lucky :)
for so many things,
but especially my family.
oppurtunity is knocking at my door, too.
always.
i have lots of plans
that i will be doing
and i am excited :)
2007 LEXUS LS....you are MINE by the end of this year.
!!!
whoo! i guess its been a while and i had to get some of that off my chest. i guess its just cause i have been so overly happy these past couple of days. life is so good with my boyfriend and daughter that at times, i almost feel like i dont deserve any of it. it feels to good to be true. i freak out that i am going to wake up and it all be a dream and im going to go back to hanging out with negative people with their negative lifestyles and i'd be back with my ex, continuing to pass up good guys and continue getting cheated on and verbally and pretty much physically abused. but i guess it makes getting out of relationships like that to make you realize just how much you really are worth.
i am blessed. i couldnt be happier with anyone else. my boyfriend is it! we see it all, together.
anywayyyyyyyy,
for anyone who cares
my life is good
& can only get better.
my life is not average
and its very exciting.
anddddddd MAN am i lucky :)
for so many things,
but especially my family.
oppurtunity is knocking at my door, too.
always.
i have lots of plans
that i will be doing
and i am excited :)
2007 LEXUS LS....you are MINE by the end of this year.
!!!